Asher was breathing better than he had been and he was calming down at bit, but he didn't feel at all good now. His chest felt heavy now and he was still upset with himself about what he had said. He knew Shouki probably was too and he didn't blame him if he didn't. He was only wasting time now not wanting to move or go anywhere to be with Shouki longer. He knew that Shouki could get up and leave any time and he hoped he didn't. His tears had stopped too, but once Shouki left he knew that they would be almost unstoppable. "I'm sorry...I'm just a stupid person." Asher said softly because it was all he could manage. He really was sorry and he truly did believe he was stupid. Compared to Shouki he was dumb and unless and he knew it. It almost made him want to get up and leave so Shouki didn't have to put up with him anymore.

Shouki just keeps rubbing Asher's chest. "Feel a bit better now?" At least now it seems Asher is breathing better right now, but he feels the need to ask anyway. He halfway wraps himself around Asher...since outside isn't the warmest place right now and it probably wouldn't be good for Asher to get cold after that little episode. And he doesn't want to go inside which would easily solve this little problem. "You're not stupid. You say stupid things because you don't think before you speak. I do the same thing...it doesn't make you stupid though...it just means you say stupid things. Who doesn't say or do something stupid once in awhile....or all the time..." He's still rubbing Asher's chest, trying to be soothing.

"No, I feel horrible." Asher said and he meant it. He felt worse than about anything he could remember. It didn't help that he felt bad because of everything he had done. He had said offensive things and made Shouki mad at him. "Thank you, but I'm stupid." Asher says looking forward at his yard. It was the only place he really knew and everything inside of it was what he knew. Anything else was beyond him. That always seemed to become shockingly clear when Shouki was around him. "I may not think before I talk, but I'm stupid and I know." Asher wasn't going to give up on this because he knew it was true. It should have be clear to Shouki after all that he had done. He didn't know why he was even still here with him. Why would he stay after Asher had been so rude.

Why Shouki is staying? This thing called love that can be very annoying at times, but it makes up for those and beyond at other times. "I'm sorry." He whines softly. Asher didn't start having the attack until he said what he did and went to leave...so he caused it in his mind. And he feels bad about it. "You're not stupid. Stupid and unknowing are two different things. You can't help that you don't know what you don't know. Stupid is when you choose to not learn what you don't know when you have a chance. There's a difference." Shouki is kind of tugging Asher towards the house.

Asher didn't care what Shouki wanted to call it. He was stupid, unknowing. It didn't really matter to Asher want he called it. It didn't help the fact that he thought he was dumb. He had done so many things in just that day to prove it. Shouki couldn't even deny that fact. "I'm not smart then." He said not giving up about that. It didn't matter how Shouki tried to re-word it. Asher didn't like that he was being pulled toward his home. He just got up and began walking towards it on his own. "You're not coming back are you?" Asher asking. He thought he knew the answer though, but he wanted to know or to hear it on his own. He wouldn't waste anymore of Shouki's time if he wanted to leave.

"So? Few people are smart. You're definitely not alone there." Shouki has no clue of what to say right now. Other than that...that is. Doing dumb things and being dumb are two different things in his mind though. Shouki whines softly at the question....deep down he doesn't want to leave Asher. He just follows him towards the house. "I....I don't know..." His head is bowed a bit. It's the only answer he has right now. He wants to come back, but maybe it would be better for Asher if he didn't come back. Though Shouki would probably go emo and all if he pulled through with that one.

Asher didn't know what to say to that. It was just excuse to him as to make him feel better about himself. It really wasn't working he didn't feel any better about anything. His chest hurt and he just wanted to curl up somewhere and cry. Shouki wasn't coming back in his mind and that meant the end of his life outside and being somewhat free. "I'll just go inside then so you can leave." Asher really didn't want to say that, but he knew he had to. Asher lowered his head and turned around to walk back to his home. He felt numb as he took each step and he wanted to turn around and look at Shouki, but he didn't. He walked up to his door and stopped a moment before he opened the door. He had wanted to look back, but he fought the urge to.

Shouki whines softly as Asher walks away. He isn't sure what he should do. He doesn't know what to do to make things better....at least for Asher if nothing else. He ends up following Asher....kind of like a lost puppy. As Asher reaches the door, all Shouki can think is that he has to do something. And since words are escaping him at this point....and nothing he says seems to help anyway...he turns Asher around and kisses him. "I'm sorry." Shouki's ears are drooping and he looks like the saddest puppy ever (or close to it) right now. "I don't know what to do to make it better."

Asher lets out a yelp when Shouki grabs him and turns him around to kiss him. He wasn't expecting that and he starts crying as Shouki is kissing him. He didn't know what to do he was just breaking down at this point. He pulls away from Shouki looking down at the ground. "You don't have to do that to make me feel better." He said backing up towards the open door. He had seen Shouki's face and he wasn't going to look up and be caught by it. "Why are you sorry? I'm the one that messed everything up." Asher said softly he took another step back and he bumped into his mother. "Asher? What's wrong?" She asked before she looked to see Shouki. "What have you done to my son?" She asked him not really caring what look he had on his face.

Shouki starts whining as he notices Asher crying. "I didn't mean to make you cry." Or have a panic attack for that matter. He doesn't mean to get Asher worked up and upset...he just gets upset himself....and apparently he's bad at stopping himself from saying the type of things that make Asher cry and the like. "But.....I want to make it better..." He tries to grab Asher and pull him over to hug him close. "I want you to be happy." And he wants to be happy too....but he'll sacrifice that part if need be. Shouki is essentially ignoring Asher's mother and is just focusing on Asher instead. "I want to make it better....right...." He whines a bit, confused. He doesn't know what to say or do right now.

Asher begins to cry more when Shouki pulls him into him. He didn't even know he could cry this much, but now he did. He was confused by what Shouki was saying because he was under the impression that Shouki wanted to leave. This was confusing him and upsetting him very much. He didn't know how to handle it and cry seemed to be the winner of options of how to handle this. He didn't know if Shouki was just doing this until he could leave or if he really meant it and that confused him even more. "You can make it better by leaving." Asher's mother said as she reached out to Asher. She didn't want to see him cry and to her it was clear to see that Shouki was the problem here. "Asher come here honey." She said gently pulling him from Shouki.

Shouki whines a bit more at Asher's increased crying. "What am I doing wrong now?" He has no clue what he did to make Asher cry even more. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." Shouki doesn't want to leave....underneath it all....unless Asher is leaving with him. Which that isn't happening so neither is him leaving. Shouki hisses at Asher's mother on instinct. "I'll leave if he wants me to...not because you want me to. You are not the one I love." Little bit of a slip there, but Shouki takes no count of it.

When Asher heard him say he loved him Asher began to cry even more and he was just crying his eyes out now. He didn't understand what he meant by that. He had just wanted to leave him and never come back to see him a second ago. How could he love him after he had said something like that. He was confused by what he was saying to him. Asher turned to his mother and hugged her. He was crying into her shirt and rubbing his face against her. "Why did you say that?" He cried. He wanted to know why he would say something like that after he had told him he may never come back to see him.

Shouki whines a bit more fisting his hands in his shirt. And wanting to leave and going to leave are two way different things. He didn't want to leave, but he wasn't going to stay if Asher was going to refuse to eat just because he didn't want Asher to worry about him. "Because it's true." Sad Shouki looks very sad right now...and kind or nervous/anxious about what he said. It's true....but he didn't exactly mean to let it come out. Now was probably a bad time. Shouki starts whining softly, standing there unsure of what he should do now.

"How can it be true when you where going to leave and never see me again!" Asher said loudly into his mothers stomach. He didn't understand Shouki and it upset him that he was saying things that he didn't understand. That didn't make sense to him how he could never want to see him again and then say he loved him. People didn't do that did they? He didn't believe what Shouki was telling him. He was still sure that Shouki wasn't coming back for him. "You don't love me..." Asher told him because that was what he believed. He didn't think that it was love just a way to try and calm Asher down.

Shouki kind of flinches at Asher's yelling. "I never said I was never coming back...I was just mad..." He sounds really sad...kind of like a little kid might. "I...just....didn't guarantee it...if you're....going to stop eating because of me....it might be better if I leave..." He's trying to at least explain himself. "And....if I didn't love you....that part wouldn't have bothered me as much as it did." He's still messing with the hem of his shirt, and is starting at the ground. "Fine then." After that last part, Shouki is crying and it's obvious. "Well...at least...you." He hiccups a bit. "Can be happy now." That part is directed at Asher's mother. "Bye bye." He just turns and goes to shuffle away. Asher definitely doesn't want him around anymore so he'll leave now.

Asher breaks down when he hears Shouki say he is going to leave. He lets out a scream and falls to the ground crying. He didn't want Shouki leave he didn't want them to fight he want them to be friends. He liked Shouki and didn't want to lose him. He was his only friend and he didn't mean what he had said. He only meant that Shouki would worry if it was Asher who wasn't eating. He didn't mean he would stop eating. He lays on the steps of his house crying and kind of screaming. His mother picks him up to carry him into his house and shuts the door behind her.

Shouki yelps a bit, kind of jumping and turning at the same time to Asher. "I'm sorry." He's bawling at this point. He doesn't know what to say or do. And he knows that his sorries aren't going to help, but he can't stop himself from saying it. "I'm sorry." He whines softly before Asher is carried inside.

(Insert time skip...here!)

Ever since that emotional night. There's been the black fox with green eyes curled up near the house, just watching it. It's kind of creepy in a way, but it's all the fox wants to do now since that night.

(I dunno if I mentioned this...but some/all/whatever kitsune can transform into a fox....this is Shouki in fox form)

Asher's mother tries to calm Asher down, but he doesn't calm down until he falls asleep in his room. He doesn't leave his room for a while and he barely comes out or talks to his mother. He just stays in his room and sits there and really didn't do much. It took a while before he actually ventured out of his room to sit down and watch his mother do things during the day. He didn't really feel up do doing anything and he cried randomly if he thought of Shouki. He didn't know what to do. He had no reason to go outside and look around. He wouldn't see anything and he couldn't go much further without getting hopelessly lost somewhere. His mother got him to go out for a while, but he wouldn't go further than his front steps he just sat there looking out at the yard.

It isn't like Shouki can get to him. Not that Asher would want him around. Not after all that. But he just watches the house, hoping Asher might come out and he might be able to do something...beg or something for Asher to take him back. When Asher does come out, Shouki just crawls to him on his belly, whining softly. He hasn't eaten (unless something just happened to come his way) since they last saw each other. He just lays flat in front of Asher, whining still. In case Asher is mad at him, he hopefully won't know it's him....so maybe he can have another chance if he's lucky.

Asher had been sitting on his steps resting his head on his knees. He hadn't wanted to go outside in the first place and he wanted to stay inside where at least he knew what type of things would happen. He didn't like the thought of being outside anymore after he and Shouki and fought. It made him sad and it scared him. He was spacing out when the fox came up to him and when it whined it scared Asher enough that he jumped. He looked over at it and his ears flattened a bit at the sight of it. It reminded him of Shouki and that made his chest hurt just thinking about it. "Go away fox or I might hurt you too..." He said softly as he looked down at it. He didn't want to hurt anyone else and that included a fox. "You don't want to be around me." He said. He didn't think anyone would want to be around him.

The fox whines again as Asher jumps, its ears flattening back as well. It keeps whining and starts pawing at Asher's foot....shoe? a bit. Shouki still wants to be around. His love isn't a lie....even though he may not be good at showing it. Why would he be? He hasn't felt like that before in his entire life...and for awhile didn't even realize what the feeling was. And now, it seems almost (if not) too late to do anything about it. The fox isn't going away and just keeps pawing at Asher, whining and looking up at him.

"I'll just end up saying something stupid and you'll leave too." Asher said as he pulled his foot away from the fox and placed it up closer to him. He was sure that it was only a matter of time before the fox left too. He rested his head back on his knees in his curled up in a little ball. He looked down at the fox as it whined at him just like Shouki. "See, I've already upset you." He didn't know what he had done though, but it didn't really didn't matter to him.

The fox kind of huffs a bit before it goes and braces itself against Asher's legs and starts licking him. He's softly whining, with the tip of his tail swaying a bit. The fox is a bit skinnier that it should be considering the time of year. It should be, compared to winter, fairly easy for the fox to catch food and the like. Which is a bad sign for the coming winter for him. All the fox/Shouki wants....well there's a lot of things, but most of those will have to come later, is for Asher to be happier....and to hopefully be able to be around him. Some of the time at least.

Asher frowned down at the fox as it cling to him. He didn't understand why it didn't just leave. "You shouldn't get too close or I'll hurt you." Asher said to it trying to push it off his foot. He didn't want to hurt anything else after what he had done to Shouki. He was upset enough about that. The little fox didn't help him at all as it kind of reminded him of Shouki. At least the way it whined at him. "You already sound like him. I'm only going to hurt you like I did him." He said reaching down to push the fox off of him. He tried to shoo it away from him. "Leave." He said as he looked down at him.