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Just another eating disorder..
Hello. I'm not sure if this topic has been done before, if it has post link & lock, but anyways:
I'm 13 yrs old. I am 5"7 and weight 124 pounds - last time I checked. I've been on a good diet lately and I excersize for over 3 hours a day. Sometimes, even 5. I lost alot of weight but recently I've been cheating my diet, and my working out. I've already gained 2 pounds and all I can think of is eating more and more. Even when I'm really full, after Ive eaten, I keep thinking of how delicious food is and how I need it.. Then I heard of Bulemia. I read: 'Bulemia is when you make yourself throw up after youve eaten a large portion of food. Throw up and in a week you've had lost 5 pounds already! Its good for losing weight.' Now of course, being the educated person I am, I know Bulimia ISN'T Healthy nor a good way to lose weight. But I was wondering, what If I threw up only this ONE time? As in..ONLY when Ive eaten a huge amount of food. I KNOW for SURE I'd never be the one who'd get adddicted to throwing up, I just wouldn't. I love my family too much do to this to them, but what if? I'm scared..I want to lose the weight so badly, I'm becoming bigger and bigger each day! I know the acid from my tummy will burn my esophogus - which is why I only Plan on doing to once. But will once be enough to kill me?! HELP. T_T |
I think you should ask to move this to life issues, I'm sure the people there can help you there alot more. I havent been in that situation, I'm sorry, I don't know how to help.
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Don't resort to throwing up. That won't feel rewarding at all. Just keep exercising and try to find foods that you enjoy. You may say you won't get addicted to throwing up, but you never know what could happen. |
I dont want to resort to throwing up, but I feel like I have no other option at this point. I know for SURE I won't be an addict, my relationship with my dad is too strong, it overpowers any disorder.
Edit: I geuss what I'm saying is, I'm scared if throwing up ONCE will harm me in ways like fainting, yellow teeth, burning throat, DEATH, or being sent to the hospital. I've asked some people and they said ONCE wont kill you, but I'm just a bit nervous.. Edit 2: Moving it to Life Issues would be a good idea, if I remember how to get it to move. :/ |
There are other options. It's not 'normal' to do that and many other people have lost a ton of weight without throwing up. I'd say that you need to keep yourself occupied so you don't think about food all the time. It's up to you to be a strong person and if you're close to your dad, he should support you and try to help you lose weight in a healthy way. |
doing it once wont hurt you really. Sometimes if I take a medicine and forget to check how it reacts with others I will make myself throw up for safety reasons.
Sometimes if I eat too much and feel sick I will throw up but not because of weight issues. Its not a good thing to do but you seem to be at a fine weight and there is no reason for you too be too concerned. (I'm 5'7" and almost 160 very curvy) Just work on moderation and drinking less pop and eating less sweets. :) thats what I have been trying lately and have lost a lot of weight. Throwing up isn't a good choice and if you think you are really gunna start relying on it talk to someone in your family and get help before it becomes an eating disorder. |
Yeah.
I know I can loose weight without throwing up, I lost 15 pounds over the summer by eating good and excersize, but as I said, I feel like I'm at the point of no return. T3T A few weeks ago when I was still eating well, I noticed myself getting bigger for no reason! Also, Ive missed my period for 3 months!!!! So I feel like taking a break from it all and just one iddy bitty throw up. D: My dad doesn't know about my want to throw up yet. Edit: Thanks. I know I'm at a pretty good weight, its just I'm trying to loose a bit of tummy fat for my swimming (Im on a swim team) And I feel so embaressed in a swim suit compared to all the other skinny girls.. I wont rely on it, I'd only do it once in a blue moon. :3 BTW I never drink pop. :3 Only water. Its the Peanut Butter and Chocolate that gets me. T-T Srsly, I take a spoon and eat a few scoops of peanut butter right out of the jar. T^T |
If you're that scared, it's obvious that your common sense is telling you not to do it. Don't be so obsessed with your weight. It's not healthy and you'll only be making yourself unhappy.
I think you should talk to your family about it though. Even though it's hard. |
haven't you ever gotten a flu?
You throw up all the time when you become sick. How would it be any different? I don't think It would hurt you at all. I don't thik you should be throwing up food. also, I don't think you have to loose weight... you was your 13, 5'7" and 124 pounds? Well, I'm 14, 5'6" and 133 pounds. Not to brag, But I am one of the more " anistheticaly pleasing" girls in my shool ( of 450 jr. high students) But, It is good to exersize and eat right. I said EAT RIGHT. not diet. Less isnt always better. you should not be working out every day, 5 days a week is best, you you could sustain injuries. ( shinsplints, arteritis- thats right they say working out HELPS arteritis, but.... too much of a good thing, you know?) just, be safe =D |
My common sense is telling me I'm CRAZY for thinking about throwing up, yet something keeps telling me:
"You FATTY! Look at all the other girls on your swim team! Do you think THEY scarf down all that junk food?!" And at this momment, that voice is over powering my common sense.. I'm WAY too scared to tell my dad. He loves me too much, he even said if that I were ever to develop an eating disorder he'd get soo mad and send me to a therapist and a doctor. ): Edit: Yes, Ive gotten the flu many times. I geuss its no different from then. That releaves me. At first I thought 'Oh, 1 or 2 days of just relaxing and eating wont hurt..' But I was wrong. Apperantly, I have a very slow metabolism, and anything I eat goes straight to my stomach. I can maintain a good weight, but for some reason my tummy keeps getting bigger. D< Eek! Arthritis! Yuck. ;3; |
Drink lots of water and become a vegitarian? It worked for me... I've lost alot of weight since becoming a vegitarian. Sure, it's hard for the first month or so, but then you discover lots of good soy and veggie-based foods. |
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'O' You wont get your period if you do not have enough body fat, this is VERY unhealthy, I take back my prevous post, I think you should see a doctor for help, Wanting to feel good about yourself is perfectly fine, Having a problem Like not having your period for 3 monthes, is not. please, don't hurt yourself by this. |
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Ya know what thou, hed be madder if you really hurt yourself by throwing up like that. Its really unhealthy and as mean as it may sound a lot of it is probably in your head. I understand what its like (I'm pretty heavy and really hate how I look) but some people just don't have a dream body. It sucks but its how it is :/ if you are old enough you can go confidentially if you have insurance. |
You're concerned about cheating on your diet, right? Maybe you should keep a food diary and write down what you eat and the calories and such. It might help. Helped me eat less. But don't sink to bulemia or anything like that. Throwing up is just NOT FUN.
And since you're just 13, maybe you should talk to a doctor about your diet? I know from my diet that the first 10 pounds went fast, but after that its a slow push. |
All I drink is water. :3
Haha. I WISH I could become a Vegetarian. My parents would never allow me. 1. They believe I NEED meat at this age, to develop. 2. They eat meat so for dinner they always make meat and would never make me a customized dinner. 3. Meat is so tastey. ;3; Edit: My dad says wait until the end of the month, and If I still haven't gotten my period, he'll take me to a doctor. ): Some times I think I look really good, but thats when I see these obese 100 pound over-weight girls think that they're skinny too (And I'm not saying they look bad because of it, I'm just trying to prove a point here.) And when I see them acting like that, I wonder to myself, 'Could I be like that? Am I fat and only THINK I'm thin..?!' I can see what you mean. Those 15 pounds went so fast..now I'm not burning off anything.. I won't sink to Bulimia, I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore. It feels like everything is telling me to throw up just once. I turn to the TV - theres a show talking about a hot bulimic girl, I look to my desk and theres a skinny twig model, I turn to the internet I see AD's on Bulimia and More Damn Models. D< |
hehe, I'm so torn is this, I really support your working out, and your want for weight loss ( as long as it doesnt become a problem) but not haveing your period is very serious. You really, REALLY should look up on that. I don't want you getting hurt. D=<
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Um...I heard that if you go on one of those extreme diets, like not eating for a month or so..when you get off the diet, you end up eating more from hunger..so i suggest going against that.
Also, gaining two pounds isn't a lot. I heard from my Health and Safety teacher that most of the pounds we gain is from water weight. Another thing I learned is that the more fat you have, the more hormones that makes you hungry.... The best way to lose weight, is to gradually eat a little less everyday, that way, your body will get used to it. And DON'T become a bulimic. I'm not sure if you can become addicted to throwing up, but I think that if you start, your body will adjust so that it rejects everything you eat. There are tons of down sides to being bulimic. I think that throwing up too much will make your teeth rot and do something to your lungs. So, just accept the way you are. Exercise a bit more per day and eat a little less until you are satisfied with your weight. Don't become anorexic or bulimic: those are two nasty eating disorders. |
You are not going to lose any weight by binge eating or vomiting a single time. Why not see a doctor and talk to them about a healthy weight loss program? Get your family involved too, and make it a positive goal to maintain a healthy figure.
Honestly, the people you are comparing yourself to probably have plenty of body insecurities. I'm really skinny, and I've been trying for ages to gain weight. No dice. Sometimes you just have to accept what you are and learn to love it (someday, I will like being scrawny. Someday.) |
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And I know my parents aren't the only ones like this |
It sounds to me like you may have the beginnings an eating disorder already.
Why do you exercise for 3 hours a day? A person wouldn't even consider making themselves throw up, not even once, unless they already had an unhealthy body image. Especially someone at your height and weight, you sound very skinny as it is. I was bulimic for many years, and I started the same way you're talking about. "I'll throw up just this once." It's something I still struggle with, 5 years later. Please don't do it. |
Thats good advice, but some people, can't go to their parents with stuff like this, I mean for me, not only would it be very awkward to tell my 'rents something like this, I would also get in trouble, not for trying to loose weight, and not for exersizing/ dieting... I'm not even sure what I got in trouble for... but, I got in trouble.
And I know my parents aren't the only ones like this[/quote] I know, parents are awkward, but they do care about you, and can be a big support. However, having a friend or someone else to help you would be good too; it's really hard to deal with an eating disorder, and having help is important. |
Thank you everyone
Bringing this to my parents is totally out of the picture. I just can't. Everyday I wake up and promise myself "Okay Danielle, you're NOT going to binge uncontrolably on junk food today. Instead you'll eat veggies, fruits, and water!" But I never keep the promise! D: Aside from all the skinniness around me, theres also a guy I like and well- thats beside the point I wont get into that. I have to try to stay strong and not throw up. I doubt a doctor will make a difference. To me, they'll just say 'You're fine, eat healthy, be courageous' But ANYONE can tell me that, I know that I'm 'fine' and that I should 'eat healthy'! |
I just read your other comments in this thread. Not getting your period for three months means you're dangerously underweight, and feeling like voices are yelling at you to be skinny is a definite sign of a disorder. Please seek help. No one should have to feel like that, I did for years and it was hell. You can beat it. :(
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Thank you everyone
Bringing this to my parents is totally out of the picture. I just can't. Everyday I wake up and promise myself "Okay Danielle, you're NOT going to binge uncontrolably on junk food today. Instead you'll eat veggies, fruits, and water!" But I never keep the promise! D: Aside from all the skinniness around me, theres also a guy I like and well- thats beside the point I wont get into that. I have to try to stay strong and not throw up. I doubt a doctor will make a difference. To me, they'll just say 'You're fine, eat healthy, be courageous' But ANYONE can tell me that, I know that I'm 'fine' and that I should 'eat healthy'![/quote] I dont care what the doctor thinks about your weight. It only matters what you think You don't have to go to a doctor, Just, maybe google some stuff about the "imma no has my period" thing. you should really know more about it. |
Thank you. I know not getting my period is a dangerous sign.
But its not just me who sees myself as a bit chunky. I get comments from people all the time saying "Yeah, you could loose a few more pounds" or "Yeah, your tummy does have a bit of a pot shape to it.." Besides. I doubt I could ever be bulimic. Yesterday I tryed to throw up, but I couldn't. As many times as I stuck my hand, or toothebrush down my throat, punching my stomach in, I wouldn't throw up, which made me seem a bit safe- but also like a terrible failure. Even with the slight happiness I got from knowing I was still safe, I felt lost and finished. ); I'll go google it now (my period) and post the reason after. :3 Edit: I googled it. I found 3 results. Pregnancy, Stress, or PCOS (Polycycstic Ovary Syndrome). I can't be pregnant. I'm only 13 and I have never been active and wont be for another 20 years! I HAVE been under quite alot of stress, and it seems that stress is a big cause to why some girls miss periods. I didn't seem to fit any fo the symptoms to PCOS so I sort of doubt I have that.. :/ |
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