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Yeah, maybe guys aren't your thing?
I mean I thought I was straight for a while. Guess. Guess. I'm as straight as a banana! |
Pssh, been there
Guys, Girls, no reaction from me. and trust me, she tried... The Doctor's description of Time is coming to mind. Maybe, "Wibbly Wobbly, timey wimey stuff" applies to this sorta thing too just yanno without the timey wimey bit |
You'll figure it out. It's not all about the body.
At least I'd like to think of things that way. Things with the body is awesome yanno, but just hanging out, doing stuffs for one other and trusting in the relationship is WAY more important. Now I just wish the rest of the world would share this view with me... I wish half of the DW cast could make my bed wibbly wobbly every timey wimey. Did Star see my horribly wrong rendered youtube clip I dropped off yesterday? |
But that's just it
Most of the world doesn't If I find "love" in whatever form it takes, the likelihood is that they are going to want sex And I can't give that. So I'll end up resorting to my default mechanism Make everyone happy. So I'll give in, they'll do it to me, I'll feel used, but like it's what I was supposed to do to keep them happy There! Right there! Example! David Tennant I think he's absolutely gorgeous I can't even look at pictures of him in the eye because I go all coy But still nothing Ville Valo! The same! He's the pinnacle of my idea of perfection! No reaction. Nothing! Johnny Depp, again, Same. All these people, I find them attractive and I want them but never in a sexual way Always just to hold my hand to hold me, to kiss my forehead, to mess around with, to joke and laugh with, to just be around... but the majority of the world wants more they always want more... Oh, No, I didn't Must've been distracted you got the link still? |
If they want sex, you refuse and they won't let it slide, then they don't deserve a second of your attention or a millimeter of your heart. I think that if I managed to get in a relationship with someone who is asexual, I think I'd stick with cuddles and hugs and sweet kisses and nuzzling. Cute stuffs. And if I really, really really want release, there's always the main reason the internet was invented and hands or toys or whatever else I can do in private so I won't have to bother my significant other for such things. I'd be cool with that. Still sometimes I'd be like: I want to share my most precious thing with you, because I trust you and I want you to share this thing. Because to me it would be like sharing my last two spoons of B&J Cookie-dough with you. But still, no is no. And that's too bad for me then. To be honest, I would probably try to make them feel relaxed and at ease with massages, cuddles and stuffs. Because I like to physically care for people. Too touchy touchy sometimes... |
I find it, almost physically impossible, to say "no"
to anyone which is how i get myself in to soooo many situations I don't want to be in, so right there, would be where i fall I couldn't say no, no matter how much i wanted to say it, i couldn't They'd get what they want, and I'd be locked in a cycle. Much prefer being alone... gonna be fun when I want kids, huh? Maybe I'll end up as a crazy dog Lady.... that'll be a new one.. That sounds lovely, Very understanding of you Jack. which is why I'm sure, someday you'll find someone perfect [:)] |
Aye, that's gnarly... I'm sure you'll learn to say no one day.
No, can be your biggest friend some time. You'll end up as a cool and chill auntie or something. I don't know. I sense you'd be that one woman down the road, all the kids are talking about, because you're weird but awesome. |
~shrugs slightly~
Cest La Vie I won't be a cool auntie, that's for sure, my brother will move out, and never talk to me again, i know that. So the chances of me being an Auntie are slim, let alone being a cool one! [lol] I'm weird, but I doubt I'll be awesome your video, Jack, It's probably a very dark-lit game to begin with, but it's hard to see what's going on sometimes. Not sure if there's anything that can be done about that. Figured I'd mention You go awfully quiet at some points, but regardless, I was giggling through most of it. You're rather amusing [:)] |
I'll brighten the video's from now on then. Only just slightly. The gamma has to be very low, but I can turn it up.
Thanks for the feedback. I can use it ;) I might make a better video this weekend, because someone has a spare mike for me. He just as to fix the cables for my soundcard. So better voice audio. =D I'm glad you like it. |
Glad I could be of assistance [:)]
I look forward to your next video |
it's uploading now. But it'll take a while.
Figured out how to get the right resolution. My screen doesn't do, normal video format resolution though.... XD Hence why in this vid, some stuff got cut off. I didn't notice it until just now... /ashamed |
My screen doesn't do normal resolution either
... Mostly 'cos it's a telly... Anyway, I'm sure people who watch it understand, it's your first video like that isn't it? Only way to get better is to fail at certain aspects, and learn from it. You know that from Art, i'm sure [:)] |
I'm ashamed, because I should know this stuff. Like. I studied it. And got my diploma for it and I just forgot shit. xD
But still, I hope my Amnesia play through will be better. I'm using Outlast as a test thing now. Since I've already played more than the first three vid's Imma upload XD I couldn't help myself, I wanna play this game. Also: don't try to drink orange juice if you have a cut in your lip. IT WILL HURT |
I've forgotten half the stuff i learnt on my courses and things.
You shouldn't feel ashamed for forgetting a few bits and pieces :3 Good Advice i'll keep that one in mind |
Then again, I haven't done video editing in like 2 years or so...
Anywho, what's Star up to? |
Star is attempting to Pixel
and it's making my head hurt [lol] Oh and Tim's about to ring me... again I'm awaiting the "deep meaningful conversations" again ¬¬ How 'bout you? What're you up to? besides your video |
Deep meaning ful conversation ?
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Haha, but your pixels always look so nice!
Oh dear... Meaningful conversations in how he doesn't want to lose you and stuffs like that? Not much really. Greasing my lip like there's no tomorrow, for it hurts badly. Listening to some vague "Welcome to Night Vale" dubstep, in which Cecil announces the weather just before the bass drops. That's it, maybe draw a bit in a moment... I wanna do some TF2 fanart, but I just can't get the characters right. |
Oh yeah
the whole "I pushed you away, i made it worse, I did this, I did that" sort of thing. He always does it he tries to make up reasoning for my actions and it annoys me Wait for it.... My mood will be killed in a moment. see the knife? I've not pixeled in aages, hair is my nemesis! Damn you haaaair |
Boot to the head time ?
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Eugh, guild trip deluxe with reversed psychology.... Great. The best thing ever.
You know what the best part is; people say it that way, but don't really mean it. They only fear for themselves and not their 'loved' ones. |
"I know you so well"
"Ii accepted your Anxiety, I can accept your Asexuality" "I wouldn't have gone anywhere else, I accepted it" Blaaaargh! Stop doing this to me! I'm finally getting settled with who I am! Stop stirring the mud in my puddle once it's settled! |
If it's accepted then why did he do things he knew would make you feel uncomfortable ?
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I honestly have no idea HIM
I really don't but it's doing my head in ---------- Post added 09-11-2013 at 10:02 PM ---------- ~facedesk~ He's not even taking his anti depressants anymore! He's not taken them for 2 weeks, maybe even longer! THAT is why this is so shit, because he's stopped taking his tablets! He knows how he got last time and it doesn't help either of us |
*Huggles the Star*
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