hey Linnea 'waves' how goes it..

*randomly pops in*

Hi lovely insane people.

hello lovely insane shadami 'waves'

being insane is fun. :]

hey is there diet water in this house?

I sure am insane lately, I bet the people I flipped off earlier thought so. [XP]

Sure we have whatever you'd like, Shadami!

I feel insane with stupid issues lately. :(

hey there, star. it goes well and yourself?

and how about everyone else too [yes]

Eh, I'm so-so here. Still feeling kinda blah because of stupid friend related issues. :(

oh, man. nemo, i can relate to that. i am also having stupid friend issues. well, not that my friends are stupid but more that the issues are stupid [lol]

Because of the issues here, I have lost a friendship with a friend who I have known for 12 years. T_T I hate this! D:
It's making me just not be able to have a good time, even when I try to forget about it. :((

Sorry to hear about your issues.

yea that is pretty rough especially when you've been friends for so long. i hope things get better for you.
my situation is a little bit different. i can't be friends with two people i like very much because i am female while they are male and because their significant others don't want me to be around them anymore. i don't really like the girlfriends [lol] but i've always had more guy friends than girls... i guess that's hard for some people to handle... and if you ask my honest opinion it's because the ladies don't have trust in their men and/or confidence in themselves or the relationship... so sad

Thanks, I'm still in this weird mood where I still feel like just breaking down and crying. I hate that she still has this stupid effect on me. T_T
Aww, well, tell their significant others to stop making them choose between friends and then because that is totally not cool! :( I hate it when girls make their guys choose between friends and them, because that just shows that they don't trust their guys, and I hate it when they feel like they can be that controlling. T_T UGH! :(

oh it's definitely controlling, for sure, no question and it totally shows they have no trust. how you can you have a working relationship if you can't even trust?
to be honest though, i'd rather just not talk to those females at all. i'm pretty sure that like most people they'll believe only what they want to believe no matter what i said anyways. one of them thinks i was sleeping with her husband because he hugged me good bye and the other one... well, she's just as crazy. thinks that i had something going on with her boyfriend. we enjoy the same interests and make each other laugh so i guess she is seeing a better relationship than the one she has... but still! i ain't no home wrecker! [t2h]

but for you, this might sound really stupid, but i find that when i am that upset i just need to find a place where no one can hear me or see me and just cry my face off. cry until i am dehydrated and have nothing left, just get it all out. that way when you think about it after or try to talk about it with another friend or a family member you won't feel like you are teetering on the edge of a bawl-your-eyes-out-fest.

I'm never alone enough to cry like that without someone stepping in and looking at me with pity.... I just lost my sister. T_T I hate it.

well everyone needs time and space to mourn, especially if you've lost someone as close to you as your sister. do you drive? go for a drive and just cry, cry, cry. maybe go to the beach at a time when no one is around or go for a walk at night if you live in a safer neighborhood/town.

No, I don't drive. I do not live near the beach - it's a 4 1/2 hour drive to the beach. And I am afraid of the dark.

Sorry, because of something that just happened, I'm in an even more stupid rubbish mood now. Ugh! D: And I don't mean to feel like I'm being snappy. I think I need to go, before I say something I regret.

in the shower then. almost everyone showers alone at some point

I shower late at night and the shower I use is right next to my parents bedroom.

well, you know your habits and surroundings better than i do. find the time and the space

I doubt my mom will give me any time or space to myself till my move in 3 weeks.

Ugh, sorry, I'm not a really good chatty person tonight, I just had another reminder of how big a looser I am, which is only putting my blah mood down even more. I think I'll go because I am dragging down the thread... again... story of my life. >.<

the thread is only you and me at the moment so you aren't really dragging it down any more than i am [lol] but remember that it can't rain all the time

Yeah, well lately - nothing goes right... When it rains it pours and it's been pouring for me for over a month now... I doubt it will turn around anytime soon.

then look at it this way, if it's raining that hard on you and for so long than you are due for some happiness, a nice long streak of it. don't be so down on yourself all the time and miss your opportunity for something great

Well, sorry that I'm so down on myself. If what has been happening me was happening to you or anyone else you'd probably be the same way. I doubt anything will change, given that things always go bad for me... nothing good every happens... Ever.

I don't mean to be a downer, I just feel like lately I try and I try and I try, and I repeatedly get kicked while I'm down, and honestly that makes it really hard to believe that anything I do is right and that anything good ever happens to me.

everyone has problems. some just choose to deal with it differently than you or i. that doesn't make them wrong or make their problems hurt any less, or more, than yours. i hope one day you'll see that you're only as happy as you want to be in that moment. the human race is a strong one and you'll make it though. it's what we do. everyone gets hurt sometimes, but it's how we deal with it that makes all the difference.
just keep swimming, nemo [yes]