Mystic's Collection of Poems
 

I just thought I’d post some of my poetry to see what people thought of it. ^^

All that remains
Take a step back and look at yourself
The mirror’s reflection is unknown
Slivers of glass reflect what once was
As your shattered reflection stares back

Everywhere you look there’s a reflection
Reflections of an innocent faded smile
With your back turned, you walk away
Giggles of a child haunting your dreams

Illusions of a happy home reflect in her eyes
The child’s playful giggles replace her words
As she fades into the back of your mind
You remember this is what you chose

The Spider
She meticulously spins her web of lies
Her fingers softly manipulate the strands of silk
Binding me to her side, making me aware of her deception
She attempts to cut the strands that make her movements known
But she only tangles herself up in her own web of deceit

A Song To Jane
“This is who I am now” you said to me
What happened to the one I used to know?
“I never want to go back” you said without another word
What made you change your mind so quickly?
We had a deal, both you and I
One that we swore never to break

You were never one to say you’re sorry
Never one to admit your mistakes
So I’ll leave you here with this song
And I’ll never look back on this
Or regret the mistakes I’ve made with you
And I’ll leave them all behind in this song to Jane

Honey And Talc
Your kisses were as sweet as honey
Now they’ve become bitter as talc
And I can’t stand to hear your voice
Even though I already know the truth

Your sweet honey kisses turned bitter
Dry and bitter every time out lips meet
And I can’t stand to look at you anymore
I don’t want to hear those words of treason
But I know that you can’t keep them to yourself

Have you become that emotionless?
To let it escape through your lips?
Every time our lips meet you get colder
More distant and bitter with every kiss
Just don’t let me know that this is the end

I need to hear the truth, but don’t want to
We can’t go on lying to each other, we can’t
Just let go
Let go
Let me go

Gift
I can make even the toughest men weak
Yet I am something that they seek
I am refreshing if newly found
Yet I can make you assylum bound

I show up with least expected
I never act as directed
I can not be controlled
I am not something to be culled

I am feared by many people
Yet needed by those same people
I am a gift from up above
The greatest gift of all, love

Remember Me
As I sit on the door step watching you walk by
I think of all the time we spent together
Those nights when we were both at our best
Those nights when we were both at our worst
We would always end up in each other's arms in the end

Do you still remember me after all these years?
I just want to forget all the pain that you've caused me
I've become numb to everything that's been said
Even though I should move on, I just can't forget
And I hope you remember me like I do you

I still remember those soft words you'd whisper to me
"I'll be with you forever" you'd always say
All those soft spoken words were nothing but lies
And I still remember everything you ever said
Now I just wish I could hate you for everything you've done

Pretty Dancer
Pretty dancer walks out of the hot spotlights on the stage
As she sits on the ground backstage and begins to cry
But in front of her audience she never let a tear fall
Even though all she wanted was to die

She never told anyone the truth about how she really felt
How much she hurt inside and how she always put on a happy mask
Hiding her frown behind fake giggles and a forced smile
And no one ever questioned it, no one ever would ask

Pretty dancer dances her merry dance across the stage
As her audience sits and watches her perform her dance
Never knowing the truth behind her dance steps
And why she never let them past her barriers

Paint Me a Picture
Paint me a picture of how you grew up
Show me why you don’t trust
Paint me a picture of how you grew up
And what happened to make you distrust

Show me a time when you were happy
When you didn’t have a single care
Paint me a picture of how you grew up
Tell me a story of those happy times

Bring the colors of your memories back
Make them vivid once again, if only for me
Paint me a picture of how you grew up
And what happened to make you distrust

Show me a time when you were happy
When you didn’t have a single care
Paint me a picture of how you grew up
Tell me a story of those happy times

As We Lay Dying
You were the one that held onto so much hate
You were the one that needed control
Control of who I was and what I felt
But you could never gain that
And it made you even harder to deal with

It was something that neither of us could live with
So we both died tonight, in each other’s arms
Never really knowing why we had to live like this
In a false net of security that was bound to break a part
With each and every hit that we each took

As we lay dying we drift further from where we were
Never gaining truth behind all those hidden lies
Never knowing what words were left unsaid
Never knowing what actions were left undone
Never living again as we lay dying tonight

Somber
You said you would always love me
But now you say you can’t stand me
That I’m nothing more than another girl
That all this never meant a thing to you

There’s too many problems to be resolved
Things that were never meant to be solved
Solutions that were never meant to be
But I still try to hold onto what’s left

It’s always been all about you
It was never ever for me
It was never about what I wanted
It was never about what I needed

@ Marron:
Thanks very much. I try to write as much as I can. I’m going to try to post as many as I have done so far. I plan to keep writing. Again, thanks for your imput!

Last post for now.

Never Say Goodbye
I was never looking for someone like you
But I’m glad I found you
I was never looking for something like this
But I’m glad I found it
And I’ve grown to need you more than anything
And I’m glad for that
Can’t live a day without a thought of you
And I’m glad I need you

Can’t let go of this feeling I’ve found
And I know you feel the same
Don’t ever want to leave your side
And I know you think the same
Just want to lay next to you
And I know you feel the same

Don’t wanna say goodbye
Don’t wanna let this go
Never say goodbye
Never let me go
Never let me go
Never say goodbye
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The last thing I have to post were supposed to be song lyrics, but I never finished the song.
Outside the Lines
I did everything to make sure that you were happy
But it’s hard to forget those things you did
And I’d still give up everything for you (for you)
All that matters to me is your happiness
Even if that means I’m miserable

I need you tonight, but know you can’t be here (You were never there)
I don’t hate you, I just can’t love you anymore
Wasn’t it you that wanted it this way (It’s how you planned it)
I hate the way you destroyed my defenses (And left me helpless)
And left me so damn unprotected (So defenseless)

And now I can’t forget all those things you’ve said to me
I can’t forget about the pain that you caused (How you’ve hurt me)
How could you say things like that so freely (You didn’t care)
How could I let you hurt me so deeply (So deep)
And I still care more than anything else (I still love you)

I need you tonight, but know you can’t be here (You were never there)
I don’t hate you, I just can’t love you anymore
Wasn’t it you that wanted it this way (It’s how you planned it)
I hate the way you destroyed my defenses (And left me helpless)


Unprotected and defenseless (So defenseless)
Unprotected and defenseless (I hate you for this)
Unprotected and helpless (So dependant)

Another few poems! ^^

Crime and Punishment
You left me alone, that's just to say the least
Bound me to this life, this world, to you
So stop pretending you gave a damn
Let me hear it from you, come on, just say it
Shoot me down and drag me through the dust
It's not like you haven't done it before now

You're always so comfortless and troublesome
And I'm so foolish and moronic
For even thinking of staying with you
I fail to comprehend why you do those things
That's exactly how you want me to think

This love is unavailing and colorless
This is not the way things should be
Just let me go and leave me to die alone
Can't you see that I'm miserable

Close
You’re so close yet so far away
Can’t feel you near me anymore
Even though you’re right next to me
It feels like you’re gone

Tell me that it’s all in my head
Tell me that this isn’t the end
You’re all that I’ve got
You’re all that I need

And something tells me it’s not right
What’s happened to the one I used to know?
Was there something that I missed?
Something more that you needed?

I need to know what’s going on
I just need to know how you feel
And I just want you to be happy
Even if it’s without me

Behind
Everyday I think about you
But you don’t think of me
And I think of what could have been
How nothing’s how it was
I need to know just where we stand
And how you really feel
Can’t stand the thought of leaving
But you give me no choice

I know that game you play
I am not that naive
Can’t you see how you hurt me?
Don’t you know how much I do care?
Or don’t you even give a damn?
You only think of yourself
You never think of me
This childish game has to stop

I won’t put up with it no more
I won’t sit back and watch
I am leaving you behind now
I can’t stand the sight of you
I will not stand for this abuse
I will not wait for you
No more of these childish games
I will not stand for it

How could you betray me
After all we’ve been through
Too many times did I care
When I shouldn’t have gave a damn
And I gave a damn about you
When I shouldn’t care at all
Maybe I’m just foolish
Hoping one day you will change

I know that game you play
I am not that naive
Can’t you see how you hurt me?
Don’t you know how much I do care?
Or don’t you even give a damn?
You only think of yourself
You never think of me
This childish game has to stop

Tired of all your fucking lies
Don’t need this shit no more
I can’t take this pain any more
I don’t want to hear your lies
I don’t want to feel unwanted
Don’t want to hurt no more
But you keep on hurting me
Don’t need you any more

I’m leaving you behind
Forgetting all your lies
Disregarding promises
The promises you once made me
Leaving behind the hurtful lies
You’re behind me, in my past
I hate you, go to hell
Nothing you say can change that

I know that game you play
I am not that naive
Can’t you see how you hurt me?
Don’t you know how much I do care?
Or don’t you even give a damn?
You only think of yourself
You never think of me
This childish game has to stop

No more Apologies
No more of your damn lies
No more of my heart breaking
This childish game has got to stop
No more of you holding me back
Now I’m leaving you behind
I will not be your fool
I will not play that role

This childish game has to stop
It has to stop
It has to stop

Always
Ever since I met you I know that I needed you
Nothing could ever keep me from you
And I felt invulnerable
As long as you were around

Don’t ever wanna leave you
Don’t ever wanna let you down
Never wanna break your heart
Just wanna be yours, always

Just wanna be with you, always
Just wanna hold you, always
Just want you to let me in
And let me love you, always

No matter what they say or do I’ll be here, always
Nothing can change my mind about you
Just wanna hold you tight and always love you
I just wanna be with you and hold you, always

I always wanna touch you
I always wanna feel you
And always fall asleep
Next to you every night

Don’t ever wanna leave you
Don’t ever wanna let you down
Never wanna break your heart
Wanna be yours, always

Just wanna be with you, always
Just wanna hold you, always
Just want you to let me in
And let me love you, always

I wanna be with you
Don’t wanna say goodbye
Don’t wanna let you go
Don’t wanna see you cry

I wanna be with you, always

This is a collection of Haikus that I did a while ago. I know they’re not too good, but I still want to know what people think of them.

"The Lovers"
Walking hand in hand
An arrow shot through my heart
Glad to be with you

"Tranquil Escape"
Gulls laughing near by
Water lapping at the shore
Light slowly fading

"Dusk"
Deer run in the field
Wind lightly blowing the leaves
Light fades into dark

"Rushing Water"
Laughing streams near by
Logs fallen in the water
Water rushing by

"Snow Kissed"
White blankets the ground
Snow lays in piles undisturbed
Tree branches bow low

These are some untitled poems that I had laying around. These pretty much are poems that I think are okay, but are more of free writing than anything I guess you could say.

Untitled One
Do I breathe
Do I die
Do I let you in
Do I push you away
How do I act when you're always so difficult
How do I know how you really feel

I want to be able to let you get close to me
But how can I when you don't know what you want
Always pushing me away for your own selfish reasons
Scared to let anybody too close to you
Too scared to trust anyone with your heart again
Scared to be hurt by this game of love

Holding your breath, you start to turn pale blue
As you wait for the emotional crash you know is coming
But nothing comes as you expect it, everything's okay
One thing leads right into another, getting better as you go
And I promise you that everything will always be this way
Yet you still shield yourself from me and wait for the downfall

Untitled Two
I’ll take every word you say and turn them against you
Don’t forget the promises you made to me, my sweet
I’ll never let you forget the pain that you’ve caused me
Even after all these years your voice echoes in my mind
I’ll be sure never to let you go for as long as we live

You’ve pushed me to the edge so many times before
And now I’ve hit the bottom of an endless pit
I won’t stay here alone, I’ll drag you down with me
You’ll never be able to get very far from me

These are some pretty old poems.

What Makes It Right?
How could you look me in the eyes
And tell me you love me
When all you do is treat me bad
Why is it when I call your name
You’re never there
Yet I still stay around
Missing you, loving you

Baby tell me what’s gotten into you
That makes you do what you do
Tell me what makes it right
When it’s so clearly wrong
All my strength’s gone and I need to know
Why you do what you do
Why you choose to sleep with her
When I need you so, want you so

Often times I stay up and wait
For you to come thru
Yet you don’t come, baby
And I’m left waiting like a fool
I need love to make me strong
Yet love is what makes me weak
I know your game, but I still want you so

Baby tell me what’s gotten into you
That makes you do what you do
Tell me what makes it right
When it’s clearly wrong
All my strength’s gone and I need to know
Why you do what you do
Why you choose to sleep with her
When I need you so, want you so

If
If I could hold you now, I would
If I could love you forever, I would
If I could only wake up where you are
I would never let you go

And if I could cause you one ounce of pain
In exchange for the tears I’ve cried
Maybe then all this suffering will be worth it in the end
And maybe I could make you mine again

For many endless nights I’ve cried
Waiting for you to come back
But all you did was play that game
A game that I caught on to

And now I wonder if all that
Was worth it in the end
Even though you did me wrong
I still want to make it right

Maybe it’s foolish of me
To think that you’ll ever change
But I still need you here
Even if you don’t need me

And I know that it’s unrealistic
To think that you could love me
And only have me with you
No more playing games

Thinking about this right now
I’ve come to realize
I don’t need you any more
I don’t need to cry no more

You’ve wronged me and now I see
That you’ll never change, not ever
I’m through with you and that’s the end
To this chapter I’ve played in your book

No more will I be waiting for you
No matter how many times
You say you’d change, you say you’d quit
Running out on me

I can see now I’m better off
Without you clouding my judgment
I’m not that foolish any more
I won’t take your lies no more

I know I've hurt you before
And I just want to say I'm sorry
Should have never said those things
When I didn't mean any of it

Apologies
I never was that good at lying
You always knew when I was
I could never hide those things from you
I never meant to hurt you
Can we start this all over for real

Let's go back to the way things were
But I know it will never be the same
And those scars that I left behind
May never disappear

Someone Like You
Something inside of me changed
Changed my heart of stone
Into something that feels warmth
Something that feels pain

Never thought that I’d feel this way
Never thought I’d meet
Someone that could change me so
Change me into something else
Something better than what I was

You’ve shown me how to love again
You’ve shown me what it is to live
Shown me what it is to love
And to be loved by someone

Never thought it could be true
That I could find someone like you
Someone to share my hopes and dreams
Someone to have by my side

Ensnared
Hide behind your mask
You wear it all too well
Deluding the truth with all your lies
Your web of lies weaves through my soul
Ensnaring my soul and capturing my life
Like a spider catcher her prey

I won’t stay trapped in your web
Waiting to be devoured by your lies
As the spindles of your web break
I spread my wings and fly far away
Somewhere where light exists
Away from the darkness that once held me down

Even though I’m free the wounds still remain
Although you think I’m healing
I’m picking the wounds a part as I lay here
Tattered and torn because of you
Worn and broken because of you

All That’s Left
We could both live together or live far apart
Just don’t forget what you feel in your heart
See, the moments slowly pass into hours
As I stare at the clock
Waiting for a call from the one I need most
No call ever comes and I’m left like fool

Can’t you see what you’ve done to me
Say that you do care
Tell me you do care
Just don’t say the words that I fear the most
Say that you do care
Tell me you do care

Selfish intentions and broken promises
Are all that left now
All we live off
Nothing you say could ever change that
And we slowly drift further apart
So come say the answer
Just say those three words
Say you do care
Tell me you do care

Can’t you see what you’ve done to me
Say that you do care
Tell me you do care
Just don’t say the words that I fear the most
Say that you do care
Tell me you do care

Faithless
Looking through old photographs
Wondering if love really exists
I recall the days when you were here
When you just stayed by my side
What did I do wrong to make you cheat?
What have I ever done to you, boy?
No use in lying again
When I know the truth behind your lies

I always knew it would come down to this (It’s down to the end)
I didn’t expect it to be this soon (Too soon to be real)
I should have told you off right away
Should have never even let you in (Never should have let you too close)
So close, so close (I let you in too close) that I could feel you here
And you broke my heart with your words, your words

I sit and burn these pictures
A false illusion of what we were (We appeared so happy)
Watching images fade in the flames
The smiling faces turn black (Just like our past)
As I sit and wait for you to come
To come back to this big empty house
I won’t be here any more (I won’t be there)
Who do you think you are, doing this?

I always knew it would come down to this (It’s down to the end)
I didn’t expect it to be this soon (Too soon to be real)
I should have told you off right away
Should have never even let you in (Never should have let you too close)
So close, so close (I let you in too close) that I could feel you here
And you broke my heart with your words, your words

Loosing Grip
Feeling the darkness in my soul
Taking over, breaking me down
I fall into the shadows
As the rope around my neck tightens
Feeling the darkness taking me over
Leaving nothing where light once was

Sitting here in this darkened room
Darkness engulfing my soul
I’m loosing grip as I slip into nothing
Shadows falling on my face
As life finds its way back to me
Stabbing me in the back
Finding its way of using me for play

Wake me up, I want to wake up
Save me from the darkness
Be the light to chase away the dark
Wake me up, I want to wake up
Free my soul, free my mind
‘Coz I’m loosing grip and need to hold on

The wake of darkness is too much to bare
Darkness too much to hold in
Feeling the need to scream
But not finding my voice
I fall to the ground as the rope tightens further
Cutting off my air supply
I’m suffocating in my own wake

Wake me up, I want to wake up
Save me from the darkness
Be the light to chase away the dark
Wake me up, I want to wake up
Free my soul, free my mind
‘Coz I’m loosing grip and I need to hang on

Wake me up, hold me close
I’m loosing grip, slipping away
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Free my soul, free my mind
Chase away the darkness

Let Me Be The One
I'd do anything, just to be with you
I'd do anything, just to hold you

I'd do anything to know you're okay
Making sure of that myself
I'd do anything just to see you smile

Let me be the one who you wake up with
Let me be the one to love you
Let me be the one you trust
Let me be the one you long for
And I'll be the one who's always there
I'll be the one who loves you
I'll be the one who cares

Let me hold your hand when you're scared
Let me be your strength when yours fails
Let me be your hope when you have none
Let me love you, hold you tight
Let me be the one
Let me be the one

Behind
Everyday I think about you
But you don’t think of me
And I think of what could have been
How nothing’s how it was
I need to know just where we stand
And how you really feel
Can’t stand the thought of leaving
But you give me no choice

I know that game you play
I am not that naive
Can’t you see how you hurt me?
Don’t you know how much I do care?
Or don’t you even give a damn?
You only think of yourself
You never think of me
This childish game has to stop

I won’t put up with it no more
I won’t sit back and watch
I am leaving you behind now
I can’t stand the sight of you
I will not stand for this abuse
I will not wait for you
No more of these childish games
I will not stand for it

How could you betray me
After all we’ve been through
Too many times did I care
When I shouldn’t have gave a damn
And I gave a damn about you
When I shouldn’t care at all
Maybe I’m just foolish
Hoping one day you will change

I know that game you play
I am not that naive
Can’t you see how you hurt me?
Don’t you know how much I do care?
Or don’t you even give a damn?
You only think of yourself
You never think of me
This childish game has to stop

Tired of all your fucking lies
Don’t need this shit no more
I can’t take this pain any more
I don’t want to hear your lies
I don’t want to feel unwanted
Don’t want to hurt no more
But you keep on hurting me
Don’t need you any more

I’m leaving you behind
Forgetting all your lies
Disregarding promises
The promises you once made me
Leaving behind the hurtful lies
You’re behind me, in my past
I hate you, go to hell
Nothing you say can change that

I know that game you play
I am not that naive
Can’t you see how you hurt me?
Don’t you know how much I do care?
Or don’t you even give a damn?
You only think of yourself
You never think of me
This childish game has to stop

No more Apologies
No more of your damn lies
No more of my heart breaking
This childish game has got to stop
No more of you holding me back
Now I’m leaving you behind
I will not be your fool
I will not play that role

This childish game has to stop
It has to stop
It has to stop

Toxic Kiss
Slowly I slip my arms around you
As I take in the scent of you
Soft and alluring with every breath
Filtering through me as I hold you
Taking me over, driving me wild

As you press your sweet lips against mine
Something begins taking me over, boy
The taste of your skin is toxic
The feel of your body is poisonous
But I can't let go, got a hold on me

Come with me to a darkened room now
Can't resist the urge, gotta take you
I can tell by the way you move
That you want me like I want you
With the taste of a toxic kiss

You'll be giving me all you have now
Taking me places I ain't been before
That taste of your kiss is toxic
But know that I have the remedy
To the sweet poison you are giving me

As you press your sweet lips against mine
Something begins taking me over, boy
The taste of your skin is toxic
The feel of your body is poisonous
But I can't let go, got a hold on me

No More
Thinking that you can play that game
Leading me on without no shame
I know you be cheatin'
With some other lady

Now boy do not try to deny
I seen you with my own two eyes
I seen you out back
Holding her in your arms

I ain't no trick to play
I caught onto your game
No more waiting, no more crying
No more games you play, you gotta know

I called your phone and got no response
I sat around too much for you
Let myself be a fool
Now I know better, boy

No more will I take your shit
I know I'm stronger than that now
Come pick up your things
Can't wait around no more

So stop callin' me
Stop begging me to stay
I was weak then, now I'm stronger
And now I figured out your game

I have come to realize that
All I need is myself to love
No one to tie me down
No more of your damn lies

I've come to realize
That me, myself and I
Is all I need and all I want
And all I need to be happy

In the end
In your eyes I was nothing more than a friend
I was never jealous of her, I didn’t need to be
Even though you always said you loved her
I knew you’d come back to me in the end

You hated me for saying all those things
Those things that she would do at night
Things that she would try to hide from you
Even though you knew deep down that I was right

She never loved you nearly half as much as me
But you never gave me a second glance
Even though I was always by your side
And in the end I was the one you came back to

Keep on Smiling
God I wish I could hate you for what you’ve done
After all the shit you put me through
And all those lies that you fed me
But I just can’t hate you, I still love you

I don’t want to see that smile fade
Even of you don’t smile for me
So keep on smiling for her, just for her
I hope you keep on smiling, I hope you’re happy

You’ve caused me so much pain, but I can’t hate you
You run back to her with open arms
And it tears me apart to know that
I hope you’re happy, just keep smiling for her

It's been a long time since I updated here so I figure I might as well add something. This one is unfinished for now. I may fix it sometime in the future.

Isolation is the only way to be happy
Every year on the last day in March
You would sit on the front porch thinking about your life
Whether it’s better to continue on or die
Endure this life or just stop everything right here and now

The cycle just repeats itself through the years
Time and time again you never found the answer
Just one more time you looked beyond the horizon
Into a sunset filled with debris and dust

It never mattered much anyway what she said
Whether she thought you were relevant to her or just a passing phase
For all you cared she could loiter in your life forever and she would never mean a thing to you
Not after all these years, this numb feeling runs through your body
And brings with it detachment and insensitivity

This is another one that's not done yet that needs a lot of work.

SymPATHETIC apologies fall short of reason
It must have been nice to sit there with a smirk on your face as I writhed in pain at the foot of your bed
Tell me, does it make you feel more like a man to watch innocence die slowly, crushed in your hand
It was never enough to say 'I love you'
No it was never enough to leave the lights on at night
Just remember that I was the best thing you ever had

Old memories placed aside and left behind in faded photographs never meant that much to you
Those times when we laid together, your hand in mine as we fell asleep never meant that much to you
It was never enough just to say 'I do'
There was always a hidden motive behind romantic jesters
And I would always fall into that same cliché mode

After all is said and done, remember what it was like to keep our hands intertwined at night
The way our bodies kept each other warm on those long cold nights, it was never enough
Just remember I was the best you ever had
And I won't say I'm sorry it all came, crashing down in the end
Keep this as a lesson learned the hard way

- reserved -

.reserved.

-reserved-

Life goes on
bob is a faun
Life goes on
you silly litte faun