Hello!

Oh, you're not too happy at the moment. D:

No, no, by all means, come and chat.
I was having issues with a... friend of sorts. Ignore my outburst.

Eh, I just had another fight with a friend is all..

Well, I'm interested in him, and we have physical attraction. A lot of it.
He has a boyfriend who's very open and has already basically told him it's ok if he and I do anything. >>;
I just don't like it when he tells me that he's in the middle of cybersex with his boyfriend when I message him, or when he tells me that he just finished having sex. It brings out my horribly jealous side when he does.
His boyfriend and I are good friends, but I sort of told the boyfriend about my jealous tendencies, and I guess that didn't sit well with him. =/
So everything got all screwed up last night.

Yikes ><
I hope all goes well Mikhail <3

-flops- Finally getting to work on that last commission.

@ Mik - I think its a very good thing you told your boyfriend. It was the honest and right thing to do. ^^; I admire you for your honesty. Very few people I know would have been able to admit something like that.

Well it's not my boyfriend, it's the other guys' boyfriend.
I'm basically the 3rd wheel...

Ahh, sorry. I misread. xD;;

Yeah. It's all confusing and bleh.
I wonder why I bother with it, ya know? Haha.

no regrets though?

Ehhh... I dunno.
I told myself I wasn't gonna get attached. And now I kind of am. Like.. not in the way where I want to be in a relationship with him. Gods, no. We fight too much.
But I'm still all bleh jealous of him and his boyfriend nonetheless. But I'm a beast when it comes to jealousy.

Aww it's okay. Everything will work out eventually :3 maybe not in the way you want it to, but it'll work.

Eh, I dunno HOW I'd want it to work. -shrugs-
But I know I'm not attached to him enough to want to date him.
Besides, I've made a promise to myself not to get into a relationship right now. XD

@ Mik - I presume that he's happier that you've told him instead of going behind his back and being secretive like most teenagers.

Love is fickle. xD <3 That's all I have to say about that.

The funny thing is, I don't even think it's love.
We annoy each other too much to fall in love with each other, haha.
When it really comes down to it, I'm a glorified sex toy, as bad as that sounds.

ah~ Sexual Frustation. ^^;;
Well it's gonna show up somewhere at sometime :3

Yep. Too true.
-shrugs- As bad as the situation sounds, I don't feel like I'm doing anything... well, /too/ wrong.
I dunno. I don't feel like I should regret my position.
But it doesn't help that some of the things he says get my hopes up. =__= When I should know better than to hope for any different kind of affection, ya know?

*nods* You shouldn't regret. You gave it a chance something happened. Better then wondering about it forever and a day.

But yeah. It's best to move forward carefully.

-huggles everyone-