Lowering his brows he snapped a bomb before his eyes.
"HOW IS THAT DISTURBING FULLMETAL, HUH? Being in love and wanting to stay alive for her sake is disturbing? Grow up kid. I'm only trying to help and being blown off by you over and over with your childish remarks is getting tiring." He stood up quickly and about faced.
"I was in her head, yes, but you dont need to be in a womans head to know what they like and to know what theyre thinking. Being observant and having common sense is all thats needed to keep a woman happy. But whatever, Ive given you this lecture over and over and Im tired of you not letting it sink in. You know where I am and my phone number if you need me. Good luck, kid." He headed off quickly, lowering his head.
Stupid brat...needs to either grow up or get kicked really hard in the nads or else he aint gonna learn a damn thing. He pushed his hat back on and headed towards Risembool Train Station.

"That's not the disturbing part....it's that you think about this stuff..." Edward glanced over his shoulder, his eyes half closed.
"Uh huh....and if that's the case why aren't you and the Lieutenant happily married with three kids already, or don't your tactics apply to you as well? I mean it's obvious to even a kid like me that you two are head over heels for each other...but you dance around the edge like you don't care."

He sighed as Mustang left and rolled over onto his stomach...in all honesty....he was taking everything that had been said to heart...but....he was so afraid of hurting Shiba again...that he wondered if it would really make a difference. He thought over what he could do to make Shiba happy, but everything, ranging from new paint sets to a romantic dinner...all seemed to superficial and hollow to really describe his feelings for her....what could he do that wouldn't seem like he was trying to buy her off? Then it hit him...but he was going to need a few hours...and a trip into town. He raced inside to grab everything that he would need.

[oh noes what does he have planned?? XD How are you tonight Hatch?]

He heard what he said and groaned. He had proposed to her and she went to visit family to tell them... but relationships between two soldiers is forbidden in the military, and the last thing he needed to do was to tell someone IN the military... he and Riza could lose their jobs because of it. He sighed, rubbing his eyes.


I finished my drawing finally, of the cute Edward with the long hair draping over the pillow and big amber eyes looking at me. It was watercolored. I sighed, placing it in the grass beside me to let dry and I brought my knees to my breast, resting my chin on them.
Kiri... what should I do? I said to the sky. the sun danced warmly across my face and my hair flailed in the breeze.

((HA, HA He's gunna eat someone's cookie. LOL I'm okay, didn't do much today at school though, so that's always good.))
Most of Edward's day was spent in town, there wasn't a lot of the things that he needed,but there wasn't really anything he couldn't make if need be.
After all his shopping was done, Edward went, with all three of his bags, he headed down river...water...water was always something that had brought him and Shiba closer together...and he thought that it was only appropriate.
Along the banks, where it was dry enough for him to sit...he took out a stretched peice of cloth on a wooden frame, and dug in another bag for a sharpened peice of charcoal...all those years of copying transmutation circles couldn't have prepared him for the toil that lay ahead...but it surely helped.
He sat there and sketched....just sketched, the river, the trees, a bird on a limb...Shiba always seemed to be making art for everyone else's sake...since when had someone done that for her? He smiled, feeling butterflies in his stomach whirl about as he continued his labor of love, his art supplies were only in two bags...the other one...held a few articles of food...and a very large picnic blanket. He snickered to himself...just wait till Shiba got a hold of this!

[NUUU mah cookie...*thinks then grins* oh wait... he can have my cookie... Uhm, isnt doing 'not much in school' a bad thing because it leads to more out of school work??]

By this time of day i had fallen asleep at the bank, curled in a small ball beside the Ed drawing I had done, my hand upon it. I had no dreams and only the setting suns rays had kept we warm during my slumber.

((Nut so much...at least not tonight LOL but I'm probably going to have to get off at about 11))

It took the rest of the day to finish, but by the time that the sun was going down...Edward had finished with his work, had wrapped it in the brown paper of a leftover bag, and was well on his way back to the Rockbell's. He made a quick stop in the house, asking if they had seen Shiba, and then headed the way that he'd seen her go that morning...if he was lucky he'd suprise her...and she wouldn't have time to give him a 'no' when he asked her 'out' to dinner.

[awww u.u]

I had slept a short nap, slowly awaking to the setting sun beating in my eyes. I blocked it with my forearm and smiled, feeling refreshed and...happy. The events of last night... were history. To never happen again. I nodded and looked to the drawing beside me and closed the book it was in and placed my brushes atop of it. I looked to the horizon.
"He... didn't come for me all day. Maybe I should just go back home... and find a job... or something." I yawned, looking to the clouds for answers. As usual, they said nothing.

((I know, I know, but I need to T^T))
Edward hurried, he crashed through the brush and finally came out where Shiba was laying, coverd in leaves and with a limb sticking out of his coat hood, he blinked, and then blushing set, the things aside trying to make himself more presentable.
"Oh..uh..Shi-Shiba..." Just spit it out already!
"Uhh...I..I know that last night..really didn't go well..." Understatement of the CENTURY there bub.
"But I was...was wondering...if you'd...you'd like to.....have dinner...with..me..." He blushed and scratched the back of his head, looking off to one side.

[I do good post in AT, you no wanna get off now {put evil laugh here}]

I rolled my head over and sat up quickly to find Ed in my space. he..landed on my book with his drawing in it. I pulled it from under him and opened the page, my eyes filled; the page with his art on it was ripped and bent.
I flew my glare to him.
"What?! I'm well aware it didn't go well! It was my fault to begin with!" I yelled, tears rolling down my cheeks.
I hadn't heard what he said after that and I stood up quickly.
"Why are you here?" I said, glaring down at him.

(( I KNOW!!!! >.< You're so evil..Give him a gun so he can just shoot himself why don'tcha!! XDD LOL Sucks to be him right now))
Edward...not realizing exactly what he'd done...stared at her.
"It wasn't you.." He protested quietly, unsure of how to react with her anger.
"I...I just...I came to fix things...but...I guess it's too late.....you seem...like you want to be alone...so...there's...food and stuff in the bag...and....there's something else for you in there as well..." Edward turned back into the brush.
"I'll just....go on back now...sorry to have disturbed you."

[Kane or Ed??]

I angrily ripped the drawing out of the book and crumpled it up and threw it at him, wiping my eyes.
"Don't bother. Stay here in Risembool, I'm going home. I'm the one that doesn't belong." I scooped up my paints and shoved them into my bag and slung it over my shoulder and I paced onto the pathway leading into town.

((ED!! T^T He's got the sucky end of LIFE! LOL))
Edward turned, and took hold of her wrist as she started to move past him.
"At....at least...look in the bag before you go?" His face was averted...but his voice was pleading and broken.
"I didn't spend all afternoon on it....just to let...let it sit there...please.."

[lol i know poor thing but id be VERY pissed if i were her, after that night then he doenst show up ALL day then when he does he runs her favorite drawing of him.]

I looked back at him and he seemed...distraught. But of course he was, maybe he finally realized what a childish ass he was. I huffed and ripped my wrist from his gloved grip and slammed my hands onto my hips.
"Fine, show me." I said, my voice strong and stern. I began to pull on my long trench coat waiting for him. I had no idea when the next train came, but planned on sleeping somewhere near the station if I would miss it.

(( Yeah...that's understandable...but he's trying his best LOL))

Edward nodded, his hair hiding his eyes, and knelt by the bag, taking the present out of the bag, then pausing a moment...wondering if he should hand it to her to open...or just do it himself...in the end Sentimentaility won and he extended the gift.
"It wouldn't seem right..i-if I opened it....here."

[about how big is this canvas?{dragging out the taking of canvas in rp to get answer XD}]

I looked to the gift, then his hidden eyes. I didnt take it right away.
"Why cant you look at me." I said, looking down at him as his arms were extended and he was on the ground.
"Why...do you never look to me...even if youre...sad, or angry..." I said softly.

((About.......12X12? That good?))


Edward looked even farther towards the ground...how to explain this...there was no good way to explain this...but...if he didn't get it out...then...he supposed all this might have been for naught. He sighed and raised his head slightly.
"I'm afraid." He whispered after a long pause.
"I'm afraid of these feelings...of the ones that I have now...and of those that you arise in me...I'm afraid of what might happen....it's the irrational fear of the unknown....and I can't shake it...is that the answer you were hoping for? If not....then I hope you can cope with the truth."

[yesh, the way you made it sound when he went to draw on it, you made it sound HUGE]

I took the gift and kneeled on the ground in front of him, placing my hand under his chin to have his eyes look to mine. They... looked glassy, but I couldn't tell by the shadow of his hair on his face.
His answer... made me smile warmly and still holding the wrapped gift, I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, keeping my chest away from his.
"Edward... dont you think I'm scared too? I wont know what youre feeling unless you tell me..." I took in a deep breath to take in the scent of his hair, my free hand ran over his braid... feeling like it would be the last time.
After about a minute, I leaned back and sat on my feet, still kneeling.
"I plan to go back to North City."
I looked down to the gift.

He nodded..Edward knew that he'd have to tell her something...or else nothing would get done...but his voice got caught behind the lump in his throat...and hearing the words 'North City' just killed him on the inside.
A single tear rolled down his face...but he quickly wiped it away with a sniff.
"Then...I guess...take that as a 'Goodbye' present." He really didn't want her to go...but if he spoke one more word...then....then....that thought didn't even finish, not before hot trails of water came pouring out in silent turrents. He sat there, head down while tears plopped onto his charcoaled hands...he didn't bother with gloves that day...so his fingers were black...but it was turning into nothing more than streaks.

I heard his voice...it was low and cracked. I nodded and opened it to find a beautiful charcoal drawing of the lake and the mountains and trees... around Risembool. I looked up at him smiling; my smile soon faded as i saw his face, wet with tears. I looked to his hands, black with charcoal. I smiled warmly; It was the first I ever seen him this way, and it felt good to know he trusted me enough...to see him this way. I clapped and touched his hands, the charcoal fading with the breeze and a glow and I again, put my finger under his chin to lift his head to look to me. his face...was so red from crying.
"Edward Elric... I just cant understand you." Sliding my hand up to his left cheek, I wiped a tear away with a thumb and cocked my head sideways.
"Youre so hard to understand... I don't know what you want."
I looked down at the drawing then back to his face, keeping my hand there.
"Its beautiful, I've never gotten anything from anyone...ever. I love it...I will cherish it always.."

((Last one and this time I mean it XDDDDD ROFLMAO))

He found his voice for the first time in a while then..
"I can tell you...w-what I don't want....I don't want to ever hurt you...but I do....I don't want to be mad at me...but you were....and I don't want you to leave....but you are...so...so what's the point in saying what I do want if...if none of that matters!?"
He let a sob escape him as he flung himself around Shiba's waist...this time careful of the drawing and whatever else she had on her...the last thing he wanted...was to make her mad again.

[aw okies, see yah tues then.]

I was about to reply to him when he flung his arms around my waist, his face pressed against my stomach. I...could only smile and stroke the back of his head, carefully placing the drawing beside me. My other hand ran up and down his back.

"Edward....I don't ever want to hurt you either... and what went on last night... shouldn't have. In the end, I ended up hurting you... I wasn't mad, per-say...more disappointed but.." I sighed.
"I dont belong here in Risembool... you know that. And for some reason... I'm getting the feeling you're not ready for a serious relationship with me... or with anyone, I think. I thought 18 was a good age... but maybe I was wrong..." I looked down at the top of his had, I stroked again.
"I hate hurting you continuously...and making you this way... this isn't you... youre a soldier... I shouldn't be coming in the way of your work..." I looked to the disappearing sun and sighed a bit, my tears drying on my cheeks.
"I only want whats best for you, even if its not me.."

((Finally Tuesday, but, you remember when I told you that I hadn't done much at school? It's finally caught up with me. I'm only going to RP for about an hour tonight alright? I've got a few things that are due on thursday and I need to get them done before I die >.<;;;))

Edward thought that after that last bit, his heart couldn't break anymore...but then he felt it shatter into a thousand little peices. What was once a silent cry, didn't last for very long.
"Shiba..." He said brokenly.
"WhatamIsupposedtodo? YouwanttoleaveandRoythinksthatthisisallmyfault
butthenagainhe'srightmaybeitisallmyfaultIshouldn't havedonealotofthethingsthatIdidandI'msorrybut--" All his words ran into each other, as he spouted out everything that he'd been carrying around for the last few days, even about the last talk he and Roy had shared...and about how he'd stormed away.

[Well, did I call that or what? mer...*yay I was your first post tonight!!!*]

I listened intently on what he was sobbing and I looked down at him.
"Edward... youve lived without me, and a woman in your life once before...I'm sure you'll do fine once your forget about me. Everyone does..." I looked to the dark horizon and yawned; my eyes were dry from crying, my back ached...I was sure I had missed the train by now.
"Dont listen to Roy... I doubt he said it was your fault flat out like that. I bet he was only trying to help and give you some advice. Youre just too stubborn to take his advice, or just merely thank him for it."

((Perrrrrr...yeah ju did. Gomen. *XDD Of course LOL*))

Edward sighed as he started to calm down.
"I don't want to forget." He said plainly.
"I don't ever want to forget about you? If I did...what was all this for? What did Kiri die for? What did we risk everything to get our bodies back? Shiba..." He looked up.
"What did I risk my heart for if I forget?"((XDD LOL CHEEEEEEEZEEHHH!!!!))
He looked away sourly.
"You don't know Roy then." He sighed again and wiped his eyes.

[*le sigh* I sometimes get annoyed at the last minute people who do nothing all semester long, then bitch about all the work they have to do when its due in like a week. Being an illustrator means PACE and good time management. I never need to rush because I pace myself well. *sigh* not a lecture, just stating what I see around me constantly. I have nothing to fret over. I am well along in my classes to set aside these hours to RP, and not have to worry.]

I sighed deeply. He, for once, was right.
"I know for a fact I'll never forget you. You were my first... non forced kiss. Youre the first guy I liked that actually agreed to pose naked for me, and though you were uncomfortable about it, you did it."
I closed my eyes.
"You risked to get your body back to normal for me? I highly doubt that, sweety."
I shook my head and chuckled.
"Hun, I know him better than you do, remember?" I tapped my forehead at him.
"More than he'd want me to know. I'm the one who pushed him to get mar---" i cut myself off, and averted my gaze quickly.
"Uhm, so... this drawing.. how long did it take? I never thought of you as the artist type other than transmutation circles..."