Eh, I like the idea of doing things because they're right for me. I mean, I love doing things for other people, too. But I don't better myself when I'm trying to appease those around me. I do it by finally standing up and saying "No, guys. Back off I need this for me."

In addition, I'm not actively looking. So if love wants me to join the party, it's going to have to try a bit harder. :twisted:

I'm sure love will hit you when you least expect it 8D

Everyone says that all the time. ...God I hate being single.

I wish I were single. Let's trade.

Ugh. *creaks into the room, bones complaining all over the place*

I just got back from an award ceremony two hours away from where I live. Mrggle. Who came up with having an award ceremony for college and high school students on a Monday night??

Well. I didn't really phrase that very well. I do things for myself, and pretty much for myself when it comes to doing things to improve who I am...but I do those things better when I'm in love with somebody and have their support.

If I'm going to make a decision to do something, it won't be based off of somebody else's opinion of what my life should be. That's for sure.

I want a boyfriend something fierce...but I need a job now and I need to get back onto my own two feet completely after getting my heart destroyed last time around. I don't need the next person I love with all my life to have to deal with my excess emotional baggage from my last relationship.

I've said it a million times...I want somebody to stay with forever...and I'm not opposed to finding him on this next go round...or at the very least, the one after that. I don't want to wait much longer. All I know is I'll find him when the universe feels I'm good and ready to find him. No sooner, no later.

All I want is to go to concerts. That's not too much to ask, is it?

Only if you can't afford it, lol.

I take it your boyfriend is being a little oppressive lately?

Man, this is why I'm happy with my life as it is. My boyfriend doesn't really set many restrictions or limitations on me. The ones he does set are completely understandable and for my own health and safety. He takes care of my kid when I'm not home and even when I get off work. It's a full time job and I KNOW it's wearing him out. I've got the best of both worlds relationship wise. I'm not so completely lonely I want to dunk my head in a bucket of bacardi 151 and i'm not so oppressed in my togetherness that I just want to get away.

Yeah. Just seems like he forgets just how much I have on my plate and it feels like he doesn't listen to me because I keep having to repeat myself to him or explain in more detail why I have to do something when the answer is painfully obvious and should be common sense. Reminds me a lot of my dad's habit of not paying any real attention to anything unless it benefits him. He also whines a lot. Way more than anyone else I know. He's a grown man, he should know how to solve his own problems and deal with things instead of turning into a baby. I feel like I'm his mother and have to take care of him because he can't do anything on his own. It gets to the point where I just want to be left alone and not have to deal with him. That's what I did last night. I went to work and never bothered speaking to him after that.

Was he sitting down? Make him stand up to talk to you. When males sit 70% of our brain shuts off... I wish I was joking about that, but it's a medical fact.

That's...odd. Not going to lie.

True though. Weird huh?

Any specific reason why that happens? Or do they not know?

I had the worst day today :( Spent legit 8 hours at the DMV to take the test for my permit.

Ohmy! I take it that it didn't go well? :(

The test was fine. Honestly, the NYS permit test is so easy, it's impossible to fail. It's just the waiting that takes forever. I got there at 10 AM and waited in line for two hours, only to be told that even though I was turning 18 in like six months, I still needed a parent/guardian to sign my form. So I went downtown to my Dad's office, got him to sign it, and then went back uptown to wait another 2 hours before finally taking the test.

20 questions, you needed 14 to pass. Easiest test of my life (I legit opened the book this morning). But then I had to wait another 2 hours to be called to pay, and I also had to take cheek from the guy who took my picture because apparently my name on my social security had my first and middle name as one, whereas on my passport it was different.

Not to mention it was fricking hot today and I was wearing mad layers.

Ugh. I remember that shit.

When I got my license a couple years back I went in and waited two hours while freaking out about my driving test only to find out that I didn't have a specific paper that they neglected to tell me that I needed. So I had to go home, wait a week, get the paper and go back only to fail the driving test because they took me to a blind corner that anybody could have screwed up on. I'm sure that's why they do it.

I then proceeded to take the test again a month later, and I had to do it in December on a foot of packed ice in a truck with no traction. But I passed that crap. So I'm proud of myself, lol.

I killed my test in one try. I'm a good driver. lol.

Psh. :talk2hand: Braggart. ;)

I hated driving at the time, so I was a bit of a bad driver. If I hate something, it comes out very blatantly in what I'm doing.

At least I wasn't like one of my friends who ran a couple of stop signs during her driving test and couldn't figure out why she failed, lol.

Yeah... the guy who did my test told me to drive over the speed limit. lol.

LOL sarofset, what a strict instructor.

I'm only getting my permit, huff. Actual driving has yet to begin.

I got my license when I was eighteen, and have had it about three years now. If I'd had it two more years I would have more job opportunities.

Someone feed me.

Don't feed the bears.

But do feed the vixens.