Lemme guess... once a month? o.o

I'd honestly prefer that over the crap guys have to deal with daily

Once a month? LOL
I meant on avi sites, i wanna be a guy xD.
Actually bein a guy in RL would be so much better lol.

Why would you want to be a guy? It's horrible :(

Yeah she was 1 month early @[email protected];;

How are you gonna do that? I need some new mates too xD;; I'm just so picky when it comes to hanging out with people... no smokers, drinkers, students, hoes, unmotivated people etc lol!! New people that is, I don't mind my old friends being like that haha.

Yeah I reckon! Our worries back then were... omg, where am I gonna get some stamps, to post my new huge letter to Roach!!!!? and if I was gonna be allowed to watch the TV when I got home from school xD;; Ohhhh the easy life...

That's so awesome Sarah offered to do that! It'll put your mind at rest, if it has to come to that. Trish offered for us too, but I'm not sure if she's actually thought it through. She's a wee bit unreliable like that lol.

Yeah Joe is totally keen to do it, he fully wants to take baby too - but he'll have to be around 2 or 3 years old. Plus I need to pay off most of my student loan X_x;; Stupid interest charges... He's the one who brought that whole thing to my attention. Looks amazing. Is it something you'd think about?

Wow, how'd your dad drop that much weight? Dad has dropped 5kg which is a start. Lol my dad is like that too, looks really haggard and worn out coz of his job X__x;; Joe's dad is older than my dad, but he looks wayyyy younger than my dad.

What kind of pizza did you get? I was naughty, and walked up the road to buy a lotto ticket (Thought what the hey, it's our anni, maybe we will get lucky xD;; ) and ended up in the middle of Queen St! Back at the boutique cake store, to buy Joe some more macarons for his present. Ughhh, it took me a million years to waddle up that dang street hahaha. I enjoyed it though, being in the city by myself, just looking at what other people were up too.

So weird though, this group of teenage girls were sitting on the footpath, one was fully wrapped in her blanket, just texting and calling friends on her big flash cell phone. I was like... wtf?? Not homeless, they were all dressed nicely, and had nice things... so weird.

Awww wow! That's soooo sad :(

I've come to learn that girls are a lot meaner than guys :( So I'm glad I'm not a guy xD;;

Meaner? I dunno most guys just end up stupid really...

But while it's said girls deal with major hormone issues every month... guys deal with a non-blood version their whole life.

UM i dunno, haha. Im thinking next year im gonna join some social groups? Maybe a sport? I honestly don't know, im a bit too old for this whole getting to know new people thing xD. Hahaha that's so funny, but true lol.

Bwahaha omg so true!! I loved skills though, those were awesome times <3

Yeah she said she bein pregnant, but she'd do it for me. Thats dedication there lol. But i'd do it for a close friend too if i could. Why not give someone a wonderful like that if you can aye? OMG trish, crack up lol. Is she still havin her wedding in dec?

Hmm fair enough. I'd wanna be debt free too before i leave to go anywhere. But who knows what the future holds right? Lol might meet a rich dude right here :P. Yes i do think about it often. My main priority is to be financially secure. And i think im setting the stones in place now... i think it will pick up over the next year or so. I've come a long way, from struggling my ass off and stuff. Im in a very serene, content place right now. My tarot card reader was amazed at how contented i am. He said he has never had that peace. I've shifted in a very big way since my breakup with Rob. My focus has always been to be in love and have a great relationship. I still want that, but im just seein the big part i play in this whole situation, and what i need to do for myself. Im actually ok on my own, i see that now lol.

My dads a truckie now, and he worked two jobs, so truck driving and farm hand. Thats how he lost heaps of weight lol. I bet your step mum is feeding him up on shit too.

Chicken and cranberry nomnom!!
OOOHH goodluck dude, don't forget me if you win the mega one!! LOL
Yum they sound delicious @@. Yeah i wanna do that one day just train into britomart and walk up the road, check out the shops and stop for lunch. I also wanna go check out victoria park market. Haven't been in ages.

Really? Not foreigners?? Lol

Yahh my uncle lenny and my cousin darcy. I think it's been 2 years since uncle len died, right on his bday too. And darcy is older then me. But been blind all his life. It's pretty sad. He's relied on his grandmother his entire life (as he's lived with her all his life).

@Poet - eh?? non blood version? LOL
its more then just periods though lol

@ Roachi - Like what?

Child birth, weight gain, crazy emotions the list could go on lol.

lol... I have the complete opposite problem with weight... o.o poet got dangerously underweight a few months back...

Poet wouldn't mind dealing with childbirth... poet has a lot higher pain tolerance than most people

Well ok you be a girl n i'll be a guy. We'll swap? LOL
Honestly life is so much easier for a guy then a girl.

At least you're allowed to cry...

Guys can cry too lol.

Society frowns so heavily that if you cry people will harass you

Pfft to society lol

Well.... poet thought the same thing... and poet sorta got shunned by society for a long time...

I guess your right. But who cares what people think. Live the way you want, and fuck everyone else lol

*blinks* No thanks... they're probably dirty... ^^"

While I really shouldn't... I do care what people think of me...

LOL you know what i mean.
Really. You shouldn't. You will only end up disappointed.

Erm... sorta? There's 2 ways to take that

Hard when poet doesn't like poet's appearance either though.

Well i don't think anyone does to be honest. Everyone sees imperfections, flaws etc.
But you can't live by other peoples expectations.

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I mean im fat and i hate that, and i guess on some level im super conscious of that. But i don't give two f's what people think of me lol. It's only what i feel that counts. I've been through years of fat abuse from kids from adults. But i figured it's not me with the problem, it's them. Because they don't like what they see. Fuck them! I don't complain about how fat they are or bald or ugly or too tall ya know? To each their own.

I only complain about fat people who say "I need to go on a diet" before proceeding to shovel junk food.

Well poet's always been uncertain of who poet is... so it doesn't help... plus poet doesn't know what girls "like" to see because poet wasn't social enough in school

I don't make excuses for my weight i agree im lazy xD. Though i have lost 12kgs. But i put on a couple on my brothers bday weekend. And subsequently hit a block lol.

Ahh well i can't speak for everyone woman. I know what i look for xD.
But Roachi has never been a superficial sort of person. I never go for looks. As long as you bathe regularly, and are respectful and stuff.

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<OH and you gotta have a job and support yourself, coz im so not doing that crap with any future bf again xD.

At least you don't whine about it. [lol] it's annoying it's not like I whined about being 30lbs underweight and looking like a ghost o.o both sides are just as bad aren't they?

Poet's partner doesn't care... but poet really wishes poet were attractive to them :(

Well I'm planning to do that with my partner, because she's disabled so she can't work.

Yeah totally xD. People are just mean and judgemental. I think though when i do lose this weight and i will, coz i want to have babies. I will know what its like to be fat and talked about, and picked on. And i'd be conscious of the journey and the hard work it takes.

Well you must be if you've had a wife and all? Lol



Yes well that's a different circumstance. And you've known this before you got together. I had no choice. My partner quit his job and landed me in a bad place, having to pay for his ass, and struggle and never move forward with my own plans. And plus it's more acceptable for the woman to be at home. But not if you have no reason to be at home.

[cheer] you've got poet supporting you the whole way :D

I dunno... apparently I was "attractive enough" but her ex was "hotter" so she got back with him. So I'm not really sure if she was just manipulating me or not.

I always struggle really bad at applications... I'm a really hard worker... I just suck at getting from point A to B...


Yeah... I have wanted to take care of her for years. She's a great girl who has been through enough.