I dunno. I've not really been cranky but in a melancholy mood. I've upped my Vitamin D in the past couple of days as I have a feeling it has to do with the changing of the seasons, so there is less sun and more cold...soon snow. I swear I suffer from SAD.

Then I kinda sat and talked with mom today about how she's thinking she's getting the boot from one of her jobs, and while she has backup work....tie that in with the fact that the police office is calling her about the evidence used in my brother's death 3 years ago, and what she wants done with that....yeah. Kinda bad timing for her. Then she's having a lot of crap go on about her flooring and having trouble getting that completed.

I've got my stuff going on too, to top it...then just worried about her. I can go into my stuff but it's pretty much same old same old.

I love you guys so much. PiM! I'm so sorry that you're sick! I hope that the pain eases soon!
llonka: Ugh, you're sick too! And the babies! I'm so sorry!
Izumi: Oh man, I hope everything is okay for your mom and for you.
Amane: I understand too. All of my kids think I'm weird and cold for my dating and children policies.

I'm invited to this really cool thing by my old dance teacher tonight. And I want to go, but it's at 8pm and I need to get a shower and go to bed at a decent hour! ARGH!

I meant to give her a call today to see how she's doing but Thursdays are horrible for me time wise as I always seem to have a full day of work, my TOPS class and then my work meeting. I get like an hour or two at most inbetween it all to relax and usually talking on the phone is the least what I want to do. :/

And ugh work is just...blah.

I totally understand phone avoidance. *hugs* I'm sure you'll call her tomorrow. And now...to bed!

I'm so sorry to hear that llonka. Obviously they died young, which is always tragic. *hugs*
I'm happy that it's Friday, so I can get some sleep tomorrow. But I'm taking my Aca Deca kids to the windmill museum at 2pm tomorrow. So not as much of a break as I'd like. But I at least have Monday's stuff planned already.

Llonka - oh hon! I'm so sorry to hear that!! :(

Fuckabuncha rumors. If they want to say and believe nasty things, that's on them. Maybe people will be just as kind to them when they pass on. One can only hope.

Rumor-mills and gossip-farmers only show the whole world that they have nothing to offer but ickiness. Sooner or later, maybe even they'll learn that, and stop being that way. I did, and it helped me more than anything.

So yeah.

*crawls off to sleep*

I don't know if I will be able to attend her funeral. I might just go to the viewing only. I have a hard time with funerals.

Edit: Just found out her funeral is Tuesday while I have class. So I'm not going to make it. Having a hard time not breaking down and crying right now..

*hugs* That's tough llonka. Especially with someone that young! I've had quite a few people I went to high school with die over the last few years. One was a sudden, unexplained death like that (the others were suicide) and it's so hard when there are no answers. Sometimes it's hard even when there are answers. I hope that you'll be okay.

That's really sad. I'm so sorry.

When someone dies here, we mourn them by celebrating them with a party. I kind of like that.

I'm sorry you've lost so many so soon, but remember it won't always be so bad. And don't feel guilty for not having done more while someone was here, because you can't change the past. Use it to change the future instead, and be the best friend you can be to the ones you've still got.

That's what I try to do.

And I don't know if anyone ever believes me when I say it, but they're not gone. You just can't see them right now. You'll see them again someday, and none of the sad stuff will matter anymore.