Yeah, every week my manager will have me working different hours it seems. Last week I had a couple days where I got off at 7p, this week I have all 5-10 shifts. Which is quite annoying when you want to see about having another day during the week to spend with the boyfriend to do stuff that, since we haven't been able to, we had the little spat on Monday.

Oh well, we both have the weekend off.

Well I hope you guys have a good weekend together my boyfriend went to an amusement park today. Lucky guy lol i'm at work and he goes to the amusement park.

I hope so too... He's still depressed seeming. -.-

No one can really be that pissy at a wedding unless they want to get kicked out. :lol:

I beg to differ XD

Lol, admittedly, you do have a lot of proof to the contrary. [lol]

Eh, he responded with something he says when he's not mad at me, so he's just depressed, not really mad at me. I told him that I wish I was there to help him feel better and that I'm there for him (called him love) his response was "raaa" (it's what he usually says acknowledging)
That and when he signs off for the night he says nighty night and wishes me a good sleep and such and *kiss*
so, he's just depressed for some reason neither of us know, but this weekend will be a good one, we'll spend it together (spending the night with him on Sat)

Sometimes depression is just unexplainable. Maybe he has a reason and maybe he doesn't. I know, having grown up with psoriasis, sometimes you just wake up, look in the mirror, and end up hating yourself for a month.

Yeah, that's probably part of it. he has moments when he doesn't think he's good looking for some reason and I end up taking the brunt of it and will just be there for him with lots of hugs and such when I see him next.

I dunno. You just walk around blind to it 80% of the time, and then somebody makes a comment and your life is ruined for a month. Least that's how it's worked for me in my life. BUT, when something triggers that depression, everything else can start going badly pretty quick, too.

I never seem to have a good reason for my depression, other then money generally other times it's absolutly nothing
If you haven't heard the hyperbole blog, I would reccomened her last post on depression.

@Ely: Yeah, he got himself into a funk where he felt as though he was ugly for some reason. Doesn't help I'm also talking about going back to school soon and he's stuck home because he f'd up in school.
There may be other things too. :/[wall]

I bet you its the school thing again. That hit him hard when he found out he wasn't going to get to go didn't it?

Yeah, it hit him so hard that he had a few days+ pitying himself.... when he said he wanted a pity day... which turned into pity week

Pity days are never good. XP

Since I've dealt with depressive tendencies for my whole life, I know now I just have to NOT give myself a break to pity myself or it'll all go bad again.

@Birdie: But yeah, Birdie. That last post on Hyperbole totally reflects depression perfectly. It also is a good example of why depression meds are necessary sometimes.

@Ser: Did he ever decide to go back to school or is he just going to work?

Yup the I'm depressed over nothing so it's makeing me more depressed spiral.
I take one or two pity days depending but if I don't pull myself out of it with in a day or two well then... it's not good.

No they're not a good thing. -.- I just wish he would get it through his head to just buck up and deal with it.

Yeah, I have a friend who is someone who actually needs meds. which thankfully she is abel to get since she qualifies for state aid.

Sadly no, he has decided to just work. We have had the conversation where we agreed never to bring up him and school again because he feels as though he wouldn't be able to get into a school and he even doesn't feel as though it would be worth getting into one of the schools that have a lower requirement. So, he has no idea what exactly he will do and all he knows is I'll be there to support him.

@Birdie: I agree. If you can pull yourself out of it, a pity day can be okay every once in awhile...they're always just harder to get out of than I think they are, anyway.

@Ser: I think my mom needs some meds of some sort. Her bi-polar rampages can be disturbing. Actually slapped her a couple weeks back because she went so nuts. Thankfully...I think that was the end of that. *crosses fingers*

To be completely honest, I wouldn't go to school at all if I knew I could get by easily in life without it. It's just so worthless. Masters degrees aren't even guaranteed jobs anymore.

Besides, what I want to learn, I can learn better on my own than in a classroom, but, alas, a piece of paper means everything.

As long as he finds a good job, it won't matter. Those jobs are still out there.

Yeah, and he has a Bachelor's. He has a better chance at getting a job than my cousin who only has her Associates.
The thing with him is he doesn't really know exactly what he wants to do in his life career-wise since he had the one big thing he wanted to do taken away from him because he f'd up.

I can get a job in a library as a clerk or a page.. But, I want the full job with the benefits.. So, I have to get my Master's

We tried sooo hard to get my mom to take meds and she would just freak out and say that the doc was trying to brain wash her and the pills were mind control. We were like "uh yeah that's the whole point!"

I does make me really upset that my whole life I was told to go to school and if I went to school I would make more money. Now I have friends with masters and doctors who can't find good jobs because they have to MUCH schooling at it makes them "overqualified" and expensive so no one wants them. Its so backwards and disheartening that I wouldn't go to school if I didn't love it so much. That's just my field though, and I feel like I can use what I learn outside of a job situation. Otherwise it's just a total waste of money anymore.

Meh. A lot of people don't know what they want to do. I guess it's just not an excuse. All you can do is get out there, work, and learn from experience what you like.

@Ser: I have to get a Ph.D. if I want my profession to be worth anything.

@Birdie: Pretty much. There's no making a mentally disturbed person see that they need meds or therapy unless they figure it out themselves. That's the one thing I seriously hate about psychology. You can't just force people who need help to get it.

What upsets me most about life in general, and really, the biggest disappointment I found in growing up was that you really can't grow up to be anything in the world. Adults spend their whole lives telling kids they can be whatever they want, and the second they go out and try it's: WHOOPS YOU CANNOT DO THAT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE. Go to college to get a degree that won't get you a job! [wall]

it took me a while to figure out what I wanted to do, and there are still a lot of things I wouldn't mind doing, so I just kinda cycle through them XD I will admit though not working at all is as boring as you guessed XD I was thinking about working at taco bell with russ just like two days a week. The modeling pays the bills but I want some extra money, mostly to get russ his own computer XD


YES! Adults spend there whole lives lying to kids I feel like. I wanted to be a marine biologist and play with Orcas and Dolphins for a living when I was a kid XD They didn't tell me I would need to have mathematical skills to play with animals XD

Yeah, he's stuck, but he knows I'll support him in whatever he decides to do for a career. I want him happy and if I'm the bread winner because I went to school and have a good chance at the good job, that's fine. Even if he's lucky and gets the good job and really good pay, I'll most likely have the benefits anyway.

The other thing that is annoying is when someone gets a degree and will waste their time getting the degree and get a job after school that HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THEIR DEGREE [wall] and it's their choice.
Example:
My lazy cousin is getting her Associate's in Criminal Justice... Is she going into a field using it? No, she is wasting her degree and is going to try to be a Security guard.
I have a friend and my dad who were both security guards at one point and neither of them finished high school and got their GEDs. So, her degree is wasted.

My Ex is like that. Actually I don't think he even plans on working ever in his life. He's just a wandering exchange student, generally doing writing degrees and pretending his Jack Kerouac. As soon as he's close to actually achieving a piece of paper he changes his major and goes for something else just so he can have an excuse to go to a different country. What does he really want to do as a job when he finally "settles down" and is "done" with his schooling? A barista which is the fancy name for someone who makes coffee. No schooling required. He just wants to travel around on his parents money and he knows school is the only excuse he's got.

@Birdie: Yup. I always wanted to be the nutty ass artist (which I swear to high heaven that's what I'm going to end up anyway) writer who pops out a new book every once in awhile and then disappears to do something else.

And, I wouldn't blame your ex if it weren't for the fact his goal in life is to serve coffee.

@Ser: My mom has the technically better job than my dad. My dad makes more, but he lost his benefits, so now my mom's benefits from the hospital she works at are the best thing the family's got going for them.

My degree kinda comes off like that, but I justify it as, no matter what, my psychology degree will come in handy. Even if I'm working in an office...well ad makers run on psychological know how.