lol. i just bought my friend a frog that makes noises when you squeeze it. she loved it. shes 23. lol.

so its not that bad then, thats good. i have a friend who is in montreal. that would be the equipment of paris to your place i think. maybe farther. there is public transit but its super expensive. its the train and its a 5 hour trip express, and i think its $500 or something like that.

im going to try to bus it this summer (which is about 300 i think there and back), or get a ride from someone. i havent seen him in about a year.

Squeaky likes frogs. He makes them squeak with his claws. He brought one home last week, he released it in the kitchen and let it hop around a bit before he started hitting it.

lol. my cat found a cricket. he ripped off its legs and arms and wings and stuff and just watches it hobble and try to escape until i saw and killed it. he is so crule!

Squeaky likes to just stab them lightly so he doesn't kill them.

so sqeaky is just as cruel. cats eh?

Yeah, he likes the noise they make, it's the same as the noises he makes.

lol. thats so cute in an evil way. i love your kitty!

oh and i got offered a job in Prague. teaching environmental science to people there for a year. what do you think?
a) i dont really like Prague
b) i would be leaving james, the love of my life, for my career
c) i would be getting all the experience i ever wanted in my field. and if it works out i can stay longer
d) if it doesnt, i am basically sacrificing my life here for nothing.

what would you do if you were offered a job in Prague? and johnny couldnt go with you. and neither could your cats. would you go?

I wouldn't go but I don't like Prague or know the language there.

ok that reassuring. because everyone here is like "go it will be so great" "dont let a guy hold you back from this oppourtunity" and clearly you understood the issue.

That's why I didn't apply for the job I wanted to do over summer in Scotland because I would be away for 6 months and Johnny and I don't see each other much anyway.

*hugs* that so reassuring knowing that you feel the same way. and scotland isnt even that far away and you still wouldnt do it.

i think maybe people were telling me to go because they think thats what they were supposed to say. you know?

i did. basically, he doesnt want me to go. he thinks that its not going to be worth it in the end. and i mostly agree and he doesnt understand why i would consider it so strongly.

hell... i dont even know why im considering it anymore except that i feel some sort of outside pressure to do it. i mean i got offered a job in my field... and im rejecting it. in a time of economic pressure, im rejecting a job in my field that will pay me well.

well the thing is, if i go i know ill be miserably and ill be losing james. and thats not something i can deal with. thats not a choice i am willing to make.

but im sacrificing the oppoutunity of a life time for a guy and i promised my mother i would never do that. promised. is it worth being miserably to keep a promise though? i dont know. a part of me says yes, and a part of me says no and another part of me says it depends on the promise. i mean why keep my word to someone who doesnt keep her word with me? and why ruin the best thing that has ever happened to me for the possibility of something that wouldnt even be any better and i could find something like that here with more time. and if i found something here, it wouldnt make me choose between it and James, therefore it wins.

so i guess your right. i pretty much dont want to go. i just wanted more reassurance then just James, because i wanted to make sure it wasnt like he was making me not go. that it was actually me choosing not to go.

she wont. she is isnane and i am not going to tell her about this. im not telling anyone in my family about it.

yes... i will start the trade

trade accepted. thank you! enjoy the lanterns :)

things are great. James is super busy with shit, but thats ok. it will be all over with soon. i work again today, just a 4 hour shift. it should be fun. i should finish my training today i think. so thats exciting. i have also been watching trigun recently and i still love it. :)

im glad your art is almost done. did you see the most recent entries? shit they are good. i cant wait to see yours now too. and then it will all be amazing. i almost have enough gold again. i have about 550 left to earn so its not an issue. and i cant wait to start the next challenge! :)