How's your day going today?
 

I hope you guys are having a better day than I am! I'm having such a hard time and I'm ready to give up! Do you mind if I tell you about the problems I have had today? I hope you don't mind!

So anyway yesterday my day started off with my boyfriend of four years calling me and telling me that our relationship isn't working out and that he didn't wanna be with me anymore so we broke up yesterday morning and I'm really heartbroken and devastated behind this.I already have severe depression and now I feel more depressed.

I just lost my job and I tried to get unemployment and I was denied unemployment today also. I have a job interview tomorrow and I was feeling pretty good until I tried to drive my car yesterday morning,I started my car up and went to back out of the driveway and my car would not back up,I tried to go forward and the car wouldn't go forward.

I called my cousin who is a certified mechanic to come check out my car and he did.He told me my transmission was gone out on my car and that it would be at least $2500 or more for a new transmission and I can't afford that right now.I don't know how I'm gonna get to my job interview tomorrow,I really can't afford to catch a cab there but I guess I'll have to catch a cab.I asked some friends of mine to take me but they all told me no!!

No one in my family wants to help me out and give me a ride to my job interview,my family has never wanted me or loved me or cared for me anyway and they still don't !! I feel so alone,even God has turned his back on me.I love God but he doesn't love me!! I have no one at all and that hurts a lot too.I've been in my room in bed all day,it's 6:01pm and I just woke up after being sleep since 6:30pm last night and I'm still tired and I'm still in bed,I've been sleeping a lot.There's no point in getting up anymore!!

I wish I were dead so I wouldn't have to be a burden on everyone and so I wouldn't feel the pain I'm feeling right now.I'm always thinking about killing myself and I'm very very close to doing it,why shouldn't I? No one would care if I died and no one would miss me!! I just give up!! [cry]

Don't give up just yet!
Did you make it for the interview? D:

Oh wow, that sounds like quite the ordeal :O
I hope everything works out for you and life gets better, don't give up hope!

Aww, I'm so sorry all of this is happening to you! D:
I hope you were able to make it to your job interview and maybe you should ask some relatives to go spend some time with them or to live with them since the family that you live with does not "care" for you. Also, you may want to go get diagnosed; it does sound like you may be suffering from severe depression and sleeping that long is not healthy for the body or brain. First things first, get help from a local health department or something and get proper care and diagnosis, maybe they could help you work out a better lifestyle and get you some counseling. I wish you the best of luck and if you need to, you can add me as a friend and message me some time to have someone to talk to. I'd be glad to be your friend!
Other than that, my day has been alright; went to work and now I'm back home.
Oh yeah, you don't need that guy btw. He sounds immature and confused of what he wants, don't go back to him!

Lets look at the little things first. God doesn't desert, that's an easy one to acknowledge. second, do you happen to live anywhere near a bus route? Is is in a decent walking distance. if it is under 3 miles, it actually is within walking distance. Your car problems suck, I don't really have any advice for that. As for the unemployment rejection, keep trying. My cousin didn't get unemployment until her third or fourth try. And I can't believe he broke up with you over the phone! that is low. My advice is to go outside and stand in the sunshine for a few minutes. Your life, no how horrible, is worth living. No matter how bad things get you can move on. You say you have depression, good for you for not curling up in a ball! You are trying. You are not letting depression get the best of you. Don't let life get you down. Think of what Annie said, "the sun will come out tommorrow."

i'm so sorry to hear that Stella. i hope you are feeling better. were you able to make it to the job interview? don't let the ex-boyfriend bother you. you deserve someone better than that.

Clockie; I was feeling depressed for the past few weeks. I get really sleepy all the time and I don't have much motivation to go out and meet up with friends or hang out with co-workers after work. i hope things get better for you. i go to church on Sundays and i feel a bit more relaxed and less stressed out afterwards.

-hugs Stella and Clockie-