I like the little floating scroller bar on that website....

Other than that I'm kinda like meh. The legs in the Avvie base are skinny little chicken legs and I cannot stop staring at them. Lol.

Hey there roach! How are you doing? Now that thanksgiving is over I should have a little more me time. Woohoo. Work in a half hour....I'm wishing I had one more day off.

Hey Izu.
Yeah i wish i had another day off. Im so tired from bein woken up early this morning by my big mouth mother lol.
Argh now i gotta go to stupid work xD

Arrrrgh for work here too. My head has been swimming all day. Soooo looking forward to it being over with.

I miss work ;-;
Sucks being at home, all the time... doubt I'll be saying that in a few weeks time though :S

@Izu - I actually had a good day, despite one of the finance girls not being at work and me having to do her work. LOL
@Kita - YAY, come find me :)
@Nivvy - You won't miss it once baby comes lol. Sarah said she doesn't wanna go back lol

Chunsy!! *glomps*
You know i was just thinkin of you the other day too lol. You and mixxy lol. Wondering how you were doin. Im not bad same really lol. You??


LOL it is distracting. Nice, what movie :P)

*sneaks in and joins new site*

;_; I really shouldn't do so until i can get out of this awful lurking funk I'm in.

Yay lizzy *huggles*
I can't be on till later though, kinda sneaking on from work :( -bad-

Aww, Sarah is such a natural at being a mother @[email protected]! Is she gonna go back?

Baby is due in 9 days ^^! I just really want the labour to start, so it can be over and done with lol

Work is over for one more night. Still have another 3 more days. Might even work an extra day for the cash. Don't want to but I'm pretty broke ATM....

I know what you mean xD!!!! I go through phases where I'm like... YAYYY! Then it dawns on me that I will have this helpless person, depending on me 100% for survival. It's pretty scary lol.

All through out the pregnancy, I've been fine with the idea of how painful labour is, and how scary it is, coz it's an unknown thing for me X___x;; But yesterday, my midwife called up, and said there was a problem with my blood work.

If this particular thing in my blood keeps dropping, my blood won't clot if I end up bleeding during labour - and if it goes below 100 (Currently at 112) they can't give me an epidural... So I'm like... noooooo!!! I might not have access to pain relief! Scary D: Who knows though, they might end up doing a c-section if my blood level drops out anymore X_x;;

@Nivvy - Totally aye? Who woulda thought lol. Yes she is lol. She earns too much to not go back lol. Plus they wanna buy a house. Im lookin after baby for a few hours tomorrow while she goes to hockey yay :)

Aww that doesn't sound good at all!! Hope everything is okay.

@Kita - very interesting lol.

It can go any way lol... One of my friends when I was growing up, was dying to be a mother, but then she went on to have a few abortions, and doesn't want them at all lols. So weird how it plays out. Oh yep, time to make that money X_x!

Aww nice! That's awesome she's been able to get back into sport so quickly.

Yeah I have to get referred to a specialist, after the results from yesterdays blood test come back. I'm so annoyed, coz everything has been pretty much sweet - up until this last week and a half! LOL.

Are you serious nivvy? That is weird. How the hell did she come to that conclusion lol.
To be honest after lookin after aly. Even though she's gorgeous and sweet & really good. Im totally not ready for a baby yet lol. Like i'd be good at bein a mum no doubt about that haha. But the whole time i was thinking about myself, and what i gotta do etc etc. xD Though i suppose if it's your own you'd be different. But i'm good bein free for now lol.

Yeah totally.

Wtf why?? What's wrong?? 0____o, that's weird? A specialist so late in your pregnancy??

Oh rob wants to go out for lunch. Dunno if i should?? Just as friends... What do you think?

*prods to the top*
Wow, things have been really slow around here.

I know! Tell me about it! :(

I think she had her rose tinted glasses on about it all, then when she got a pair of younger brothers, it fully made her change her mind lol. Plus she's like you, doesn't feel like she's in a position that she's ready for it.

I can totally understand what you mean though lol, honestly I don't feel ready having a baby either - but it was now or never X___x;; Pretty messed up way for it to play out.

Yeah, it sucks! I didn't wanna say too much on FB, but my blood doesn't clot properly, coz whatever makes it clot, has been decreasing my entire pregnancy! Then outta the blue, last week my midwife sprang it on me! I was like... BEEETCH! Why tell me now?!

I'm at 112, and if I dip below 100 they'll be seriously considering not letting me have an epidural. So if it gets too much, I'll have to get fully knocked out and have a c-section, which means I won't be awake for baby's first moments :( I'm really sad about it!!!! Coz it's likely he'll be my only baby ;-;

They won't let me deliver him, if they think I'll end up bleeding out - coz they won't be able to stop my blood. I'll basically die if that happens...

Anyways, some jerk face decided to smash in one of mum's car windows last night!!!! Thankfully nothing was stolen, coz the car was empty, but I mean COME ON! They woulda seen nothing in there from the outside, but they went ahead and broke in anyway. I feel so sad for mum, coz most of her money goes on her cancer treatment. I am in such a bad mood right now X_x;;

As far as the Rob thing goes..... Do you think he will stick to his word and be just friends? If there's any part of you that has misgivings about it, I honestly wouldn't do it. Just make a clean break from his dramas. You want to focus on yourself right now, not have someone come along, and start making things complicated for you.

omg. i said happy shopping day to both you and seito and you guys were all like "WHAT SHOPPING WUUT??!" >[

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it was the day before/day of black friday shopping!!

Lols @wishy. We don't celebrate turkey day in NZ. But i think sei does *nods*. She said something about shopping.

@Nivvy - True, most girls are like that, especially when your a teen. And your all clucky and wanting a baby. Don't actually feel like that once it's in your arms do ya lol. Yeah - i guess i'll get there at some point lol. I mean i go through stages of wanting one badly. But it wears off. I think it's got a lot to do with the fact i have no energy to do shit these days, let alone look after a baby xD. But i'm sure when i find the right person, i will feel different.

Oh that doesn't sound good dude. Wouldn't you bleed out with a c section also?? Man childbirth is a dangerous game lol. Your only gonna have one??

Wow that really sucks. Poor mum :(. I hope that guy gets a nice doze of karma in his arse. It's like, if a car looks like shit, do you honestly think that that person would have valuables inside? Inconsiderate a hole lol.

Well, i went to dinner. Just as friends. Because he is a good guy. We just didn't go well together as a couple at the time. I can honestly say that i don't feel the same anymore. I think mostly it's my fear of letting him go, and being alone, ya know?? He looks good though, he's lost 15kgs, and looks healthy and is on his way to moving forward etc. But... i think he still has a long way to go. And he's no where near ready for what i desire in a partner. But yeah definitely no spark there :). There might have been if he tried harder. But it feels like it did before, i still have to push for everything ya know? The dude couldn't even shout me dinner after all the time i've paid for his broke ass lol. Honestly it just made me think i deserve a guy to at least buy me fucken dinner lol.
I'm glad i did it though, i know now that i want more, and that i deserve more. And that im done with trying to fix people. This chapter is definitely shut, but i don't know how to let him down easily... I think he expected more. It kinda made me cringe, when he asked to come home with me!! Ew, like i can just jump back in bed with you!! I think that's what gets me the most. I hate pushy people like that. It's like you gotta earn your way back into my heart, you don't just get it on a plate ya know? And i think he thinks, that he shouldn't have too, kinda thing? It's weird to explain. But im sure you understand lol.

Whelp off to bed, so damn tired..

@ Roach -

LOL soooo true! I guess babies look cute, and have all this little stuff that makes you clucky, but once it's in your arms the reality is a lot more full on than that lol. Yeah that's what it comes down to really, for ppl like us. I never wanted a baby before I met Joe. If I was single I would definitely not be having a baby.

I can't remember exactly how it's different if you have a c-section, it's something to do with, if the placenta rips away from inside of my body during birth, that blood won't be able to clot. But with a c-section, they'll be able to scoop it all out, and prevent that from happening. Basically it comes down to things being torn away wrong.

I would love to have two children, but money-wise, we wouldn't be able to afford it comfortably. Auckland is too killer. So it's either move to Australia, just so we can have two, or stay here, and just have the one. Joe and I can't bring ourselves to discuss it. I guess it'll come up again, after we know what it's like having one baby lol. It might suck so bad we decide not to do it again xD;;

Yeah exactly!!! Her car looks crappy as, you can see she had taken the head deck out of it. So why bother farken smashing into it? They went through everything, which was just slippers, and kids clothing, but didn't take anything lol. I seriously hope a part of them, at least feels ripped off that they couldn't pinch anything :S Gosh... Poor mum, just the worst timing ever... It's meant to be the season for farking giving, not taking X_x;; Thankfully Joe's bro is able to fix that sort of thing, and he's only going to charge mum for the glass, not labour. So I'm very thankful for his helping out mum.

Ohh well, at least you got that out of the dinner. But yeah, I totally feel ya on the whole asking to go home with you thing. What the hell was he thinking? and to invite you out for dinner, and not even pay! Gahhh! Especially after everything you did for him, just makes it seem like he doesn't really appreciate the way you looked after him. He seems to feel entitled to being looked after, and pampered. Talk about spoilt lol.

Omg, my sister pissed me off this weekend - but that's a whole 'nother post lol!