confused ..
 

Hi ! i'm ada - and yea im confused ..

soo here's my story ..

Im a 13 y/o girl who fell inlove since she was 11 to her boifriend [earvin - well former i guess] .. soo yea - we've been together for 1 year and 3 months .. and my parents agreed to him [oct something i guess] soo yea .. one day . oct 24, 2009, my parents invited him to stay a night at our house .. and my dad invited him to drink some beer .. soo yea he got drunk [he's 18 soo he can drink] and accidentaly told my dad something that i realli didnt know what .. soo yea my father got mad and made him go home at 4am .. soo abt that .. i decided to leave him .. for his own protection .. I left him - nov 6 [monthsary] and yea .. we broke up ..

I made him feel i hated him soo much and i just used him.. Well ofcourse i didnt cause i was against my father one time because of him .. soo yea .. everytime i made him feel alone there was this girl.. Who comforted him .. and yea -- she was waiting for her to be 16 so she can have a boifriend.. earvin gave her love she needed .. soo yea ...'

I was shocked -- and hurt ofcourse .. on January 21.. he confessed to me . that he really loves her .. which is sooo painful for me cause i didnt explained to him why i left him and hurt him .. i regret everything i did and told him the truth .. I was too late ..

soo yea - now he comes back to me .. i accepted him .. and now im sooo jealous and confused .. what will i do .. i am too young i know .. i really love him .. but i want to do the right thing .

HELP ME - please ..
im in need ..
a friend and an advice .
i dunno what to do -

*sigh* trust me I know how this feels...
One of my ex's, I loved him. But he dumped me, and dated this other girl, until she broke up with him. Then he wanted me back, and I was so in love with him, that I agreed. I was so happy. Later he broke up with me again. Nearly killed me. But I moved on and eventually I regained my heart, and I gave it to my current boyfriend (march 21's will be our 1 year anniversary).
We went to a party a few months ago. My ex was there, drunk, and we started to talk. He told me that the second time, I was a rebound girl. I was hurt and angry, especially since he told me the entire time we were dating he missed the other girl.

My advice, find out right away what his feelings are. Does he truely love you? If he does, well you have no reason to be jealous. Make sure he's honest to you. Tell him that if he's just planning on hurting you, to not even bother. This is just my opinon remember, but you're 13, you don't deserve to be heartbroken.

thank you for the advice :)
yep he loves me .. i know he does .. we have an open relationship since last may6, 2008 [our aniversary] and ..
i broke up with him last night ..
cause i know -- i am too young and i have to raise my family's relationship ..
i really am sad .. cause the girl he is with now is alot like me ..
i never really expected that there will be someone to replace me in his heart ..
cause we had a commitment [well for me it is]..
he is honest and caring .. i know that ..
i know him ssooo much .. but yeaaa -
I guess this is the end of or relationship ..

i know where to start -
i know how to stand up - but it seems that i there is nothing/no one to help me stand ..
i'm all alone in this country -- i realli am homesick ..

sometimes you know i think im cursed - cause since we started again -- im having bad dreams -
about death and being saved ..

my last dream - he didnt even helped me [in my dream] .. he was there but ..
he didn't even worried ..

:[ i sooo wish i can move on ..
cause - i dont want this ..
i dont deserve this ..

*hugs* It's ok, baby.

I have a lot of dreams about that ex... the one that used me. I hate to admit it but I do still love him. I love my bf more, but there is still that tinge of guilt.

I know it hurts, but you have to believe that you did the right thing, and that in the end you will be happy!