MAMA~ *snuggle* <3

Hey everyone.

How are you doing Nao?

Aw...thats no good :( Where did he go for vacation?

I'm alright so far, just woke up about 20 minutes ago. I dont remember much of last night/this morning though :sweat:

Oh okay, I dont think I know where/what that place is off the top of my head. ^^;

Yesterday wasn't the greatest day, and I was up all night like usual, but at 4am I got a call from a couple friends that needed a place to stay so we ended up hanging out together and I got into some old habits + I did a bit of drinking, so...yeah. :sweat:

*peeks head in* Hey there y'all! Sorry to hear that you're not feeling well Nao! -hugs- Hope that you feel better soon!!

Oh no wonder I didn't know then Nao. I'm in the United States heh.

Hello Hope, we havent talked in forever o.o

Just a cocktail of pills and drugs that are usually left for raves and such Nao. Nothing to be proud of anyways.

Hey there Imagination. Yeah, I've not been on much, been in such an up/down mood (roller coaster of emotions) on top of working and trying to keep myself so busy I don't have time to let myself think, I don't have much time to get on anymore. How've you been?

Yeah, I hear that. I was doing good, had a few bumps in the road, but over-all I'd say pretty good. How are you and your fiance' doing?

Awe! But that's good to hear that all in all you're doing pretty good. Well, he's still not here, and I'm stuck here... hating it... He's unsure of when he'll get his weeks leave that he thought he'd be able to get last month. :headdesk: But I guess we're doing ok. Both of us are hating being apart. -shrug-

Heh, yeah...I've been there and done that kind of thing. Except I was the one in the Army fighting to get leave to see my gf at the time. It was hell always missing eachother and wanting to go but not having the time. Just gotta appreciate the little things between you two and be content with what you do have. Good things come to those who wait after all :)

Yeah, I am the one who doesn't like to just have to sit and wait and not be sure of when he'll be able to get time off. Right now, ... eh... yeah. I do appreciate the little things, but having not seen him at all since the end of January it just starting to make it even harder. I'd do anything even if it was just one day. I'll take anything right now.

Anyways, yeah, I do all that I can to not think about it. It just seems to make it worse right now and I've had a bad last few days with mom actually realizing that something was wrong. I've gotten pretty good with hiding it around her... I just don't want her to worry... -shrugs-

I agree with you Hope, relationships are hard enough as is...without throwing in distance, job, and personal stress into it. You sound like your Manic Depressive like me.

Yeah, it's tough. If I could, with out having to stop schooling (with the classes I need, I need to be here to take them in person, and can't do it online), I'd go move across the states to be with him.
And not really, I just have a hard time expressing my feelings.

Oh okay, makes sense then Hope. I misunderstood the rollercoaster of emotions statement, my apologies. ^^;

What are you going to school for?

Oh, it's fine. I meant that as I'll be missing him a ton one day, to missing him, but not as much... it's just been a rough past few months. When I was in school it was ok, as I was crazy busy with classes and such, but now that I'm in the middle of my summer holidays, it's harder as I have to work so much more to keep myself from over thinking and such. Not as much to do.

And I'm getting my degree in Deaf Studies, and then going onto becoming a Sign Interpreter. Not totally sure the name of the final degree that I'll end up with.

Oh wow, that sounds awesome. Its always nice when people go into professions that are aimed at helping others. :)

Having too much time to think really is a double-edged sword. :sweat:

Yeah, it makes me excited. I love signing and I love the Deaf Community. Just drives my Lovey and my family a bit batty with the fact that I tend to sign a bit more than I used to, and half the time I don't realize that I'm doing it. xD

And I totally agree. Makes me worry about him too much. So I try to keep myself as occupied as much as possible. Doesn't always work, but hey, it's worth trying, right? :P

Haha, that it is Hope. :)

Was it hard to learn to sign when you first started?

Oh, yeah, it's still rough at times, but I'm determined to do it.