You ever look back through your old posts and think, "Wow, what was I doing"?
 

'Ello GD. It's 6am, I'm wide awake, and I'm revisting Menewsha for the first time in years! So I thought I'd poke around and see what's new.

Anyway, IDK about you guys, but it's pretty nostalgic being back here. I joined this site in '08, so 5 whole years ago since I've been really active. It's the same in every other Avatar site I was a member of too- one day I simply lost interest. As a result, coming back and revisiting these sites is something like looking through a timecapsule of the person I used to be. By the time I joined Menewsha I was starting to mature a bit, so my digital trail here isn't quite so embarrassing... still it's pretty incredible to see exactly how much I've changed. For the better, I think.

It's kind of weird how big of a jump it was for me, between the ages of 17 and now, 22. I don't think my old self would've gotten along with the now-me, which I will take as a sign that I'm doing it right. ;>

What about you guys? Any tales of a sordid internet past? Embarrassing teen-angst phases?

Definitely! I've signed into old accounts and just cringed at what I posted- mostly deviantart and crafting forums. I just feel so embarrassed with what I was making back then.

Old pictures and old posts both make me cringe.

Oh, and I found my iPod from long ago. That was probably the worst. Cannot believe I listened to such terrible music! Birth to like, 10 was awesome for my music I recall, but middle school was a dark time.

I'm pretty sure I will some day

But not today

I try not to do things I'll regret later... (try)
My IRL was more a "wtf were you thinking?" than my online life

I did this a while back with the MSN blog thingy...I have no idea what I was thinking, other than I was in high school, and was a complete and total anti-social fool. Am I glad that no-one ever saw those? Yes. Do I regret writing those? Not really...helps me realize how much I have grown since then, and how it helped change me into the man I am today.

i get that feeling everytime i make a post xD

It's very painful... I was then 16, now 21...

In my opinion, internet matures us.

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I joined in '08 and I was 21. I've looked back at posts on here and on other sites I joined then as well. Holy crap was I angsty then. I didn't have much of a good year then and I also was very immature-ish then as well. Now I'm 25 and not so much immaturity.

Through my time just here in Menewsha, I've matured a lot. I had a lot of crap happen, and I think I've come out better in the end because of having to deal with it. I don't think I could bring myself to sit down and read my previous posts.

I know that if I could go back either farther, to my IRC and the Palace days I'd cringe even more. I was a fairly emo teenager, and a fairly promiscuous one at that. Good lord some of the antics back in the day....

I could not spell to save my life. I still can't. Honestly, it's just easier for me to ignore now because spell check doesn't pop up red. Rather, I have to actually right-click the word to see whether or not suggestions come up. But previously, my words didn't even resemble language. Then, I met a girl who was three years older than me, but didn't ignore my messages. I thought her words were poetry and I suddenly needed to be on that level. So, for a long period after, my sentences were clunky and awkward in a petty attempt to impress the big girl. Whether I'm more ashamed of the awful spelling or the awful grammar, I cannot decide.

I never quite got over the habit of rambling, and I never stopped with the odd sentence structures. Though, both of those things are habits that bleed in from life offline.

I've had this experience a lot lately with Facebook. I've deleted old pictures, notes and statuses for being misinformed and generally dumb. Just part of getting older, I guess.

sometimes... xD

I can tell you if Facebook was around when I was a teen that I would be doing a fair amount of spring cleaning on my posts. I still similar stuff, but maturity comes with age...I know i would of posted things that just wouldn't be how I thought today.

Part of growing up today is being mortally embarrassed by what you've said online, possibly not all that long ago [lol]

Shows you're developing as a person all the time though [yes]

I'm sure you've got some interesting stories, although like me I know Facebook and other social media sites weren't even thought of yet, Jelly. XD

Saying things like that makes me feel old. I was looking at my kids' cellphones and thought this was absolutely unheard of. You had to be someone very rich for one of those brick phones, and if you had a pager at a young age it meant you were up to no good. Drug dealer *cough*....Yeah.

I think if anyone under 30 isn't embarrassed by themselves 2, 5, 7 years ago, there's something wrong with their development. [lol]

I've been active on the internet for... I guess almost a decade now. So I've got quite the cyber trail of embarrassing immaturity. All sorts of message board posts, deviantART accounts, blogs, myspace crud, facebook posts... I try to keep tidy the accounts I still use. My facebook profile is my facebook profile, for better or worse, so I keep that clean. I go back and delete (or make visible to only myself) embarrassing notes, scroll through my timeline to hide any old statuses that make me cringe, delete stupid photos (nothing of the party variety... more like dumb memes), etc. Most of the rest is pretty disconnected from me now. Except for old Mene posts. [gonk] Man, I was an obnoxious teenager. [ninja] Don't any of you go snooping through my old posts, y'hear! [illgetu]

*laughs* Luckily trying to find my older shenanigans would be pretty difficult as it was mainly on like chat rooms...under different aliases. I'm kinda glad it's like that as it isn't quite out there for everyone to see.

If you were to comb through my Facebook you'd probably be pretty bored and give up fairly quick is it is me mainly being fairly negative. Nothing incriminating....honest. Probably a couple of memes in bad in taste, a couple of emotional outbursts. That's about the juiciest of it.

The irony is you could comb through posts right here on Menewsha and find much more interesting information. I have semi-autonomy here, and I've come online to kind of air issues I've had irl. Probably looking at my older stuff and comparing it to my newer stuff (if you found yourself extremely bored and nothing better to do) would show in the past 4 years of being here I've made a bit of a transition right here. I think the pivotal point was my brother's death. I think that by far has been the most difficult life situation I've had to face and really made me re-evaluate...everything.

I really love Menewsha as it feels as though it is my little home amongst cyberspace where if I need an ear to listen to a difficult day I can pop into a friend's thread and sit and talk. If I want to get lost in RPing (something I've just recently discovered, and enjoying) I can, or if I want to just chit chat about random stuff like I am here I can do that too. I'm hoping that Menewsha exists for many more years to come. I'm addicted. :)

@Amane - Do people from rl know you post here? I have a couple of close friends who know, but even then I feel safe in just letting go. It's nice to have a place where you can be you and not have to worry so much about how others may view you. Not only that, but it would have to almost be a fluke for it to come back and haunt you I would think, unless you were someone famous and money could be made off of it...Or you're doing something harmful to yourself or others and it is reported to authorities. I know I don't lose sleep of of stuff said here.

I think we all agree we've said or done something immature in our earlier years.