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the food

the food goes down
as each time
it is a problem
I no longer want to eat
I don't want to do anything
sitting here
I want to just be here
The blue staff
How I would love to let the juices grow
a blue staff
with black core
a loop
a hook
and to a lantern
the lanterned should be lit
and shining
and then again
it shows the way
through the darkness
It is then I want the go away
and just walk through the darkness
no spirits
no ghosts
and then
just to find a tree
a white tree
the purity showing
so that once again
I can be wrapped
by the arms of white
so I can be held
by a guardian again

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sword

a sword
it's grip
it wraps around me, as my fingers wrap the hilt
each one, able to control it
just the slight movement
it causes me to want to just keep it in my hand
as an extension of my arm
it makes me feel powerful
as if empowered by the sword
I feel the power
the strength of my character
showing my own power
showing me my strength
that has always coarse through my veins

Someone shows
my hatred for him
and now with my strength
I think about charging
but I try not to
and then he approaches
as if trying to get hurt
i withstand all my issues
and let it go
but I choose to not
and not kill him at all.

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running up stairs is not normal Liz. It is bad, It is going to get you killed. You need to understand that it will kill you. it is going to hurt you if he continues to let you hurt your body continuously, it is nothing but a harmful event. You won't let your body heal, it is very very annoying. So please let yourself get healed.

Your mind won't let your body to heal. You are really annoying by letting your voice not be heard. You hide your voice, getting annoyed. So then you just collapse and then nothing happens again, and you can't do anything if you don't heal, then your scar will get worse, and worse, so please stop hurting yourself, please. My guardian tries to save, but don't prove that it will again be fallen.

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slipping

I am slipping away
my cautiousness
it is slipping
it has been silly
but they yelling
the proof I can live
I gnat to just live
I want it to stay
but like water
it seems to want to die
it wants to drift away
I try and catch it
hoping to grab it's tail
but like water
it shifts and falls to pieces.

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The truth

I tell the truth
it seems
it means alot
but I want to lie at times
but I am obvious when I do
I think it is silly, but in the end, it seems that I seem to want to shut the door. Hide my truth that let me have fun, let but this hell. I am watching what I remember
what I wish I had
but it is the effect. It is something I want, but can;t have anymore time. So it is sad, but I will watch as never again. My side took over. Never again. But I can;t have it. So can I leave. Can I leave, and watch it all, and then, can I hide. The guardian is wanting in. It is taking over. Even though it is fallen. It is black. But it is a pure guardian
even though it is fallen. So then, it is still telling the truth. For it feels, it has nothign to hide now.

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white castle

it all looks so well, like a white castle. It is then, that in the eight inches.It stands above the rest, and the bricks are trash bins full of snow. It is then, that people should be there. It is a perfect sitting against as the structure against the one across the street. It is the passing of the snow. The snow is to throw across the street, small balls of ice and snow, it is amusing. too bad they are too far away. Lets all pretend again then, that we can all live. We would be happy, happy to just live, but the never ending snow is hard, and so it is cold, so never again will I be in the crossfire, for the cold water is too much, for it's crystals are too much, so I hope it all melts away again,

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leaving

shall we go? or shall we stay? the socialization, but I hate the idea I want it to make the snow go away. Also I would like the understanding that I can't do things again, all of my effort seems futile. We continue to be here. Liz tries to keep us here, with her music, which is silly but I think she doesn't want to do anything but be here. Can we leave please. Sleep!! but that is our case, can we contineu to be around for no reason, so can we go now? Stop all the distractions and leave. Can we sleep? or at least allow me in my room so I can earn it all more. I don't think I stand it anymore, so let me leave please.

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The girl jumps around, I see it all ,she wants to pounce on that which it does not matter. Can my own realm be in its own? Can I sleep knowing what will happen tomorrow?

I don't know, all I do know is that she is competitive, and that I want to finish my starfish, but it hurts
the red liquid coming down, like the ends of the earth, the veins spilling their knowledge.

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these tears I cry
these shiny lights
I play
the music
people ask
is it better
do you see me play the others? no
I like the linear plot
the sides take forever
i sidetrack in real life
i need not in a game
can I just
not be super disturbed
I want to end this
but it is hard
I don't want to go into the cold
but now I look antisocial
so what now?

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this feeling
this creativity
it bubbles inside of me
I want to prove my worth
I want to remember the projects
the satisfying feeling
when it is all done
and so I design
and design
and design
that is what I want
but it is then
that I remember it all
how great it is
when it is all done
and continually
over and over and over again
so can it be done
can I finish it all
I want to
but estimating is hard
so I continue
take small steps
but can I remember the process?
that is all
draw till statisfied
then measure
then big version
and cut out
and done
that is all
but all that takes forever
so when will this end
in a week
in a month? can i do this all?
or will it look odd?

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tarot card series part 1

0 - The Fool: Often the lead character, he plunges forward with everything he has heedless of consequence.

The fool, he is the silly one. The one that blunders forward, like a knight, and doesn't care if he dies. He always does so, not ever learning. The aggressor to the pack, and fearless. Some call him that, but is he fearless or just stupid?

These are the people i do not understand, how can one not understand that their is a world, and their actions effect the whole existence. How can one understand this, they push people away at times,yet their own leadership like tendencies bring people in. They are not a leader, but a fool. A false leader that people follow and then see if they do something fool like,and then laugh, of follow till something good happens.

How can someone be senseless, uncaring as to how someone feels, yet they see no problem and go through, watching as they are hit with arrows, arrows and arrows, the volley never ending, and when he turns around, proud, he is still standing.How do these people survive? Do they have no brains with which to think?

So we all follow a fool, for they are amusement, but is that who should play the lead? or is there a better one, a better main character who fits the role.

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project

If something was easy
why do it
I want to continue to improve
I want it done
i want it all done
but then
why did I do it
why am I starting
yet another project
am I bored
did I find
inspiration
or is it
just a dormant thought
why am I up
I am hyper yes
but why?
is my creativity so bad
that I won't sleep?
or is it something more?
I turn and jump
and jump again
I want this shown
I want to show this off
so can I?
can I continue
to create
create till nothing is left
and then I win
but is it something
and what is the cost
of creativity?

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scaling

I did this different last time
this time I have full scale
nothing but measuring
scaling
this will get interesting
I have the tools
but they are elsewhere
I have the knowledge
12 inches to a foot
1 foot across
it should all fit
the entire piece
it will be close though
a scroll saw would be nice
an ability to get it all
and we wonder why I create things
create insanity
a 3 foot 6 piece is insane
but not unheard of
what was the old ones like?
i do not know
sorry mom
but i am curious
i know i shouldn't be
but i am
but she is not there
she is at work
so nothing to do
but guess

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what has happened to it all
all my sadness
all my love
all my life
it seems shattered
like a ball
but it is due to what I do
it is my hyperness
it scares everyone
I have a small middle ground
this one i stand on
and look up
and feel the edge
it seems like nothing will win
all I want is to watch
doing my own
and building on my own
but watch afar
and give what I build when I can
to continue showing that I even exist.

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into the night

when I dance into the night
what is all that I leave behind
the day
the night
my life alone
all to be with you
that is a severed sense
why am I up
why do I still continue dancing
the dance of death
but I watch still
watching with sorrow eyes
as I dance
the beautiful gift
but it is love
that keeps me from everything else
so what can keep me here
it is watching us all
that I know I am watched
I am warmed
but alone when everyone else is gone
and I still dance
what then
what happens to the night
or anyone else
it is just a lonely soul
forever doing a dance
of death

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what would happen
if the dead could speak
if the dead could speak only truth
then would you listen to them
or decide on still trusting on humans?

The innocent choose to trust the humans,the ones they could talk to, but it is the dead that they should follow, for they have a pure heart, and have no way to speak ill of the living. These fools who trust the living, it is the mistrust that people can create. the deception to the others, wrapping their wits against another, and living off lies. It is something that was done, never stopping. Even small or big.

That is how the world works, the trusting the mistrusted.

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why trust these people
these people who know nothing
these people who sit
watching
their faces always smiling
they understand no pain
these masks they hide behind
these ghost of a people
they know nothing
yet they ask us
to trust them
I trust none

These people
all the same
the featureless face
the same voice
ever demanding
ever wanting
expecting everything
wanting you to be what they are
another faceless wonder
with no change
from the next
all the same

that is society

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the game of love

The game of love is odd
it pulls you one way
pulls you another
but when you finally think you reach a destination
it runs you over
with fear
with sadness
with anxiety
if one survives it all
they suffer rejection
and a broken heart
then to make life crueler
there is the feelings after

The game of love
has nothing to do with who is first
or who loves more
but what does another feel
why can't you decide
and the rejection
you must be able to have
for it one comes to you
and you are no longer on that square
but it was once your path
the past you must say no
for the future
it is a case of run
hide
watch rejection
and if nothing else
know that intertwined fates
is a lie

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why do I love you so
you amuse me
you seem nothing like me
you know not that i exist
but you are pretty
pretty to the point I want you to hold me
you are probably lazy
like me
like this school
maybe not
you look in thought over this lecture
you lean forward
do you have a girlfriend?
no you play with your hands
think hard looking
i can't see your eyes
so I know it isn't eyes I like
I know it is the hair
I watched as you swished all your hair back
the ever lengthening hair
keep your hair this length
maybe it is straight hair
or closer to straight
why then do I only find curly


your hands look beautiful
I would love for you to touch me
to even
with those large hands
just shake my hand
but this is all a dream
it is a watch
you know not that i stare at thee
but I do
because you are pretty
so I am but a nobody
and you tilt your head slightly sideways
lovingly
like a confused child
maybe to pop your neck
but the look
it is adorable
beautiful
my heart watches you
so can watch you
from afar
for I am still just a no one.

raondom

my eyes wander
like a tired person, i blink'
never opening
it is such teh case

so I fallo\
asleep.
so what to do
wht I am to tired ot stand
and i plan to sleep agian.

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strawberries

what is a way to win a girls heart, through the red fruit. It is similar in shape, but like all love and everything, excess is too much, the red liquid spews through them, the red existence, and it's piles of them.

Their sweet feeling, their never ending love, but like many things, go well with others, but hide in the back, as side flavor over the others.

The taste they hold is delicious at that, but always demand more, like the strawberries that they are, like the love that always is. Now if I could find one big strawberry to eat, that would be nice for a change.

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the heavens give birth
that there is nothing left
but the pull of a devil
wanting to watch me fall
and watching me be there
struggling to be in the light
but the heavens give birth
to the light
but do not give it to me
they watch
laughing
and watching as the devil watches
laughing manically
watching as I am dragged from the light
by my own accord
like my doppleganger
he laughs
at my suffering
and pure amusement
while the heavens
want nothing to do with me
for it is my fault for my own dragging
and my own following
if only they gave birth
to a savior to get rid of the darkness
and keep the laughter at bay
and embrace me
the large hands
covering the mess behind me
and letting me walk forward
blinded by the light
instead of falling into the darkness

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quota
I feel like I fail
I fail at everything
at making a goal
and doing the goal
at doing anything
I feel like I should be farther ahead
but then again
what did I have to lose.
so then I should do nothing
but maybe earn stuff
but I wanted badly
the gold at which I could not have
So can I make it
I am not even half way
can I make it to what I want
so then what about tomorrow
it is hard on me
but I have other things
I have a life
so what then do I do?
no life and earn satisfaction, or life with no goals

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i remember

I remember the black wings of the fallen angel
I remember her hair that was as black as night
I remember the strength she had to topple buildings
I remember the sword she possessed, long and deadly
I remember the magic powers to kill everyone
I remember the destruction that she caused
I remember the blood that spilled over the land
I remember the demon that she fought in the end
I remember her death as the demon destroyed her
I remember my dream of her.

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fallen angel poem

As the moon rose
She appeared from the darkness
Black wings
Black hair
She took off like a fallen bird
Silence
As she tries to fly home
A demon
klish clash
The moon is red tonight
Stained of blood
She falls to the ground
Dead