That's nice of your mom, Emma. I always felt the opposite - really loved my dad, but was frustrated because he wouldn't step up for me in front of my mom. It isn't that I don't care about her, just our relationship was really strained growing up. Her mom was horrible to her and I think it was one of those endless cycles of abuse. One of the reasons I didn't want my own kids...I mean I would of if hubby was willing, but it would be a fear of mine for sure.

Sounds good to me, I'll drop you a trade w/ my mule *Neko* =-)

Thats it aspartame!! Was trying to think what it was. It's so bad for you.


Yep you'll be surprised lol. I read loads of articles on artificial sweetners when i was first diagnosed with diabetes.

Your dad does that?? Why?? Thats so weird lol. If that was my dad i'd open my door and punch him square in the face lol.

I hate my dad coz he abandoned me as a child, and hasn't really made an effort for me really. But his other kids that he has with another woman, get treated really well. My younger sister is a spoilt little cow! I've honestly just grown to despise her, she's 21 and hasn't ever had a proper relationship. She sleeps with older guys, and lets guys use her. She reckons it's just fun. But you can tell she's just getting used but too afraid to admit it, because that's all she can get lol. And she's been doing it with older men. Even when she was a teen she was screwing guys 30-40 years old. If my dad found out he would kill her lol. But yeah, i think my dad is the reason for a lot of my failed relationships. -sigh- Parents just have no idea how much of an influence they are on us, whether they're there or not. Or half there in my case lol.

But you, can break the cycle. Believe me. It doesn't have to continue on like that. I know for sure, that i will never put my children (if i have any) through the kind of shit i went through - even with my mum & her pathetic partners she's had. Never ever. Thats why im 27 and still don't have kids. Because i refuse to just have a kid with anyone. Even though a few of my partners have wanted to try. No way, no how, im going to have an absent father for my child.

Cool.
Im gonna go to bed after that ^^

Thanks a lot Roachi! And good night! :3

I think they know the impact they have, but its really difficult to restrain yourself and do the right thing. I know I had a few moments where my husband had to tell me to knock it off as I was not wanting to be like my mom but it was almost an instinctual reaction. It's scary.

Ok roachi I fixed the trade ^^

Mhhm.

Yeah that will be awesome. Does he have some kind of disability why he does that?? He sounds really immature. How can your mother go with someone like that, and have kids to him? I woulda knocked him out ages ago LOL.

The best way to get at those kinds of people, is to ignore them. They hate it LOL

And thank you too sweetie <3

Yeah very true.
So your hubby still adamant he doesn't want anymore kids?


Thanks hun <3

Yep he is. He had an operation and had his tubes tied so its more than likely it for him. Probably best as we are usually struggling to keep ourselves afloat at times. Right now he doesn't know what is going to happen with his job. :/

Ohh thats really sad for you though :(

*shrugs* I never really had an overly strong motherly instinct. Part of me is sad, yes, but at the same time I think I'm being responsible. Right now I feel like I don't really have the resources needed to take care of the kids he has, let alone bring more in the world.

If we ever get stuff straightened out, too, there is always hope for adoption. I think I would get more satisfaction out of adopting, as I'm giving a child who may not of had that chance to have a happy home.

Ohh okay fair enough. I want to have a kid of my own some day. Hopefully before im 35 lol.

That's cool. I know it is a normal thing to want to go through. And I remember spending quite a bit of time talking it through on Mene. There's times where I feel like yah I'm missing out, but to be honest with me working as much as I am right now I really enjoy the 'me' time. I've been watching Chi's posts on Facebook, as well as all the other friends who have become mothers and it is A LOT of work. You feel envious when they post something cute, but you then realize how many times you see just how stressful being a parent is.

Why does it sound like we have helicopters overhead? It is kinda creepy at this time of night. Someone said not far from here they busted a drug house though. :/ Not in the area I live but within a few miles of it.

Yes very true. I guess for me its something i've always wanted. So i'd be sad if it didn't happen for me.

Ohh true, thats weird. Yeah we had some army helicopters out the other night, that was bizzare. They were hovering over our street.

They're looking for us? O_o;

I dunno. I've heard some strange noises from the skies at night. I'm wondering if the government tests out all its new aircraft real late at night in hope they can hide most of their activity. ^^;

LMFAO!! Yeah my brother was being funny and saying. HIDE! They're after you! And doing rolls on the ground xD lol.
Probably. Wouldn't surprise me lol. But then a lot of creepy stuff happens in the US lol.

I have an at the bottom of the garden.

Cool. How much do you want for it? :D

Whatever you see as fair you are in the exchange far more than me and I trust your judgment. :)

Hmm well on my front page its 2.5k to 3k?? So hows 3k?

sounds great to me ill start the trade then.

Cool, thank you :)