I just wish I knew what was going on with me vis-a-vis choking on uncoated pills. :(

Maybe you need to do the puppy-dog method of pill taking. Roll it in butter.

Hmm...or rolling it in ham. :)

:XD Or peanut butter. Did the applesauce thing end up working? We'd have to get an actual jar of it if it did.

The applesauce did work.

I mixed it with kool aid in a shot glass earlier today. :)

Then we'll just get that stuff.

Hey guys.

How long is the event lasting now? I'm having a so so evening. I guess it's getting better for me.

Not sure. I think tomorrow? I didn't hop on 'till tonight, as I needed to finish my tool set. I got an extra one, but I think I'm about event-ed out. At least after my power hour. :B

According to the announcement, until Friday.

Ah cause last time I read it I could of sworn it said tonight. That's cool.

Turns out we're not getting the kids for the weekend. Pam isn't getting home from her school function until 10pm tomorrow night, then her step-brother is graduating Sunday.

Ah, I see. Well, more time to do school work I guess?

Yah something like that.

I'm kinda in a mood tonight as we got in a fight over the kids and having kids again. Pam is still sounding unsure about moving in and Aaron wants to book his vasectomy and once again I'm just kinda feeling a bit ill about how all this is kinda being decided with me feeling so not in control of anything, you know? I mean I probably could talk Aaron out of it, but at the same time if he doesn't want to he doesn't want to.

I don't know what my issue but I blame hormones. I never wanted kids or have much to do with family before. Damn those hormones.

I hope you guys are able to talk through it. It's definitely something only you two can work through, seeing the circumstances. x.x

Well Aaron says he doesn't want to go through with it again. He says maybe adoption, once the kids are grown up. I dunno.

Bleh. I don't know why I get so emotionally choked up thinking about all this shit. I use to be able to tell myself I didn't want kids anyways and it was for the best, yadda yadda.

You know you best. If you feel you're going to be OK in the long run not having kids--great, right? If you're not going to be OK, then I'd worry.

Well if it's true why does it always get me so emotionally worked up over a vasectomy? I'm starting to think I'm trying to mask my feelings about having my own kids just out of fear of not being able to cope or that it'll be too much strain on the relationship.

I'm admittedly actually uncomfortable giving my opinion on this because it's definitely a huge thing in terms of marriage. That's why I'm not really giving my usual responses. :\

...and that's why I'm keeping my mouth shut entirely.

:/

Sorry guys.

Change of topic...I guess. Hopefully Aaron's insurance will cover us going to counseling over it cause it's bothering me so damn bad.

It's okay. I just wanted to say I was uncomfortable rather than say nothing and make it sound like I just didn't care. :[ I do care, but I don't think this issue is one that can benefit from friends giving their opinion. It's something you need to come to because it's huge.

The counseling will hopefully give you an open space and an unbiased, outside sounding wall. If nothing else you may find out what you really want when all the walls are down. So, good luck with it, and don't hesitate getting it off your chest.

It's funny I activate power hour then walk off. :P

Ours ended about the time you came on. I'm debating on getting a snack and then watching some TV. We spent entirely too much money yesterday and the day before, and yet I'm debating on going out for breakfast tomorrow. I fail. >>;

We're talking about doing something this weekend, but we won't have the money to do much of anything.

Maybe more garage sailing...just this time not as much money. Maybe 10 or 20...I dunno.

Sometime this summer we're going to look into that, too. Probably not 'till July. I really need to finish eBaying junk to get a few hundred bucks for bills. I'll get a fair paycheck at work next week too, which is great.

I keep feeling the dissonance there. I want to work for the money, but the job is boring and I'd rather spend time with Cole and my studies. I'll see what happens once class actually starts. I don't think I'll have issues juggling things 'till the second week of July.

-dances in-