Yeah, exactly. so I put it in my purse and zip it closed, it's only allowed to come out during breaks!
Haha, yeah - if I had a backpack, it may be safer, but I don't - as I don't really like back packs, so yeah, I'll take the long route to get there.

It really is a hard situation. Basically I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place... *sighs*
Basically I feel like I just need to turn into a mega-bitch... -.- It's the only answer. [headdesk] D:
It honestly makes me feel like screaming.

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Ok, I'm going to get going for now - I'm going to head back over to the building that my class is in, and wait there. [yes] See y'all around later.

Haha, a handful is definitely a good description for her. She just died in December. I do miss her, but I don't miss her crazy.
Hey sweety, how goes it?
I have plenty of friends that have felt that way, and they did eventually find someone. And trust me...a lot of those marriages you're seeing right now? They'll be divorces in three years. Just work on being you for now. Besides, you don't have time for a boy now anyway.

I let kitty into the house because I was worried about him out there in the cold. He is having a fun time kneading everything and purring like crazy.

Haha, way to tempting to play with it otherwise. It needs to be concealed!
That would be really uncomfortable and pretty heavy depending how much you got!

Hmm, would she listen if you brought up your feelings? It would pay to be a little assertive maybe but that can be hard.
Aww, I'm sorry. I hope everything turns out okay.

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See you later Nemo, don't fall asleep!

Look at the happy kitty. I wish he wouldn't freak out if he stayed in all night.
http://i.imgur.com/hgoMBUr.jpg

He's so fluffy!

You can hear him purr from the whole other side of the room. He's SO HAPPY. Haha.

Wait is that sarcasm? He doesn't look that happy, haha.

[hug] Awww! My grandfather passed away in April of 2008 and I still miss him like crazy.

Being me is hard, no one really seems to get me, except for online, because I Don't feel comfortable letting anyone see the real me most of the time in person, because I've always seen myself as not normal and having to hide the true me. So because of that now, and the fact that I've done that for years, I have a really hard time being myself.

Awww, kitty is cute!!

Exactly!! [yes] Oh, I used to do that - take the bus into town and have to carry like 110$ worth of food home at once. My poor arms hated me when I got home. [sweat] I don't want to have to do that again.

Oh, I doubt it. People in my life don't seem to truly care how I feel. And if I bring up my feelings I get accused of over reacting. And if I ignore it, it's that I don't care. *sighs* Or they just over look what I say, and don't even bother acknowledging it. I just feel like the only way to save myself is to build a giant wall around myself, and just hide away, forever. -.-

I'm kinda here, in class, and it doesn't start till 5:15 pm, it's 4:44 pm now, but I'm not sure how much longer I'll have my laptop out for - I had to move from the library to class. LOL. It's cold and wet outside. LOL

Haha, no, he actually is really really happy. His eyes are all closed because he was kneading the couch.

My kitty, this is an old picture, but he still does this - and he is not propped up, he is genuinely sitting up, on his own. [lol] :P
https://scontent-a-sjc.xx.fbcdn.net/..._6768258_n.jpg

Yeah, I'm down from 4 grandparents, 1 step grandmother, and 2 great grandparents to 1 grandfather (that I hate), 1 step grandmother (who is wonderful), and two great grandparents. It sucks.

How can you expect someone to love you for you if you never show them you? [glomp] I love you sweetie.
Hehe, kitty is being really cuddly. It's hard to type.

I'm down to just two grandmothers from two grandmothers and a grandfather. I never got to meet my dad's dad as Grandpa Bob passed away when dad was 11. Grandma and him were passing over train tracks on the way home from a work party at his work, and they got hit by a train and grandma survived and he didn't.

Some people know me, but my parents believed the lie of who I made myself out to be, because of my trait, that I only found out a name for, I didn't feel normal so I hid who I really was. And I still do. I rarely talk about the trait because it just upsets me because a lot of people feel like I'm making it up or making it a bigger deal than it really is (including my own parents... Up until recently it took them nearly 22 years to actually hear me and realize that I was NOT MAKING ANYTHING UP... that it was honest to god real and things are harder for me than they are for most other people because of it all). My coping mechanism of not being like everyone else was to make myself into someone I Wasn't, and that's the person I've been up until recently so letting the real me out is hard, because she's been suppressed for so long because of all of that - that's the long story short.

And I love cuddly kitties! :)

Ok, I'm going to put my laptop away, I'll see y'all later! Not sure if I'm going to my meeting after class, it depends on how tired I am. [lol]

bye bye Nemo

Awww, so cute!

Sorry I disappeared there for a second. Kitty climbed on me and demanded that I pet him. A lot.

kittys do that when they find out they have warm loving place to lay.

I dont know how people can do that, it's incredible. I'm so glad I don't have to go grocery shopping haha. Maybe someone with a car could take you?

Wow, either way it doesn't seem like a really good outcome for yourself. you could keep trying but you're probably just becoming tired of that. :( Maybe you need to find new people? They don't deserve you.

Ahh, chill times before class. Hope it's good!

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Aww happy kitty. Such simple fun haha.

WHY DO I OWN SO MANY SHOES THAT DUST AND FLUFF STICK TO.
Damn you, suede and your close relatives.

Yes, and, he's a tooootal lover bugger. He was bottle raised so he thinks that we are his parents. I think sometimes he wonders why we don't give him milk when we cuddle him.