yeah.... i think this summer is going to be long. though i'm starting to understand why college students once they get apartments never return home after that. You get so used to setting your own rules that to go back to somebody else's just sucks

totally. its hard to be home again even if I don't spend much time with my family and I get a tv again and don't have to deal with my ex-roommate.

yeah. it's bothering me. next summer i swear i probably won't come home except for visits. I love my family but seriously I'm so much happier being on my own

I think I'm happiest ALONE! all alone. I don't know if its strange to love being hidden all alone in a small random place but I love it.

i'm like that sometimes. Like there are somedays that human contact is the last thing in the world i want. except for maybe online. but there are other days where i can't stand the thought of being by myself

I get a lot more days where I want to be alone with nature and less where I want to be alone with my computer. I don't know. I do love being online though.

kitara let go of evan's han btw.

I need entertainment at all moments and so mostly i use the internet for that though there have been days where I just want to watch tv or read. and won't get on my computer but those are rare. internet is a much easier for of entertainment... most days

my post still stands....

my thoughts are actually quite entertaining and I seem to have a lot to think about. when I'm alone with nature I suddenly don't need things to entertain me. I feel....sounds weird and all but totally at peace.

I suppose so.

i start getting antsy... i think it might be my need for some solid sort of noise at all times. I get antsy in quiet and even though nature has like bug and bird sounds it's still too quiet.

I hate absolute silence but I just get this whole nother feeling when I'm outside. I feel so much a part of it and all the song of the wind and bugs is soothing without being too harsh on my ears. I belong in nature I swear.

interesting observation: an object in motion stays in motion unless acted upon. same with rps. Once I start, they stay in motion until some other force interferes. but its also true that putting an object into motion takes a lot of energy and wherever I get my rp writing energy from has been low lately. get me started and I'll go, but you have to get my started.

definitely not me but i don't really like being outdoors that much *wrinkles nose* I think the only time i ever feel complete at peace without much noise is when i'm in the shower... as strange as it is. but i'm alway so calm in the shower. i could fall asleep easily.

interesting.....

showers are calming. I have the same background noise easy to think atmosphere there. I just don't understand not liking the outdoors though. everyone to their own, but I feel like that's home. >.>.....<.<.....I just sometimes feel like my soul isn't human.

makes sense though if you think about it.

well i like the outdoors but only on certain days. but seriously i'm too freaked out by too many of the smaller critters and i hate hate hate being stick and sweaty. so i just don't like it too much. I much prefer a calm relaxing day at home. Though I think if i could spend a day out in nature near a waterfall with a nice breeze or in the water I'd feel at home there. especially if it was like a crystal clear pond into which the waterfall was falling. but there isn't much like that around her so i'm stuck with just nasty swamps and far too many mosquitoes and humidity and no breeze and i just feel gross outside.

yeah i guess it does

I do hate the critters but I also seem to have this natural ability to um....stalk? I can sit still and ignore everything so well in order to convince a butterfly to land on me. I love waterfalls if I'm far enough away from them, but I must be some sort of feline. I feel at home hidden in the grass. I like trees and wish I could climb them well and heights are my best friend. I love climbing around rocks though. I love rivers and mountains and the valleys and rain in the distances. the sound of thunder and the sight of lightning! I wish so much that I was more a part of that world!!!

and i must be some sort of fish or like a frog or something b/c i always feel the best out in nature near water. especially if can hear it moving around. not a big fan of stagnant water but flowing water is amazingly relaxing. and i've done that before when i was younger i'd go outside and read and i'd have hummingbirds an inch away from me. I guess i also really like those perfectly peaceful woods, if i can find a place to sit where i won't get covered in dirt or bugs... but you don't find those around the city too often

yeah, I'm in the wrong place in the world. not enough real nature out here. I'm not some domestic cat. I do love water so long as I'm not touch it with more than a foot or hand. waterfalls are beautiful and so are rivers but he won't see me jumping in it. just playing around it. I never can decide though if I feel more like a leopard or a tiger.

I swear i could be content like floating done a river all day (like on a float or something and just reading) sounds so relaxing. and I love being in water. I've ALWAYS loved swimming. I just don't like lake and ocean swimming b/c i've been bit by fish before... and like that day we had to go around the river up at school, I absolutely loved that. I was completely at home trekking through that creek

ew, I would not like that. I've had a craving to do river kayaking or something, but sounds too insane to me. nope.
you know, you remind me more of a salmon or a river otter. both are very social creatures but yeah, you're like a curious, smart, but lazy river otter. those things are content to just float along the river on their backs.

yeah that's what i thought when i remembered how happy i am just floating on water. I will seriously like get in a pool play for a while and then once i get tired i just float on my back with my eyes closed in a half-doze.

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I used to like swimming and floating on my back but I've just become more and more the cat in me. its like it awakened bit by bit in me and with the creation of Kat, I started to notice it a lot more because I was looking for it.

....its one of my issues actually. I feel like my soul is something other than human. I believe it. the explanation I have is therefore reincarnation or the ability for souls to go where they weren't supposed to. neither fit in with Christianity. I don't see why God would want to create humans with non-human souls at least...

oh we did!! YAAy!!! *throws and party and breaks out the bubbling grape juice*

I've never really thought my soul was human. I haven't thought that for years. I think i've adapted to human life and i think this soul has been human in the past but i think originially it's something else. I'm too in tune with animals. Like cats and even marmosets and such. I just get along with them, but then I'm entirely human in my healthy fear for all creatures...

and me and swimming it's something i just love. I can't explain it but I just love being in the water. though i don't like the ocean... but we discussed why the other day. I don't mind lakes until i get bit by a fish and rivers are fun

I never really noticed the cat in me. I used to think I just liked cats but it awakened. like the cat was sleeping at first. like that part of my soul hasn't been awakened in a long time. I get the feeling my soul was recently human but that its heritage is almost all animal. I feel so wrong cooped up in this house. that's half my issue! and its not like I can use that as an excuse with my parents. I wish my human body didn't have limitations of laziness and weakness so I could run, like really run.

neh, my love of rivers goes to the point of observation and being in awe and slightly afraid of it. I don't know how happy I'd be in it. I'd be happier in a tree.

see i've always felt close to animals. especially when i was younger. as i've gotten older that feeling has definitely lessened. I'm becoming more human it seems. But I still feel a deep bond with animals. I absolutely love them. and i have no desire to run... none.

and i wouldn't. i hate heights, i'm absolutely terrifed of falling out of a tree.

nyah... i'm thirsty... brb

btw, all these long posts are seriously helping out my gold

I always just thought animals were cute and that I could imitate cats well. I'm becoming an animal now and it would be better if I were getting more human. life would be easier. I have bonds with the oddest animals. I seem rather on good terms with squirrels, cats, types of birds, and hawks in particular. I've become less and less interested in dogs. I'm not as scared of them now but they don't like me now.

my only problem is getting into the tree. it seems so simple to shimy up there but no.

I know!

i'm pretty good with almost all animals. at least all mammals. I once had a conversation with a marmoset in chirps.... but that was in my younger more animal connected days. now i really am close to cats and i haven't tested it with too many other creatures. dogs seem to like me though, but not as much as cats.

i can't climb trees and i don't really want to try.