~I could always use a bit more rest, do you mind if we shear your bed? I had a thought that having some one near might keep my dreams away.~ stepping next to Lawrence his fingers brushed Lawrence’s.

“looks like it’s more then just for today.” The older student turned to go then turned back. “Angelo says if William is awake and your not going to drink it he has to.” Then he walked out, little Tim stared in surprise and fallowed the older one.
~you might as well give it over or Angelo will be up here next demanding that I drink it.~ William held out his hand for the cup. ~and yes I want it off you!~

Lawrence brushed his fingers against Josh's in return, contently. ~Sure. I don't mind sharing a bed.~ He seemed happy with that.

Tzalmon grumbled. ~My stomach feels very strange...so I was afraid I would not be able to keep it down.~ He handed the cup to William. As soon as he did so, he idly shrugged out of his silken cloak. Underneath, he wore a simple black turtleneck and black dress pants. He worked at getting the turtleneck off for him, of course.

Setting the cup aside William ran his hand up and under Tzal Turtleneck to help him take it off. As it came off he quickly downed the glass before tossing it acrossed to his bed. It made a nice thunk sound before settling to just lay there. Pulling Tzal close William kissed him slowly down his back to mid-back then just laying there his hands flat on tzal’s chest. ~I never noticed how nice you smell.~

As if with a mind of their own Josh’s fingers entwined with Lawrence’s. ~then lets go get some more rest.~

~Oh? And to think all this time I've been trying to smell so nice for you.~ The playful sarcasm in Tzal's voice was quite endearing. He snuggled back into the touch, closing his eyes and smiling. ~You're quite warm, by the way. Lucky. My skin is always cold.~

A bit surprised, Lawrence held his hand without much of a fuss. ~Okay. I'm up for that.~

~I have never sat down and smelled you, until now.~ keeping his eyes closed he nibbled along Tzal’s spine going back up to his neck. ~although I do recall the time that you had that HORRED stuff. You know the one I am talking about.~ it had been the only time that William had commented about what Tzal smelled like. William had upon entering their bed room after Tzal had put it on, hurried to the window and throwing it open. Turning back he had demanded to know what that smell was and that it be gotten rid of it. ~you know I have never known if you had a lover or not?~
Feeling that Lawrence was content josh lead them back to their room. A few times he stopped and pushed Lawrence into side rooms to hide from students and other teachers. ~best no one remembers we went this way.~

Tzal arched happily in response to his nibbling, eyes also closed. ~...That was not cologne. I was working with a volatile potion--a special assignment from Professor Angelo. It had horrible ingredients. Remember? I had to keep it in here because it gagged all the students in class...~

Tzalmon paused and then chuckled softly in response to William's question. ~Lover? No. But I did have a boyfriend, of sorts. For two weeks. A childhood human friend, who admitted he loved me when he found out he was terminally ill. Leukemia. So, I was with him for two weeks--we did nothing but hug and talk to each other...I did not feel the same...but I didn't feel it was in my place to deny him company in his dying days.~

Lawrence looked extremely confused when Josh kept pushing him into side rooms, but he went with it, figuring this was for their own safety...somehow?

~and if I recall correctly I throw it out when I had the chance because it was making me sick.~ snagging his ear William started to nibble on it. ~you tasted good to did you know that?~ then the rest of what tzal had said sunk in. ~your meaning you have never been with any one?~ Williams hands which had been gently memorizing tzal’s chest stopped moving.

As they came near their room josh noticed Lawrence’s confusion. ~I am hiding us because we are supposed to be going to Tzal and Williams room.~ at the thought of those two josh got a flash of what William was doing. ~oh godz I did not need to know that.~ shaking his head he lead them into the common room and then to their bed room. “There, now no one can send us back where we are supposed to be.”

Tzalmon immediately sensed his hesitation, and his hands, much smaller, slid over the tops of William's. ~I have never been with anyone. Because I have never felt anything for anyone else before.~ His voice was calm, and encouraging.

"Oh!" Lawrence frowned. "Now I feel really, really stupid."

~how can you know that you love me?~ something within William pulled back from tzal. ~I don’t want to hurt you, to drive you to hating me and all men.~ feelings of worry and of guilt filled William, he did not want to be the one that makes a young boy turn on the world. Because they were so close both form the spell and from the physical contact Tzal could fully feel what William was feeling.
Grabbing Lawrence’s face josh kissed him on the forehead. “you’re not stupid you just did not know how to break the rules. I have broken the rules enough that I know they never good looking for you in your room. They always expect that your hiding or spending time somewhere else.” Smiling he pulled off the uniform shirt but left on his under shirt, knowing that Lawrence would not want to see his chest. “One of the weirdest places that they have searched for me was the Gym showers. Why would someone hide in the Gym showers?”

Tzal stayed put where he was, then turned around to face him, contently. ~I know what love is. I am intelligent enough to understand it and understand the signs...you are going to have to trust me, William.~ He could sense his worry, and he wrapped his arms up around his neck, smiling. ~Try to trust me.~

"Um. No idea. Maybe because they think you'll be hiding in a place they wouldn't look? And you are right--no one ever checks rooms," Lawrence chuckled, going over and plopping down in his bed. "Ah...relaxation..."

Williams eyes were still closed his hands gently brushed along Tzal’s body as he flipped over. ~I don’t want to do what he did, I don’t want you to hate me for what I did out of love.~ gently he ran his fingers along Tzal’s spine. His other hand cupped Tzal’s face. ~this is why I wanted to wait, so that we both would know that it was real and not just a young man’s fantasy.~
“Only time they do look for you in your room is when you’re sick.” Josh said as he locked the door behind him. “And now if they do come looking we will be woken up by them using a key.” Climbing into Lawrence’s bed he pulled him down so that Lawrence’s back was to his chest. Josh’s arm wrapped around Lawrence’s waist. ~would you pull the blanket up?~

Tzal nestled his head into the side of William's neck. ~You of all people should know that I don't have fantasies...when I feel something, it's rare. I have few friends. Few family members that care. When I care about someone, I care about them. And I don't throw the word 'love' around lightly. You should know that. Trust me...I know what I am feeling.~

Lawrence went visibly pink with embarrassment, but he pulled the blanket up anyway, settling down to sleep. He was looking forward to a nice, relaxing nap.

~let me feel what you feel? You have always been so guarded I could never tell. It took me enough time to find out you liked me and then it was because of someone else getting yelled at by you for hurting me.~ Tzal could feel his need to feel what Tzal felt. To have it shown to him so that he could know without a doubt that he did love him. William did not want to have to have him show it, he wanted just to trust him but….. He could not. His past would not let him.

Nuzzling into the back of Lawrence’s neck josh seemed to purr as he fell asleep.

Willingly enough, Tzal opened up that particular part of his mind for William to see. Of course, he had no hands-on experience in what love was, though a wealth of knowledge gained from seeing others in love and reading about love was packed up there. But, what he was feeling for William, as he'd said, was pure and honest...not at all a fantasy...

Lawrence fell asleep soon after, breaths falling into a soft, synchronized pattern.

Gently reaching out feelings of love enfolded tzal, likes wings made of love. ~now I know.~ gently he kissed Tzal’s for head, eyebrows, eyes, nose, chin then slowly, very slowly his lips. ~Wings please, and let me feel what you’re feeling, I have never had wings so I want to know how it feels to you.~

Running his finger along the edge of the wing William nuzzled his face into the hallow at the base of Tzal’s neck. ~like nothing I have ever felt before.~ he opened completely so that Tzal could feel what he felt that Tzal was feeling. The mix just heighted the enjoyment of the feeling. Moving his head slightly he gently bit down on the skin of Tzal’s neck.
Something dark stirred with in William, it could feel Tzal darkness and it wanted to join. Gasping William pulled his head back his eyes wide, glowing.

Blinking Williams eyes flashed from red to their natural blue then back again. ~don’t…. don’t pull away, please~ Williams eyes were pleading, there was a longing there. Pulling him closer William nuzzled into Tzal chest. Now that he had felt Tzal mind he did not want to be cut off from it. Gently running his fingers along the wingtip he sent how the feather felt in his finger to tzal.
The darkness not finding what it wanted, needed curled back up into a tight little ball and slumbered again.

Kissing Tzal William sighed into him. ~whatever it was did not find what it was looking for. It’s gone now my love.~ feelings of warmth and joy flowed acrossed the space between them. Closing his eyes again he slowly moved the kisses down the front of his body. ~Tzal I want you, but I don’t want to hurt you.~ pulling back he opened his eyes again, now they were the pure blue that Tzal had fallen in love with. ~let’s take it slow?~ leaning down he kissed him his tongue pushing against Tzal’s lips.

~understandable.~ he murmured, his kiss deepened almost to the point of devouring him. Slowly Tzal’s tongue tingled then like a drug pleasure engulfed Tzal. As a young child he may have heard about this, yet every single time he would have been told that the race was gone. Yet here was the proof, right in his mouth. Pulling back the darkness stirred again, William kissed down his neck. A trail of pleasure and numbness fallowed. Then he nibbled. William was not paying attention to what was happening he was just going with what he felt. A dark need grew inside him, a need for blood.

Moaning a little he nuzzled at Tzal neck before taking up the nibbles. His tongue probing at the large vain there. “whyz” William purred out his mind to gone to think it as a thought. His teeth slowly became sharper as they reformed and stated to grow.