I have the patience of a saint, generally, but I have a breaking point, and it's not as hard to get to as it used to be.

If I were a lot younger, I probably would have gone crazy and kicked him to the curb.
But, I'm older now and I somehow have more patience than I used to have. But, it doesn't mean I can deal with stuff internally well. :/ Interally I don't feel well and I couldn't concentrate on any readings tonight. :/ I'll do some when I get home from work. I need to get back to the getting work done right after I get back from class/work and do that till before 10.

I just have a lot of stress going on in my life along with my homework and job. On a good note, my grandmother is doing better ^^ I called her earlier in the evening to check up on her.

Awh, I am glad to hear your grandmother is doing better. Just share your love with her as often as possible.

If I were in your place, I wouldn't have more patience because I was older, it would be because I was with someone for so long. That long of a relationship and you're obligated to try.

I don't trust people to stick around till they've been around for a good year. Even then I'll be wary for awhile.

@Ely: Yeah theres always a breaking point for people.
@Ser: I'm older and lost my patience, when I was younger it was alot better and glad your grandma is doing better.

Oops, yeah, that's what I meant ^^" I'm starting to get tired so I didn't think it well when I typed it. yeah, we've been together for so long, I just keep trying.
But, at the same time I get messages from him along the lines of that. The whole we've been together for 6 years and I still don't do something right. -.-

Ahkay, well, whichever made sense. ^.^

If it really gets on your nerves, you could point out that he doesn't seem to try very hard.

Yeah, been there done that, nonsense. [sweat]

Don't want to go to work today. I really don't. I wish I didn't have to. But, I have to. I am in no mood to deal with the asshole students there. I have no patience for them. I am not in the mood to deal with the crap from some of the people at work. I better not be moved around today, I am in no mood for that.
I went to bed earlier. Fell asleep sometime after 1. I didn't do any homework, because how the hell can I concentrate when my boyfriend is pissed at me and won't talk to me and it's my fault.
Anyway, I fell asleep after 1 something, I woke up at 9. I feel as tired as I did wednesday when I woke up after 2hr of sleep.
Ugh. I need a vacation. I can't do this anymore. being here is too hard. I'm about to give up. I can't keep doing this to myself. I really don't care about what people will think of me at home. They can just suck it.
Everything is getting to me, I'm overwhelmed, my relationship has been rocky since I got here. We got into the fight the first weekend while he was here, we get into these fights almost every week or 2. We got into a big one on our anniversary because of something I said or didn't say (he picked a fng great day to try to quit smoking [sarcasm])

I should just give up in life and be a sorry sad sack like him. Nothing I do is right, nothing I do matters, everything is my fault. No matter what I do or how much I try, nothing ever gets better, everything I do and love, and try to keep sane just falls apart and turns to shit.

Don't make any rash decisions, Ser. If anything, get rid of the boyfriend who keeps making your life hell.

Yeah, he really does have a bad attitude ^^" runs in his family

In other news, I kick ass at work [:P]

While there is a lot of irony in me saying this, I am going to agree with the stance expressed by admonished. Based on my extensive research, aka reading posts from page 1014, it would certainly seem like the fault is in your bf's court. As you yourself identified you are going through a lot of stress as a result of your circumstances, even excluding his shenanigans, it is moments like this when one would hope their partner is able to be more supportive. Oh and hello because apparently I am all rebellious when it comes to conversational conventions. xD

Long time no see, Crimson. :)

Anyway, both of them are right, and I've been saying the same thing for about two years, now.

If you give up on yourself you'll regret it. You'll regret even more that you didn't tell off Mike instead of giving up. Have faith in yourself, Ser.

Haha yeah it has been a while. I am pleased that you remembered me, as I fondly recognized you. xD

I've been around Mene long enough to remember most friendly faces. :)

How's college been? You were just starting back last time I saw you around, if I remember right.

Yeah, last time I was just returning. Although I was informed at work that I was going to be given the chance to change department. Since I was...well less than happy with the department I was in, I was quite enthusiastic at the prospect. The issue was however that the one class I was enrolled in had a compulsory attendance requirement. A change in department would have essentially resulted in an automatic fail. Since I had only just gotten around to regaining access I was not wishing to spoil it. Therefore I withdrew from the class within the allocated time to do so without suffering any academic penalties. This ensured that I was able to still keep my access to the university while getting the department transfer that I was wanting. I am loving the new department I am working in. It is a nice change going to work and actually looking forward to my day there. The work now also is much less tiring and consists of four ten hour shifts, so is much more suitable for studying on the side. I have just got to finalize a few details with my manager and I will be set to submit my classes for next year. I am looking at taking four classes over the year. Two Social Anthropology classes, a Womens' Studies class and an English one.

How have you been lately?

Well, then, I'm glad everything worked out for you! I know how it is to dread going in to do something every day.

Women's Studies classes are so enlightening, especially when you have a passionate professor. I had my Women's Studies professor give me a recommendation once because we got along so well.

Never did take an anthro course, unfortunately. I spent all of my elective courses on psychology.

I've been decent. Just stressed over college like everyone else.

Yeah, it is definitely not a pleasant situation to be in. The Womens' Studies class should be quite an interesting one. It is "What is Feminism?" and looks at feminist conceptualizations of gender. With how I have set my BA up, I only have two elective classes and I am more than happy to select this as one of them. The two anthropology classes will be "Political Anthropology" and "Culture, Biology and Racism". Initially I was a little taken back by you not taking any anthropology classes. Then I asked myself how many psychology classes I am intending to take and suddenly your situation connected with me. xD

You would be pretty close to finishing your undergrad studies, if you have not already moved past that level, correct?

@admonished -
The way I had initially been thinking about it was that the enjoyment from study was going to hopefully provide me the motivation to stick with the job. It might be fair to say that I am fond of my majors, especially Social Anthropology. What was the Womens' Studies class you were taking?

ack, headache.
Yeah, college is stressful. I'm going for my Master's degree, so I'm all spazzed out constantly. I'm almost about to become a coffee drinker :(

Headaches can really suck a lot. Are you currently taking classes or working on your thesis? I am also curious as to why you are not wanting to become a coffee drinker. Although I am not entirely sure what you mean by the term. xD

@Crimson: I wanted to take an Anthro course. I looked at them in the catalog every time registration season rolled around, but they always conflicted with my schedule, or had awful teachers, or some other requirement popped up that didn't make it possible.

I'm almost 3/4's done, thereabouts. I am planning on adding in a business minor, so that'll end up setting me back a semester, most likely. I'll have to see. I was originally going to do some minor more directly in line with my psych major, but I realized how dense I am when it comes to finances, the stock market, and business awhile back, and that's no bueno, so I need to fix it.

@nonsense: Ahh, yeah. They can be that way unfortunately.

I don't recall my class being sexist in any way. Of course it was almost entirely about women, but what do you expect? No time was ever spent belittling men, however, and I was thankful for that. There was time spent on the subject of how men shouldn't have anything to do with women's health care, yes, but it's as it should be.

You're right, though, baths cure everything that isn't terminal.

@Ser: Us coffee drinkers aren't that bad! Join the crowd. ;)

I've had a cold the last few days, so I can understand the headache. Been eating cough drops non stop to keep the sinus pressure down.