One of my eyebrows raised at her answer and I couldn't help but laugh. "Right.." I said "I don't think I know what one of them looks like". I seemed so weird, just talking about this so casually, like we knew everything about it and that it wasn't a big deal. The image of satan came to mind when she said evil creature, which made it feel even stranger. I couldn't imagine myself being such a thing and it didn't feel real. I notcied when she changed from the plural to referring to just me and it made my smile drop, but I didn't mention it. Even though I loved her being an angel, I really wished she was just a normal girl again. That way, nothing would happen to her because of me; she'd be able to carry on.

I rolled my eyes and said to him "I don't know how you'll look like, just that it will be something...different than you right now." My eyebrows went down when I saw his smile drop. I smiled and inhaled, as if the conversation was over. I wasn't so sure of how he would look like, and since I had interfered in his change, things might...you know...change. I hadn't known why I had never got in dept with James about this change; Like the first few days I remembered looking constantly over at his wrist and couldn't wait for it to come, but now I didn't want it too. And that sounded selfish. I saw a person walk to the trashcan and look at us, and I glanced up and then back to James. Ignoring him completely. I looked down to his wrist once more, now I was a bit cautious.

I nodded at her response and took another sip of my drink. I had no idea what was going to happen to me, I didn't really care, but I didn't welcome anything that would hurt Anna. I leant forward ready to say something but I was cut off by another voice. They sounded a little nervous, but it was one of the guys from my floor. "Hey" they started, looking at both me and Anna. I looked up at Mark. "I'm having a party next week" he said, though he sounded like he really didn't want to "Everyone's going, so you two can if you want". He sounded like he just needed more people to go. I wondered whether he thought we wouldn't be any fun at his party, because we never talked to anyone, which made me smile. I glanced back at Anna to read her face and then back to Marks'. "Yeah, might do, thanks" I replied with a polite smile and a nod. I suddenly remembered talking to him a while ago and cringed at the memory of my behaviour. "Kay, It's on Saturday" he replied with a small smile before walking off to the other table.

I grinned and just when he was going to say something, that guy spoke up. He said he was having a party and that we were invited, and he sounded nervous. I glanced at James just when he had and back at the guy. It was on Saturday. James told him maybe, and I smiled at the guy when he walked away. I looked back at James. I rolled my eyes and drank my water, thirsty was all that I really was, but I did take a couple bites of food. I didn't want to be cranky; like I had said before. I wondered off to what we were to do today...

I realised after he's said the day that it might not be possible we'd both be here, which made the whole thing seem a bit more real than it had. "Saturday.." I repeated out loud looking at the bottle I was twisting in my hands. I looked up at Anna and she was eating and sat up straighter in my chair, leaning on the table with my elbows and arms. One of my fingers traced patterns on her arm, wanting to feel how soft it was again, adding swirling lines of warmth to her skin. Even though it was a little embarrasing, I couldn't get enough of touching her. "So, today.." I started. I thought about if I should see my family again before the change happens. Something made me uneasy about the idea of taking Anna to see them, though I didn't want to leave my little brother without a word. I risked it anyway, knowing that maybe my parents would be more accepting, seeing how I acted now around Anna. "I was thinking, if you wanted of course.. maybe we could go see my family?" I carried on "I mean.. I know it's quite a bit away..". My eyes still looked down at her arm but then I looked up at her face with a curious expression.

I looked at him when he stated the day again. His fingers traced over my arm, making my skin warmer in weird directions. He seemed unsure about the party, I would care less if it was or not. I just wanted to be with James. He spoke looking down. I heard what he had said, and why not? He came with me, didn't he? Far away, whatever. He wanted to and I was in. He looked up at me with curiosity and I sighed with a smile. "I would love to, and..." I thought about the distance he had said. "How far... actually?" I wondered, how his parents were like, James had often said they didn't like him, which is why he was sent here. And I liked how the vice versa actually happened. We could do something about him, and I felt like I was being controlled...my thoughts sarcastic. His parents probably would act different because I was going to be there with him...

I looked up at her when she asked a question in the middle of her sentence. She had said she wanted to go, but I was still unsure of whether I should take her. "Jacksonville" I answered, hesitant of her reaction, not knowing whether to want her to think it was too far or not. I thought about whether my dad would still be living in Jacksonville, or even if he was still alive. The last time I'd seen him he'd been so out of it and tried to fight me in an arguement. That was just after he'd left me, my brother and mother. If we'd go to Jacksonville, would we see my dad aswell? There was something in my mind that told me it wasn't the greatest place to take Anna.

I mouthed an oh and nodded. "I'm in; I dragged you with me, you can take me." I smiled at him. I know he might be thinking just what I was when I had wanted to go to meet my parents, I mean he didn't see my parents, and it probably was a bot more difficult for him. I was going to see his parents. And I didn't want to push him down, he had to make these last few days his best just like me. Of course I wouldn't have a chance to live them again with a big difference, but this was a big deal for James. And I was willing to do anything, and go anywhere with him. The cafeteria began to slowly clear out as people finished, some lurked and hung out for the fun of it. I looked still at James.

I smiled at the first part, but then frowned and looked down at the table. I should be happy that she'd agreed to go with me, but somehow I wasn't. "I don't know" I said with a quick glance up at her. I put my hands on each side of my head with my elbows on the table and ran them through my hair. "I know it sounds really bad to say this" I said "But I don't know if I want to see them". I left out the other part that I thought it would be a bad idea to introduce her to the mess of my family. I worried that seeing them wouldn't always end up to be the best way to say goodbye to them. Maybe it was all done and gone and I shouldn't dig it up again. "Well.. I think I don't.." I added, confused.

I listened to him closely, somewhat confused like him. I understood what he had meant. He wanted to see them before...his change, but then thought again and maybe not. His ran his fingers through his hair as if he wanted to make up his mind. I answered the best I could..."Well, it was kind of the same with me. I decided to go because it wouldn't be nice to leave someone close, with out a good bye..." I thought of how that would fit in with him. "Sometimes it's not what the heart wants but what the brain wants. You might not want to..." I emphasized on the 'want' and continued..."But maybe you need to." I felt like I had said enough...I mean if he wanted to see his parents, easy, lets go. But what he didn't want to go but had to go for their sake and not his. "And the decision comes from both your brain and heart."

I looked up at her from the table and laughed "That's made it easier" I said sarcastically, teasing her. "I guess I should go then". I knew that even though they pretty much hated me, I would be down to their level by not saying goodbye before I changed. I hadn't seen them in a long time anyway. I wondered what their reaction would be when I brought Anna with me. "Are you up for a long train ride?" I smiled and finished the last of my drink, leaning back into my chair again.

I laughed lightly, when he used his sarcasm. He had decided yes and I was glad he had so. I would love to meet his parents, and probably the only other humans I actually talk to...train ride would be best. I don't think he might know where Jacksonville is, otherwise we could take my car, but I didn't want him to get tired of driving...I rolled my eyes at his question and answered "As long as you're there...I'm there." I gave him a warm smile. I didn't want to eat anymore, even though some food still lay on my tray. He had leaned back but I still had my arms on the table; showing he could possibly be done.

I smiled at what she had said, making me feel warmer inside. I knew that a train would be quicker, and orginally I thought that I didn't want to be pushy by wanting to take her car, but then I knew that it didn't really matter. We'd have to drive to the train station anyway. "Okay" I smiled wider. I leaned forward and put my elbows on the table, so our faces were closer "When do you want to go?". I looked into her eyes, mine more confident now knowing we would be making the most of our time left together.

I laughed lightly as his question...as his face got closer. His smile wider now, Going was no problem just as when. I actually didn't know when..."Whenever your ready." It was for him, he had to be prepared to see his family, not me. He had to worry about whether they would like him or not, I had to worry about would they remember me or not. And it didn't hurt to think about it now, after all that happened since that morning, nothing was left to grieve over. And we wouldn't have to sneak off campus now, we could just walk off like a normal day. But it wouldn't seem much different. I hoped his family wouldn't hate me...now that question roamed around in my head...

My smile didn't fade and I said "Well you've convinced me now, so I really shouldn't give myself time to think about it". I knew that if we waited around then I'd change my mind. I looked behind her in the direction of my dorm and back at her. "I'll go get some money out of my room quickly, alright?". We'd need quite a bit for the train, and though I hadn't got much, I'd earned some last year from a saturday job which should get us there and back.

I rolled my eyes at him and sighed at what he said about the money. I felt my pockets have a few in it. I had a lot actually, because I wouldn't buy much things for my convenience. And he had also paid for my food, and it's a guilt everyone has. "Um, I have some with me right now...I thinks its enough..." I laughed lightly, he should keep the money or so they say, so that when in the future he can use it, these were my last few days...I had to use all that money. I smiled and I didn't want him to leave anyway.

My face looked confused as she said she had money with her. I hadn't seen her get money from her room. "You do?" I asked, though I shouldn't be surprised. I could tell by her car alone that she was quite wealthy. Unfortunately, it made me feel quite small for her to have the money but I let it go. "Are you sure?" I asked, feeling bad about using her money. I knew that she didn't mind, however, as it wouldn't be of much use any other way, but it was still going to be spent on my behalf.

I sighed and smiled. I would leave money everywhere, in my jeans, my skirts, everywhere. "I have some to spare..." was I sure? Of course I was... "and yes I am. What else am I going to use it for?" Everything left for James now, he is my life. For the rest. I mean if something is the rest of your life, don't you have to give it all you got. Not like that but everything, every care, to that person. And I had no one else left. I laughed lightly again at how scared he was looking, in my sense. He was all ready somewhat scared of them liking him or not...

"Alright" I gave in, my face showing a slightly disappointed look for a second. I leaned forward, but left my hands on my lap, so that our faces were closer. "I seem to always give in to you" I smiled, one eye brow raised and gave a small laugh. I was looking into her eyes softly, feeling weak under her gaze but then I stood up. I picked up my food wrappers and empty bottle. "You finished?" I asked smiling and gesturing to her food. I suspected she wouldn't eat much, but she had eaten something and that satisfied me.

I smiled as I got what I wanted. He leaned in and told me something that I thought about, and gave out a laugh with him. I didn't answer that, only because it was the truth. He asked me if I was done, pretty much. I got up my self, and smiled at him as I threw it out into the trashcan. Throwing away some bits and bites. I walked back over to him and took his tray as well and threw it in. "You do always give in." and I laughed lightly. It was still bright and sunny outside, but it was cold as well. I was glad though, our day would be longer now...I looked back at him from the window...

I pressed my lips together but my smile won over. I hadn't been quick to react and she was already taking my rubbish from me. When she turned back round I walked the few steps to her and put my hands on her waist pulling her forward playfully. "Your too good for me that's why" I said with a crooked smile. My face was close to hers as I looked into her eyes. I twisted round as we were turned towards the direction of the door. I suddenly felt self concious as it was getting quieter in the cafeteria. I looked round to see alot of them looking at us and my mouth opened small and round. I pressed my lips together again to keep from laughing as I looked back to Anna.

I grinned as I was too good for him. He moved closer, his hands finding my waist, bringing us closer. I was somewhat embarrassed when I saw him look around, people looking at us. It was a little quieter and I was afraid of this when I was the old Anna, but it was different now. I saw his mouth open and closed stopping a laugh. I couldn't help when he looked back at us but smile. I pulled his hand into mine and headed out of the cafeteria saying "Come on..." with a small laugh. It was so weird, everyone should know that James and I are...you know...together. Forever.

Their faces didn't look exactly shocked, but more surprised at our behaviour infront of them. I considered it from their point of view, and I guessed they could be interested in the two loners in the school hooking up. The thought made my laugh come through my lips. She took my hand and I saw them eyeing our movements. I thought I'd have a little fun with our audience and I kissed Anna on the cheek as we started to walk to the door. I opened the door as we stepped out and started walking to the parking lot.

I saw their faces as we headed out, looking at how close we were. We never went out in public, to our peers, like this. And I wondered what they would think if we went to school...I felt James kiss me on the cheek right when we were about to head out. And I swear I saw every pair of eye look up at us. I grinned at the floor as we head out, into the parking lot. Once we were out, I leaned and kissed him on the cheek and laughed my voice ringing, pulling us out further. No one was out here, everyone socializing and having fun on their weekends, just as James and I.

I laughed more when she kissed me back on my cheek. Her laugh was soothing and made me more happy. It was funny how we caused a stir with just a relationship, and not even with a glimpse of a supernatural world that would blow everything out of proportion. I wondered whether they were shocked to see both of us happy for the first time. I know that I hadn't shown any interest in anything and just kept to myself, but I never realised how angry and unhappy I had looked until now. We reached the parking lot in no time and I got into the drivers seat after looking at the car appreciatively, still stunned at how nice it looked compared to the other cars.