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Beliar 12-15-2011 05:59 AM

It is coming back...
 
And it is kind of making me mad. A few years ago, I can't believe how time has flown!, I had a bad case of the blues but I didn't recognize it for what it was until after I removed myself from the situation and since then I have been perfectly fine in comparison to then. Recently my mind has started being a monster again and I'm not sure what is triggering it. I'm not alone anymore. I've been thinking such damaging thoughts about myself and I can usually stop myself but not always, and my worry is that I won't be able to keep it to myself and it'll damage my current relationships in one form or another. Since meeting my boyfriend I've been so happy when I'm around him, so maybe the emotional highs are making me crash? I'm slowly getting to the point where I just don't care anymore which is bad, because I don't want to repeat the past. How can I overcome this?

HIM_ROCK 12-15-2011 05:31 PM

Best thing I would say to do is to keep a note of the dates when you're feeling down then you'll find out if it's a monthly thing or not, and when you do feel down what triggared it if there was a trigar for it. You might want to find someone to talk to maybe a counsellor maybe not someone on a neutral ground who won't judge you can help.

Beliar 12-16-2011 07:43 AM

Thank you for your advice, but I don't really know who I could talk to since I'm no longer in school (no counselors for me), but maybe I can find somebody. It is worth a try =)

lightkanna 12-16-2011 08:49 AM

You could write down what you did the whole day and then reread it when you're feeling quite bad about yourself and see why you're feeling a certain way? Have you thought about talking to your parents, friend, or boyfriend about how you feel? Though you probably wouldn't want them to be concern on why you're thinking of harming yourself. I still think it's for the best so if you did harm yourself, they wouldn't worry that you're one step closer to killing yourself.

Beliar 12-16-2011 08:23 PM

That sounds like a good idea and I'm kind of weary about talking about it to them since I don't know if I want them to know how insecure I am. I'm pretty good at acting confident and all that wonderful stuff. I don't think I'm going to kill myself over it, I have no desire to end my life over something as stupid as being self pitying.


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