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Just not feelin' it!
I haven't felt "right" since I joined this site!
I've been angry and argumentative....or saturated in self-pity. I originally joined a blog site...way back before Mobamingle shut down....to have an opportunity to express myself...and to share what it's like to live in my skin. I blogged nearly every day, back then...about my adventures in homelessness, about being the parent of a 30-plus year old infant, about how beautiful the moon looked while shining on the freshly fallen snow.....and much, much more. The switch to Motion wasn't so difficult because the format was pretty simple....blog, comment, blurt, dress your avi... Toward the end of Mobion I was blogging less and less....mainly because all the fun people had already vacated and I was left with little audience. Then Mobion closed. Due to my phone being my only venue for the internet, not many other sites would work right for me....causing my phone to freeze and crash... Somebody suggested Menewsha.... I signed up...my phone didn't reject it....all seemed great! But Menewsha is enormous! ...when viewed on my little phone screen, its almost overwhelming! "Where do I post this?"...."Should I post this over here?...or over here?" "Where the heck did my post go?" Plus, I'm always afraid I'm gonna do something wrong....*emBARRassing!!* And I am SURE to piss somebody off! For lack of an alternative, I have stuck it out...assuming that I was just holding a grudge against the "different-ness" of the place.... I've made...and all but abandoned...a hangout threat, planning to use it for my daily blog outlet....but my daily life is pretty depressing and I get bitter about it....and I felt that the Mene-masses would be better off without my contributions of sadness and anger. I made a hangout thread in honor of my granddaughter...planning to share her cute antics and such... But, though she does enough interesting stuff to write a book a day,...when I log on to write, nothing striking comes to mind...Writer's Block to the highest degree! I dunno...I just kinda feel like folks already had their little "cliques" before I got here,...and I kinda feel like ignored company.... You know...like when a relative that ya don't really like all that much comes to stay with you for a week....and though OTHERS at your house might want to talk to them...but you just try to pretend that they aren't really there? I feel like that relative at Menewsha. I don't know why I don't fit in, here,...but I don't! ...At least, not right now! I'll prolly hang around to stay in touch with the 3 friends who followed me here and actually talk to me....but I won't be introducing any new threads. Even I am getting pretty tired of my own opinions.... This place is for HAPPY people!...to have FUN! Happy and fun just aren't in my repertoire, lately! Like I said earlier, I have become argumentative, here.... That is sooo not like me! I just feel like Menewsha brings that side of me out... Maybe my feelings will change after I remove the "commitment" to write something and expect it to be received well from the equation. I do believe that I won't be the only happier person for it! I bid you farewell...at least for a while! *PEACE* |
social sites Are challenging. Everything you mentioned. I've seen other posts about folks feeling awkward on this site. Yet...It's a great alternative to loneliness. Most folks don't have lots of rl pals. It's 11:15 p.m. no way I'd be out carousing, but I can safely chat to you, and you're in another state!
It's hard to find simpaticos. Blogging can be very cathartic. I stay in my pink clubhouse and prattle on. I like to read other posts, but don't respond much. Maybe I'm shy:) You can also take a hiatus. There is no obligation to blog. What might happen, tho, is you might be itching to write again. The writing process, itself, is seductive. Seeing your blog with all the perfectly, neat letters. Getting gold. Perusing the shoppes. Well, some mini peppers are calling! Good night! |
I'm sorry you aren't feeling mene
I'm on my cellie so reading your whole post right now is challenging but I wanted to let you know everyone feels awkward sometimes When I first joined in 2007 I felt very unwelcome so I left for like 3 years I got an email about the summertime boardwalk promenade event some jelly and I tried to login and finally successfully remembered my password and had a really great time at the event it was busy and I was sort of invisible and nobody really made me feel unwelcome in fact Sato and no mo made me feel really welcome and a few other of the members make me feel like I've always been here so I stuck around and I'm really happy I did so I hope you give it a chance and maybe pop back in now and again and maybe eventually down the road you'll feel welcome I haven't been around much lately or I would be bugging you all the time and hoping you feel like you said in because everybody does it in one way or another and who knows you might be the one person who help somebody else then okay so I use the audio post for this so please forgive any awful typos |
I agree with you in that Menewsha is huge, but it isn't unmanageable. There's got to more than us three old Mobion friends that you befriend while here. Anyway, you're probably just in a bad mood because of something or other. My father once told me that to make friends, show yourself friendly. Have you tried commenting on the threads of others? This can be good way of getting noticed. You can't resist being here. See you soon.
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What arguementive? I ain't seen it.
I get it that this site is very different to what we're used to. Still it is what it is. 💋❤💋❤ |
While I'd love for Menewsha to have more people on it keeping it active, it's no good if you're not having fun! Mene's meant to be a fun respite, not a chore or a place to sour your personality. So if you're not feeling it right now, by all means take a step back. Find some other sites to let your creative writings out on, and only pop back to Mene when you're really feeling it. I hope wherever you end up, you find a happier state of mind. [:)]
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I think sometimes its more a case of others not wanting to offend that keeps people on here from posting in any threads which aren't all 'happy happy joy joy,' than a case of them having no interest in the topic being posted. a side effect that comes hand in hand with being part of a small close-knit cyber-society. and holding one's tongue often allows frustrations to percolate into an unhealthy outburst, so I totally get what you mean. do what you need to do, shake off the cobwebs or whatever, and all of this will still be here when you're feeling it again. just don't be gone too long, because you will be missed.
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It could be. Me? I never offend on purpose but don't really care about people with thin skins.
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I believe our biggest problem here on Menewsha is our tunnel vision. We get to posting and don't branch out. It's also very scary to join a new thread.
For me I typically don't join a new thread unless I am invited by the thread owner to post there. Making mistakes is natural. I've seen very few users get upset over a thread in the wrong place or otherwise. If I see a thread like that, I report it and ask them to move it to the correct forum. You say Menewsha is huge. How do you mean? What makes us huge? |
Take me with you!!!!
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Dat's right, I'm happy and having fun! I deal with all that stuff on my own IRL. The Internet is where I get to keep the mood high and be cray. /not helping
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Unfortunately, I don't have a venue to "deal" with things that adversely affect me in RL....so I had thought I could share some issues and possibly seek a bit of support and empathy...but, apparently I stand corrected!
This place is for FUN!...& EVERYBODY should know how to have FUN, right?? Well...maybe OTHER people can just shake off the crappy feeling RL can overwhelm ya with every time ya go online....but it don't work that way for me! ...thus, my prolonged absence from here of late! (I wouldn't wanna bum anybody out and ruin the FUN!) *is apparently still bitter* |
Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!! & sympathy
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Izz okay....I know who my real friends are! ...and I they realize how much I appreciate them!
*((Hugs)) Capt. back* [heart]! |
When I say I deal with IRL stuff on my own, I mean literally on my own. Never talk to nobody 'bout nothin'.
Take two on that post since it wasn't quite accurate. I wanted to keep it short. Trying to keep THIS HOPEFULLY MORE ACCURATE ONE as short as possible, too… /oops that caps ran a bit long Dat's right, I'm happy and having fun! I dissociate Internet me and IRL me unless it's for entertainment. Else I wouldn't be a sparkling blue sea dweller right now. Internet me isn't problems. Internet me is a daily serving of cray. They talk about "outlets" and "venting." I don't need that. I'm a secret keeper. *grins* When I log on, IRL me disappears and Internet me gets ready to smuggle candy canes into a hole on the back of a Shetland pony. BOATS. And if anyone wants to pull out the glasses and say it's "my way of dealing with it," it's not an escapist kinda thing. Not a distraction. I just wanna entertain people when I'm online. I want to be known as the funny one, and quite known at that. If I were like this IRL, I'd be like, "I wanna be a comedian." We should abbreviate "based on a true story" as BOATS. I'm doing it. I'm starting that now. I've changed the above chunk of post. So when people go asking about IRL me, I'm like, "Why you care?" I'm Amane, your blue-haired level 100 Water element mage who's in love with McDerples and deadly horrified of bugs, and that's all that matters here too-day. Sometimes serious talkers squeeze a few things out of me, but I'm getting better at showing them I've come to test their reception to humor and see if they, too, can be my friend.~ Short post failed. D8 The intent of this post isn't to help or hurt. Just wanted to share. *closes eyes and twirls out* |
Oh, Amane. Neither me or Zane r thin skinned.
I like playing w you on here. Ummmm Zane? Whatever happened to melonhead? |
I only understood the second line of that post. You already passed. I mean, you passed before I talked to you. Aren't you a humor poster, too? Comrade?
I'm surprised Inzane—OHHH, Zane = Inzanebraned? My first post was responded to as if I was thought to be giving advice, so I was saying, I'm not giving advice. I have none. And I'm not commenting on people who serious. I'm commenting the following on serious: I don't do it. I'm surprised Inzane can't find people to serious with. It seems like they're everywhere when you're like me, as in, not looking for them. |
Amane...ya made me laugh!
We should also recall that I admitted to being a tad bitter in that post... Bitterness that is derived from my inability to feel comfortable here, and my inability to stop comparing Menewsha to previous sites I've been members of.... I am used to writing blogs about my RL...and they usually received a few comments... It was a BLOG...not intended to become a lengthy conversation....like the threads, here, are like. We got paid for blogs and we got paid for commenting on blogs. Here, I feel like I need to make sure my subject matter is "worthy" enough to expend any time writing it.... And the fact that my RL time is a basket of chaos, I don't get much free time to get the hang of the Menewshan way. Yeah...I'm a thick-skinned bytch that gets a little bitter once in a while... Capt....Melonhead seems to have vanished into a black hole in cyberspace! We used to be really close, her and I....then she had a falling out with another friend of mine, (the Zombie Twinkie gal) and it was like Mel thought I couldn't be friends with both of them or something.... I think she has a Facebook.... Turtles said she saw that Mel was living with a BOY! *gasp!* and was still working and going to school. I wish her well and hope the very best for her. [heart]! |
Have you tried Menewsha's blog option? There's the option for commenting there. Threads can be used for that sort of thing too, but work best as conversational places, where everyone has a place at the table.
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I am aware that there is a blog option, here....but, as mentioned above, ya don't get gold for posting blogs....and I feel that few(er) folks would read or comment.
It's all good....I just have a difficult time with "change!" |
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I am sorry we are different...that's the nature of a forum based site instead of a blog based site unfortunatley. If I tried to join your old site I'd probably be crazy lost and I just don't usually stick around if that happens - I quit before I even try it...so I commend you for sticking around as long as you have to give us a try :) |
Memory jar. Hmmmm, what about my bloggy post. U folks call them spam. R they OK in the memory jar too?
Or maybe u could make a spammy forum. |
Bear in mind that if Mene DID have a spammy forum, it would earn you nothin'. [;)]
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Can you give an example of the kind of bloggy post you mean?
The hangout forums are pretty lax. If you make yourself a hangout thread there, it's kosher to post non sequiturs to kickstart a convo, within reason. |
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