Thanks :/
I hate being away at school. All day all I wanted to do was just go home and wrap Emi up in a blanket and pet her all day until she passed. Make her feel as good as possible. I feel really bad for my dad, he had to bury her in the backyard all by himself, unless his girlfriend was over at the house. My mom's at my grandmother's for the week recovering from her knee surgery. And I'm here at school.
I just want to curl up with Mike and Eli (my baby boy) First thing I'm doing when I walk in the house next month for Thanksgiving break, is run to Eli and grab a hold of him and hold him close till I get the courage to go out to the backyard and visit Emi's burial spot and leave some treats there for her.
Sucks I live on campus or I would get a picture of her and light a candle for her and do some form of ritual for her to help guide her to the other side.

Yeah. I still need to light some incense and things for people/things that have passed in my life over the last couple of weeks. Maybe tonight.

I don't want to sound like I'm giving you a pity party, but I feel horrible for you. It's just such a ridiculous situation/set of situations you've been dealing for so long now.

It's ok. I've kind of done that for myself today. I went to the Salvation Army with my suitemates and did some shopping (bought a cute summer/warm weather dress that I'll use as incentive to lose weight), then got some hot cocoa and went to the pier with them. I'm going to have a relaxing night of not caring about my "diet" and just sit on my butt, maybe have a smirnoff ice and play my kantele.

Yeah, I've got the rest of a stick of incense from September and will see if I can find my picture of her and go outside and light the incense and say a few words.

Yeah, this year has been quite a year full of crappy situations and turmoil. And this was supposedly my year of calmness. It's the year of the Rabbit, I'm a Rabbit and here I am with stuff happening. -.- this coming weekend will be a good one. Mike's told me things we shall do and made me feel a little better.

I've never been into a Salvation Army. I need to put that on my list of stuff to try. I've made friends with Habitat for Humanity lately and I've gotten some beautiful things from them, I tell you! I got a silver platter thing to put all my makeup on on my dresser, and a GORGEOUS Chinese doll that must've cost a fortune when it was new, but was only $4 for me. :lol:

I'm really beginning to enjoy that kind of stuff.

I've put on ten pounds since starting college and I hate it. It's my goal to fix that by the end of this year. :P

Yeah, I gained pretty much most of my 40lbs I lost a few years ago, since mike and I got together 5yrs ago. :/ So, I would like to return to being a size 14-16
I love the Salvation Army. Shopping there and at Goodwill were awesome days for me when my dad was unemployed a few years ago.

A wild Vixyena appeared!

Nice outfit :D

The wild Vixyena is watching carefully!

O.O Pokémon :P

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or at least imitating activity of said monster :p

I see Vixi's a Houndoom today ^^

@Serena: Pretty much :lol:

@Taiyo: Wrong pokemon. Though I could probably make a Houdoom avi...

Ah. I know the pokemon but not it's name...gr...

Mightyena.

*just watched Hanna*

Yes. It was screwed up.

Now I'm Houndoom.

The wild Vixdoom used Attract on Ely!

THAT is a successful cosplay!

*flies out of Pokeball and plops next to master*

*pees on the thread to mark her territory*

I want more pokemon friends!

WOMAN!!!! HOW MANY TIMES DOES WIFE HAVE TO TELL YOU NOT TO PEE IN THE THREAD??? >.> *disowns*

I HAVE TO SO OTHERS WILL SMELL IT AND KNOW THAT IT IS MINE!

Vixdoom has been released back into the wild. Bye, Vixdoom!

BUT THIS IS WIFE'S THREAD! Mark your own thread! :talk2hand:

I did!

...and clean up the pee in Wife's thread and move it to your thread. :talk2hand:

I HAVE TO LEAVE MY SCENT HERE!

Well..then spray some freaking perfume or something...it stinks in here of pee. :talk2hand:

My pee probably smells like cream soda :rofl: