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And why things happen...I don't think any of us will ever figure out why they happen the way they do. But that's just how it goes. :)
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*curls up on the floor*
Some people... Some people. >_< There's a girl on another forum site, bashing me for cross-dressing. With my avatar. She hasn't even seen my crossdressing IRL, and she's giving me hell for making my male avatar wear a skirt (and that's not even that bad, it's just a simple skirt. very modest, actually! it goes down to the KNEES, for god's sake ><). I wish there was a block option there. ._.;; Hrm... I want to come out to you guys completely, because I don't have anyone to talk about it with. ;-; Look, after two or more years being here rainy has finally almost-maybe come to a conclusion on his sexuality... I was born female, but a female body doesn't feel right to me. I've always been more of a boy, anyhow -- and definitely a gentleman. Even as a little girl I held open doors for people and generally acted like a polite little boy (the ones you just one to squish their cheeks and grin at). That, and I played like a boy.. I thought my little brother was a sissy because he cried more than I did, lol. So for the past year or so, I've been experimenting with gender roles and putting myself in the role of a male, mostly online because I dress gender-neutral IRL anyhow (I've continued my gentlemanly-ness, as always, so I suppose that's one thing). I find that I much prefer the role of the male, but for some things I find my femininity is still there. To keep a long and probably TMI-y story short; physically, I feel like I should be both genders, but leaning more towards being male (as in I feel like I should be a male in body but sometimes I like having tits... heh). Emotionally, I am a mixture of the two. My mind is predominately male, but some would argue that some of my traits are inherently female (such as having a soft spot for cute things and being a very protective, parent-like person). If I had the option to, and the funding, I would most likely have a gender reassignment surgery to make me male, or put me in a state of intersex (with a breast reduction so I could bind and live as a male when I wanted... but that seems like more of a dream than a possibility). It is a great hope of mine that in the future I can, at the very least, take hormones to make myself sound more manly and hopefully look more like a man in some important places. >_> Ahem. So, for all intents and purposes, my gender is 'male'. If you'd like, I can remain gender-neutral and you can avoid any gender-specific pronouns, but if you must use them please use male pronouns. |
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Its important for you to feel good about yourself, no matter what happens in the future. You're a very good friend, and I wouldn't think of you differently than I do now, regardless of what gender role you see yourself as. You'll always be Mel to me, and I would care a lot about you even if you were a Martian. <3 No matter what goes down, you'll always have the same soul, and that's really what makes a person beautiful and amazing to me. And if someday you can do reassignment surgery, then go for it. It seems cruel to me for someone to have to feel like they're in the wrong body. >< I've never went through it...I love being a woman 99% of the time. Most of my friends are guys, and I'd rather hang out with guys, but I'm definitely a girl. :lol: You know you can always talk to me, Rainy. I'll never judge you. I hope you know that. |
Same as Kit. To me you're dear Mellie even if you developed tentacles ♥
... and funny that you mention it, as a couple of days ago I held the door open for a male friend and he exclaimed "I should be the one doing it!" before deciding to walk through it :lol: |
I always hold doors open for people. Its just a nice thing to do. :)
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It isn't so great when it's a mall and it's at one of its peak hours. While I held the door open for my friend, three chicks, one dude and two older women also walked through it. And that's one of the better cases :XD There was this one time I held the door open and like, a mob must have walked through it because like 20+ people walked through it before some sir took on my "job" :rofl:
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Yeah, that's happened to me too. I usually just stay quiet and smile...unless I'm in a hurry or pissed off, and then I just let the door swing shut in their faces. :sweat:
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Haha XD I try not to let that happen... but I do stand and hold the door if there are several more people coming after the one person I was aiming to hold it for. Only if they're within about five or ten steps, though...
Hrm... Speaking of tentacles and martians (because I misread Martian as Martin), the name that I picked for myself a long time ago is Michael. The meaning, to me, is kind of ... I dunno, it's funny. It means "who is like god" in hebrew, and by changing my physical self so drastically I would be like god, or the doctors would be. Kind of like naming myself Rainbows even though I usually wear black. Irony, I guess. XD; If you have suggestions, I'm up for review. Play mommy and name rainy. xP I think I'd like to keep the letter 'M', though. *squishhugs my buddies* I love you two. You're awesome. :lol: Thanks for being there and understanding. Recently I met a boy (transman) who really likes me.. and I really like him. His name is Adrian, and he's a bit further along in the process than I am.. he's taking a hormone suppressant, at least. :XD; It's nice to have a friend who knows exactly what I'm going through along with the friends who are supportive. |
I like Michael. Its actually one of my favorite boy names.
I like Matthew too... I love you too, Rainy. I know its really impossible for me to really understand what you're going through, but I'll be around if you ever need to talk. :hug: I'm glad you have someone who really knows how you feel because I know that will help you. ^^ |
I want to call you Myron.
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Kita doesn't really like that one. To me it looks and sounds too much like 'moron'.
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Aww.
I'm not really a fan of classical Greek art, but I like his stuff. Myron - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia |
I like Michael too, but only because of Him... :XD
Also somehow I ended up checking this baby names website, and discovered the name Malkiel... now I have another -el name to add to those I like, like Axel and Daniel and Lyonnel... :drool: |
Biggles:: Lovely sculptures indeed, but it still looks too much like 'moron'. :sweat:
Kah:: What does Malkiel mean? I like it. I like -el names. Gabriel, Michael, Daniel, Nathaniel... I'm heading to bed guys. :sleep: I'm glad this thread has finally got some people posting in it now, so keep chatting. XD; |
Something like, god is my king *shrugs* I just like the way it sounds~
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I'm bi-sexual and I've always been more masculine and yet feminine at the same time. Phsically I look very feminine, I'm small etc. But I've been dressing more and more masculine, buying quite a few of my clothes from the guys section, it's just watch makes me feel comfortable. I've also always been quite boisterious, and I tend not to wear make and don't like girls shows or chick flics or anything, much preffering sci-fi and action things. But I also have a feminine side.
I think if you are happy in your own skin it shouldn't matter. :) |
Kah:: Oh. Yeah I like the way it sounds too.
Eastriel:: I'm bi too, and I'm sort of like you. I act pretty girlish, but I dress in guys clothes a lot, and I like video games and hot cars. And motorcycles. :drool: Lol but I like girl stuff too. I wear make-up and nail polish, and I LOVE jewelry. And anything pink, shiny, or sparkly catches my attention. :XD But yeah, that's how I feel too- as long as you're comfortable with yourself, that's what matters. |
I believe my only feminine traits would be wearing jewelry, make-up, nail-polish, and who knows, maybe wearing wigs is a feminine trait too? :rofl: Otherwise, nuh-uh~
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I dislike wigs. :/
They're freaking itchy. |
Myron looks cool, but yes. Kind of like Myron. How is it pronounced? If it's anything like 'merr-ahn' than I'd totally go for it :insane: Merr is my usual nickname
But I'm guessing it's more like 'mai-ryn/rohn'? Lately I've been dressing more girly than usual. Usually I dress either like a boy or gender-neutral, but I think it's because I've come to terms that I'm not happy with some things and that I can dress like a girl. .. I think that makes sense. Iunno. It's like... I admit that I don't feel like a woman at all, at least not like women should feel like women, so it feels like cross-dressing when I wear girls clothes. So I've been wearing them, going around feeling kinky and scandalous. It's like I'm a drag queen that just got the guts to wear her heels in public :XD But I must admit, my breastseses are getting mucha atención and it kinda freaks me out >_> I'm a really bad drag queen anyways, because I don't wear make-up or like to... lol. I like to do makeup for other people, but you'll never catch me wearing it << Man. I wish I was born a hermaphrodite. Then I could have nice tits and a manpackage (minus the vagina....). Will they let me live in a state of intersex? *uses google-fu* Google fu, you fail me! Oh well. I think if anything I'll take hormones to see how my girl-penis grows. /tmi? meh And then live my life trigendered with a pansexual partner. That would rock my socks off. |
But girl-penises can only grow so much... like 6 centimeters or something like that...
And ya know, the thing I like the most about wearing make-up, leggings and such girly stuff, is that I feel like I'm in a costume, and Kah loves costumes >w>'' ♥ |
... I know ... depressing, right?
Six is still better than.. er... one or less than that. XD Also, this: Quote:
Which is why it's best I get started now, right? XD I love costumes too, of course 0: ... But I don't even like wearing make-up for costumes. XD I prefer masks or... maybe cowls that would hide my face.. lol. It makes my face feel dirty, and if I have an itch I'm not allowed to scratch it. :cry: |
I only like to put make-up over my eyes, not the rest of my face :X Not even my lips, eww to chapstick! :sweat:
And yes, maybe you should? Grow a Voltaire-beard in the meanwhile ;D ♥ |
Oh man, I'd love it if I could grow a beard. >_> I'd love to have a goatee.
.. Ahh XD Well, chapstick isn't make-up IMO.. it's medicine! I wear it all the time. If I didn't... I wonder what my lips would look like. *imagines death valley and shudders* Your eye makeup is pretty, so. :3 That's good. |
Weee! I got a compliment! :boogie:
I'd like to be Voltaire, I mean, he's got a cool career, awesome music, and handsome looks *raises an eyebrow* Such is life, full of disappointments... |
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