nemo - Ah okay. I see.

Basically she had a hard time walking - turns out she has tumors on her spine, she's been in the hospital for 2 1/2 weeks. Had to have back surgery. They removed 4 tumors. She's taken a medical withdrawal, but because of the circumstances, they're letting her stay in housing... ((Long story short))... Oh, yes, and in all of this, I basically was helping her full time while taking a full load of classes, and helping her with her dog... (she has a service dog)... and I was having breakdowns every night from the stress of it all - like sobbing on the phone with my bestie from back home, who lives 7 hours away, and who was ready to get on a plane and fly down here.

Oh gosh.. I'm sorry to hear that.
Sounds like you both have had it rough.

And I've told my mom that if I knew this is what it would have been like, I would NOT have come down here.

I don't blame you.
Not sure if anyone would want to take on that kind of responsibility on their own.

But no one knew that this would happen as this all started happening after school started and I had moved down here...

But basically it feels like she expects me to be there for here, when I'm not here in care provider. If she needs that much help... I can't do this.

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Also, there!! Got a bit more green in -- what do you think!? :D

Oi! She looks good! ^^ The goodie bag gives it a good trick-or-treat feel.

That's some predicament you're in. :/

Thanks! I'm actually really starting to love how she looks. I was feeling so-so about her earlier, but the more that I add to her.. I've spent like 5k or so on this outfit so far. [sweat] But if people love it, it's worth it. :]
It's not like I was really saving up for anything and why let it just sit there anyways? :P

Heh... yeah. :/ It's one that I'm not very happy with, but at least her mom is here, till the end of the month, so caring for her, doesn't fall on me. So I suppose that's a plus.

And to top it off, I'm 7 hours from home, and very homesick, and unless my parents come down for my birthday, I won't be seeing family till Christmas break.

It's coming along nicely!
Hey, sometimes we gotta spend a little to look good. [lol]
At least making it back isn't all too difficult.
I won't be making a Halloween avatar this year, as I'm saving up for a Cheezy Romance.

So you have some breathing room.
Least you can do is try to enjoy it.

Oh no, that sucks. Hopefully they'll make it for your birthday, that would be a nice gift.

Oh, totally... and I'm willing to do this. [lol]
Do you need any gold to try to make up at least a simple one? I'm willing to send some gold over your way. [yes]
And making it back is easier said than done - that took me quite awhile to get to about 12k. >.< And then I went on my spending spree - and today I started from just over 11k. [XD] Yeah, so that was like a 6k spending spree to get to this point. [yes] And with my issues with mene, I'm not on here enough to make it back fast.

Yeah, I have a bedroom to myself for a month, at least. Give or take. [yes]

We'll see... depends on if they're willing to drive down here. It's only been mentioned once... not sure what dad'll say on the matter. It will be awkward though as I'm doing NaNoWriMo next month, and my birthday is at the end of the month, when it's crunch time for writing, as well as all things school oriented. We'll see.

That's good!
Hm? No it's alright, I'll manage somehow. ^^
I'll try to see if I can come up with a cheap outfit to wear before the event starts, whenever that is. Haha.
Ah I see. I suppose that is true, haha. I'm having a difficult time just saving up 6k. xD
I'll get there eventually. Probably force myself to play the games or something.

That's great. ^^
I'm not a fan of sharing bedroom space in all honesty.

When's your birthday? o:
I see, so it hasn't been decided yet. Well at least there's Christmas in any case.

Alright. I'll probably not be participating in the event as that's when my mood with Mene really plummets... -.- I avoid mene at all costs when it comes to event time... Because it just reinforces how I feel about it, and the fact that people barely talk to me normally -- during event time... really no one talks to me.
I know you can do it! [yes]

I'm used to sharing bedroom space. [yes] I've been doing it for almost 6 years now.

My birthday is the same day as the Doctor Who 50th Anniversary. ((Being round about here... but it's also on my profile. [yes])) It's in November.
I don't know if personally I can make it to December without somehow seeing my family - and Skype or online doesn't count. It has to be seeing them in person. I'm kind of hating my other roommates right now as they all have an option of going home as they live closer and my roommate's mom is currently here... and I'm the one stuck here without my parents, and I get that someone my age shouldn't be wanting her parents, but right now I really do.

No one... talks to you? D:
I'd talk to you, or at least I'd like to think I would. Haha ^^ Events just get so busy with everyone chattering that it's hard for me to keep up. So I usually end up cooped up to just one thread.
Thanks! I'll definitely try to do my best!

Oh geez, that's a long time. Haha.
I used to share my room with my sister, but we were both constantly fighting about sharing the space.

Oooh, I don't know anything about Doctor Who, haha. ^^; I mean I've seen a few episodes, but I wouldn't call myself a fan. o3o
It doesn't matter how you get, you'll always want to see your parents. I think it's a natural feeling to wanting to see them or talk to them. [yes]

Basically, everyone else gets replied to, and I'm ALWAYS the one who gets overlooked and ignored and it makes me feel like crap. -.- And it's normally all the time, it's rare for people to actually talk to me on Mene anymore.
You're welcome! If you just keep going at it, you'll be able to do it.

Yeah, I'm older than most people think I am.
I shared a room with my brother till I was almost 11. [yes] Basically from when he was born, till the summer after 5th grade, because we moved and I got my own room. [yes]

No worries. My friends all tease me as I'm totally in love with it. :P But yes, my birthday - is on my profile, if I'm remembering correctly.
I do talk to my parents fairly regularly, on the phone, but that's not the same as seeing them in person... and right now, with all the crap in my life. I need my parents. I'm so close to just calling it quits and moving back home.

Bah! D: That sucks. I know how that feels though.
Sometimes my comments get lost or ignored, but I just shrug it off most of the time.
Or other times I fade into the shadows and lurk. [lol] Then I'll come back into a different conversation.
If I were to make a thread during the event, would you come in to at least say hi? ^^
Yes! I just gotta concentrate on earning enough gold. :3

I'm not sure what people think of me when it comes age. Never really asked anyone about it. Haha.
Well my siblings and I never shared space before, so when we moved it became a bit difficult.
So my parents had to move downstairs, my brother got the master bedroom and my sister and I get the left over rooms. Lol.
My mom regrets not getting the four bedrooms. xD

I tease my friend about her obsession with Doctor Who. [lol] But I mean no harm.
My birthday is on the 28th, which just so happens to be on Thanksgiving this year! I'm super happy about it. ouo
Ah yeah, it's definitely not the same.
Don't give up! ;~; Maybe things will get better!

See if it happened like once or twice... I'd probably laugh it off, but it happens ALL the time (and I mean all the time... it's rare for me to go out of my thread, this is huge for me, coming in here... ), no matter what I do! D: I probably wouldn't... because events just put me into an even crappier mood than I already am when it comes to Mene. I really do mean it when I avoid mene at all costs during event times... Like I do not sign on for like the whole week that they are going on. I do not even come on. They put me into such a bad mood now..

Most people think that I'm in my late teens, when I am in fact almost 25. [yes] And I just have one brother, and we have three bedrooms at my parents house, so it works out. Not so well for guests but we always find ways to make it work. :]

Mine's the 23rd (which is the day of the Who 50th). And if I had been born like 30 minutes later, I'd have been born on Thanksgiving day. :] ((The year I was born, Thanksgiving was the 24th.))

I won't give up but right now I just want to say "to hell with it. I want to go home." Because honestly if I knew this is what it was going to be like, I spent a lot of nights basically in hysterics crying to my best friend back home because I was basically being put under this whole thing of having to take on so much, without having the time to even get used to being down here... I can't do this, I honestly can't and especially with things like today like her accusing me of packing the wrong blender... really!? No... I am so over this! D: But I'll stay, only because this is the only decent college on the West Coast for my major (the other two major universities for my major are in New York and in Washington DC.)

I see... :c I'm sorry.
I didn't know you felt that strongly about the events, so I won't press any further about them. ^^
I think the only reason you're still here is because I'm bugging you. [lol] I can get pretty chatty when I'm in the mood socialize with people. Other wise I avoid them like the plague!

Oooh I see! I'll be 24 this year... I think. Sometimes I forget how I am cos I'm still stuck on 22 for some reason. Lol.
That's too cool! To be born on Thanksgiving. Or is that weird that I think that way? xD

That's really tough. I feel like these thing shouldn't be happening to anyone.
It's just simply not fair! D:
So there's no real support system for you there? Like anyone close by? :/
What are you majoring in? o:

You didn't know... I used to love Events but I noticed that basically that they put me into such a bad mood I don't even bother anymore.
Haha, true, that could be it. Plus this is giving you gold, towards your goal. [yes]

Haha, why're you stuck on 22? :P
Eh, could be just you. I don't like it when my birthday falls on Thanksgiving, because it's so hard to convince my family to make me a cake as they don't want to make anymore goodies than the pies... -.- I want cake on my birthday, darn it! D: My 21st was on Thanksgiving, and I MADE my mum make me a cake. >.<

I have some uncles (who're really old family friends) that live like an hour and thirty minutes from me, but I feel bad asking them to come and get me - because the drive is so far. But really for the most part, I really don't. Other than them, no one. Like close by... no, not close by. No one. I moved down here not having anyone really.
And Deaf Studies is my major. [yes] There are only three main universities that have a huge Deaf communities, and I'm at one of those three right now. [yes] ((And before you ask, because I always do get asked this - I'm not Deaf. And, I don't know what I want to do with my degree yet, I've not picked a focus.)) :P

Well, I suppose things like that happen. :c
It certainly is! Boy I wish it was double gold day, I'd be racking up the gold fast! Haha.

I have no idea! When someone asks me my age out of the blue I blurt out 22 for some reason. [lol]
I forget I'm 23 sometimes. >.<
I don't actually like cake, so I don't mind if my parents buy me one or not. o3o But since my whole family has a sweet tooth I get a cake anyway.
I got wasted on my 21st. No cake for me. ._. Although, I have no regrets of that night because it was a one time deed.
Now that it's done, I can enjoy the rest of adulthood. Lmao.

Gosh. That took a lot of guts. I suppose that's something to be proud of.
Moving on your own like that.
That sounds really interesting. So do you study what causes someone to be deaf or be born deaf?
Or am I completely missing the mark here? xD

Yeah, basically it's just that people in general make it just something that makes me hate Mene.. because I Don't get it... but no one really talks to me during events.... so I just give up.
And hahahah! Totally!!

[lol] It's a nice number, it's my favorite number actually, if you can't tell from my username. :P
I love my mom's homemade chocolate cake. [drool] I don't drink, ever never ever ever... I've not touched a drop of alcohol, ever. And I have people who actually seem to look down on me because I choose not to drink.

I needed to do it, because this school is the top school on the West Coast for my major. [yes] I knew if I didn't I'd regret it. And honestly in a way, I am somewhat regretting it at the moment, because of all the crap that's gone on since I moved down here... There are days that I just feel so freaking alone! T_T
And people say they get it, but honestly, they don't...

I've never lived this far from home, I'm the small town Northern California girl who's thrown herself basically down into LA. >.< I'm not really in LA proper but close enough. I'm in The Valley.

Nope. Here I'll give you the page to my school's description of the program, they do it better than I ever could, with wording it. [yes] Here you go. :]

Oh, did I forget to mention, my roommate that I've been having all these issues with, is deaf. So the only way to communicate with her is through sign language. Which is fine with me, I'm fairly fluent in sign, but there are times when my sign just fails, epically.

I actually left Mene for a bit because there were people that made me hate Mene to the point I didn't feel like posting anymore.
I did my own thing for a while and then decided to come back.
So I guess in a sense I gave up too.

Mmm chocolate cake! Probably the only kind of cake I'll eat. xD
Pssh! There's nothing wrong with not drinking. Haha. People don't have the right to judge others about drinking or not.
I don't drink beer or wine, just a bunch of fruity drinks when I'm out with my bestie.

Well I can't say that I get it, because I've been used to being away from home for long periods of time.
But I think you should be happy that you gave yourself this opportunity, not that I don't think you're unhappy or anything.
But with this drama looming over I guess is clouding you up a bit. o3o

I don't think I've ever felt homesick so I can't empathize with that feeling. :c Even though I live in a small town now, I'm originally from a big city. I also spent most of my childhood in Mexico without my parents.

Oh! That's way different than from what I had thought. The title is so misleading. [lol] Maybe cos I'm taking it literally, as I suppose most people do.

You did forget to mention that. Haha. Now I know!
I'd like to learn sign. I just know the alphabet and some meanings in sign.

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Aaand I have to go to bed.
It's about 2AM and I need my sleep. ;^;
Good night nemo!
Hopefully we'll be able to chat some more tomorrow!

Yeah, I've left Mene before too - but honestly, I feel like if I do leave this time, I will not ever be coming back. Because I just am feeling like the majority of people judge me without getting to know me and treat me like crap, or just do not even acknowledge me at all. Some do, but most people don't.

Yeah, it's a double layer chocolate cake with raspberry whipped cream in the middle and chocolate frosting. [drool] So good. I don't even like those kinds of drinks. I avoid all things with alcohol. [XD] And caffeine (I'm highly intolerant to caffeine). It makes me fall asleep, within an hour, and then I wake up with a HORRIBLE headache!

Oh, see for me. I can handle the distance - it's the drama that people say that they get and they don't. I can say with pretty good certainty that most people have not had to deal with a roommate who's deaf/blind (she does have some sight, but is legally blind, who ended up having to go into the hospital for back surgery because of the genetic condition that she was born with that caused her to go deaf/blind is causing tumors on her spine that are making it hard for her to walk.) It's the fact that I'm having to go through all of that - because basically it got to the point where she couldn't even walk without support of a wall or someone - meaning to get to the cafeteria, she'd need someone to help her walk, so she was relying heavily on me, or another roommate, but mainly me, to help her around, as well as take her service dog out. [yes] And the fact that we're still dealing with what is going to happen yadda yadda yadda... there's no letting up. I did get away weekend before last to go and stay with those friends I was telling you about, that was good. But I had to come back to insanity... yay... I'm just so sick of this. If all I had to deal with was school... I would be fine, but school on top of everything else. I don't know if I can do this.

I'm the other way around - I'm a small town girl having been thrown into a huge city - my college has around 38,000 students. O.o LOL! That's just mind boggling to me.

Haha, sorry! I thought I already did mention it. I've told so many people, I've lost track of who knows and who doesn't. [sweat] And it is a great language, just a hard one to learn, for sure! [yes]

Night, I do hope that you sleep well! [yes] I may or may not be on tomorrow... I have a huge presentation to give on Monday afternoon that I will be spending most of tomorrow studying for. [yes]

*Drops in*

He saw it as soon as I walked into the door. He says he thinks it's too short. I really feel like it makes my face look smaller. Maybe it's just me, but I feel like longer hair weighs me down.

Good afternoon, llonka!

nemo - I hope I don't have to quit Mene again. I really do like it here, but it does get annoying at times.

Chocolate is definitely quite delicious. I'm always in the mood for it. Haha.
Those are the only kinds of drinks that I like. I don't taste the alcohol just the sweetness of fruits. Lol. Caffeine is okay, but most caffeinated drinks make me feel bloated.

Yeah... I've definitely never dealt with anyone like that. I mean I knew someone who was legally blind in high school, but it wasn't like were acquaintances or anything. She was just a girl that I would see in the hallways.
But no, I can't say that I know anything about your situation.

I prefer the city. I love the constant noises of sirens and cars... I miss it so much. lol. I left three of my childhood best friends behind and in turn I made two new best friend in my 10+ plus years being here. I had more friends during high school, but after a while I got left behind. Such is life.

It's alright! Haha.
But yeah, I was taught some sign language in Elementary school, but then I ended up moving.
The new school didn't teach it, I was so disappointed.