"I... I... I'm not thinking of my servant.... I'm thinking of my brother..." Karasu whispered abviously scared that this had been so bad that... instead of her dissowning him like he thought she would... he was dissowning her... she hoped that that wasn't the case... she hoped he still loved her... she really did she didn't want to loose her brother... the only one she had left she couldn't loose him, not ever.

Jeremy quivered a bit at this.
"Dont..." He said, his voice braking, "Think of only your servant...because...because your brother is dead..."
He began to cry all over again then and turned into a quivering pile of self loathing jelly.
"Or he very well wants to be," He said with a sob.

Karasu whimpered then clung to her brother hugging him tight and crying. "Pl-pl-please do not say that... I-I-I can not l-l-loose you! I-I-I love y-y-you! I can not go on w-with out y-you." she stuttered crying and begging which she rarely to never did. He was all she had left now... and she had hurt him... she really hurt him... and... she was loosing him. She couldn't loose him... she would give up everything just so he wouldn't dissown her.

(man I actually felt like crying at that XD *sobs for Kara* )

"Yes you can, your stronger than that," Jeremy said, pulling himself together a bit and, for the first time since all this, he had willingly let her touch him. With a shaky sigh he even placed a comforting hand on her head.
"But never fear...im not going anywhere for now, not physically. My innocence may be gone but I'm here, filthy murderer that i am. I shant leave by my own hand at very least...no, i don't deserve the release of death even if i do go to hell. So ill stay here, I shall serve you as long as you wish me to," He said with a grim sort of smile.

"B-b-but I do not want my servant right now! I-I-I want my brother." Kara cried a bit more as she looked up at hime searchingly though also tearfully. She didn't want to loose him... and he had said he didn't want to loose her before... but... why was he acting this way if he didn't want to loose her? She was glad that he didn't push her away and for his comfurting hand on her head... though she wanted her brother... she wanted his brotherly love that had always been there though it wasn't right now...

"I cant give you what I dont have...I'm sorry," He said with a mournful sigh. And he really was sorry. He desperately wanted to feel like himself again, be kind to her whether she deserved such kindness or not, and laugh and love but more than that simply to feel. He felt so empty, all that was inside him was disgust and murder. He remembered emotion, he knew that the capacity for it had once been there, might still be there, but he could feel none of it save grief and hatred. Oh how he wished for the comfort that he once received from his sisters touch, but now she could have been a pillar of salt for all that warmth he received from her. There was nothing then of Jeremy left, just emptiness. Just a murderer.

Kara whimpered burrying her face in him again and continued to cry. "I am so sorry, so very very sorry I know I can not be fully forgiven if forgiven at all for what I had asked of you though I am still so very very sorry." she whimpered it being muffled some since she had her face burried in his chest a bit. She knew it was her fault and that he was blaming himself for doing the task she had asked of him... and she was sorry she had asked him for such a thing. It was not something she could ever take back no matter how much she wanted to... and no matter how much she wanted to she knew she could never win her brothers full forgiveness.... though she really really wanted him to at least act somewhat like her brother. "I do not want my servant... I want my brother." she whimpered again the same thing she had whimpered and cried before and it was true. She would give up the kingdom and thrown just to have her brother back, no matter the cost she just wanted her brother back.

"I believe you..." He said with a sigh and pried her off of him, "I really do. But sorry doesnt change anything does it. I dont forgive you, but i will not dwell on what happened today lest i loose my sanity as well. We move forward and let the innocent lives we took rest in peace...Now, to bed with you sister...I will see you in the morning"
He pulled his robe tighter around his bloodied clothing and made to leave.

"Brother? Please don't leave me" Kara cried softly not meaning physicly but as in him dissowning her as his sister... she couldn't stand the thought... she couldn't stand the feeling of self loathing for the fact she made him this way... and he may never go back. She wasn't so concerned with him forgiving her so much as she was with him staying her brother... she didn't even care if he stopped working for her... she just wanted her brother back and for him to love her again.

"Goodnight sister..." He said and left without another word.
He did not feel sorry for leaving her there, not in the least. Jeremy shivered at this realization, horrified at how much he had changed in one day alone. How would he be tomorrow? Even more devoid of humanity than before once this horrible matter had truly sunk in? The idea was nothing short of terrifying, but he marched on to his room.
When he reached it, he stripped out of his bloodied clothes and into a fresh nightshirt. He did not put the soiled garments away, not did he flop into bead. He simply sat down on his wicker chair and held the blood of his lovely Helena to his chest. He did not sleep at all that night and thought bitterly that he never truly would be at rest again.

Karasu had finally gotten up and shut the door to her room. She curled in the feadle position on the bed and silently cried for awhile before crying herself out and ending up falling asleep. Again in her sleep she had such a horrafying nightmare and this time did not wake easily from it. It was like the dream from before, a horrid sight of her brother being killed and the blood everywhere though mostly on her and on her hands. She looked like her brother again, in a cloak that discuesed her the rest of the way and a pained look on her face. She then drempt of herself chasing after him though him not looking back at all... nor stopping... he just walked away and kept getting farther away. The nightmares continued to roll in her mind and she couldn't wake up. She was crying in her sleep at this point and even in the morning for the nightmares had a good hold on her and she couldn't pull away no matter how much she wanted to.

((Alrighty then...what now? XD))

(maybe he comes in they talk a little again then like the castle is attacked like in the vid? He gives her his clothes and swops clothes with her making her look like him and him look like her to keep her alive?)

((Aha. Alrighty then, thats what well do. I thought you said a while back though that you had something planned for the castle take over though? I was waiting for your sneaky ninja writing move X3))

(na that's for the time skip XP sorry and I still need to think of what I'm gonna write... it's like I know though at the same time I don't know XP like how you were having trouble posting earlier XD though I do know that this time skip will be very long X3 )

((Haha, well i can sympathise with that. Onward then! WOO))

Jeremy stared tiredly out the window as the sun rose, the bright red dawn sky burning into his eyes, causing the most horrible headache behind his eyes. He begged it to go away but of course it would not listen, his body was exhausted from crying and a sleepless night. The night had been horrible, his mind full of demons and emptiness. He was thrilled at the light flooding in his window despite the pain, because in the dark he felt like he was truly dead, fading away into nothingness.
With a sigh, he rose shakily to his feet and padded to his wardrobe and dressed himself. It must have took him some time but in his dazed state he barely remembered getting up when he had finally pulled his shoes on.
Jeremy groaned at his listlessness and the annoying pain blooming behind his eyes. With a scowl, he trudged over to his washbowl and pored some water in. With annother grumble he slapped water in his face and gasped in shock at how ice cold it was. He shook his head to clear away some of the pain, but at least now he was awake. After a moment of rubbing his face angrily he dared to look at his reflection.
Pale gray eyes stared back at him from the mirror. They were sunken in and blackened bags suck out in an ugly way underneath them. The face looked tired and haunted. Had he always looked like this? A morose, sickly looking thing? No, he had always been the spitting image of his sister, a touch taller but the face was the same, and she had never looked so...dead. She was always proud and youthful, beautiful to boot. Was that why Helena could not love him? Because he looked so much like his sister, so womanly?
'No, dont start thinking about that again,' He pleaded to himself and stared into his own eyes. No, he thought with a bit of a shiver, this was not how he used to be. This face was sad and damned and evil. Its eyes were cold and watery. Not Jeremys, but someone elses.
He shuddered at his physical transformation. Surely everyone would know it was him. They would have to. He looked like a murderer. Could they see the blood on his face like he could. He was sure that they would and they would hate him for it. He coudlnt blame them.
He felt the urge to vomit yet again and raced out into the hallway, hoping that the motion would hold back the bile.

Kara was still in a restless sleep when one of the maids came to wake her and found her shivering and crying in her sleep. The woman had a slight thought to go and wake to sleeping princess though then shook her head for she wasn't sure how the girl would wake if she did and the woman really didn't want to go through either water works nor getting snapped at. So she left and closed the door knowing that Jeremy would be in there soon anyway. He seemed to have a way with the girl, to calm her, though hardly anyone knew they were twins even with the major resemblence in their fetures.

Jeremy caught a glimps of the maid leaving his sisters room as he leaned against the hallway. With yet annother sigh, he walked over to his sisters chambers, carefull not to stagger and entered. He did not even glance at her as he entered and marched directly to her wardrobe, swinging it open and producing a loud clang as the doors smashed against the hard surface of the wall.
"Good morning!" He said in a falsely cheery voice, "What would you care to ware today dear sister. The yellow and black dress perhaps? You look so lovely in that one after all. Or the...electric blue?"
'Electric blue, like Helenas. Beuatiful Blue stained an ugly purple now because of y-' His mind teased.
"Perhaps not," He said mid thought and replaced the dress.

Kara awoke to the sound of the slamming door and sat up right away then heard her brothers voice and relaxed for a moment then an uneasiness filled her. She looked to Jeremy feeling that he was still majorly upset... was he worse then yesterday? "I... I supose I could wear my kemono..." she said softly and quietly. "Why-why do you not take the day off brother? I owe you that much and more for what I have put you through..." she said softly as she looked at her brother and felt a bit of pain... would he ever think of her as his sister again? She wasn't sure though she wasn't sure if she really wanted to know.

(sorry it took so long my parents were kinda holding me up for a bit since they didn't like me being on the laptop while I was eating XP )

((thats fine XD Dont worry about it))

Jeremy wasted no time in removing the kimono from her wardrobe and draping it across the chaise for her to put on at her leisure.
"There," He said, brushing off the seat and letting out a bit of a sigh. Once he had done this he stalked over to the foot of her bed and leaned against the bed frame. An angry expression hung on his face as he stared at her coldly. There was a smile on his lips, but it was not good nature in the least.
"Sister, do not tell me to 'take a brake.' I do not need rest. I do not need time to myself. I had all that i could ever desire last night and far, far more. Far too much for my cold heart to bare and i will go mad if i have even one more second of seclusion. So, kindly refrain from saying such things," He said, a cold bit to his tone, before turning to lay out the rest of her clothing, "No, no, no more idleness for good old Remy. I need to work. Keeps the mind moving, no time for...unpleasant thoughts..."
He shuddered a little and shot her an empty smile.

Karasu pulled her knees to her chest, wrapping her arms around her legs, and rested her head on her knees. She let out a bit of a whimper as she saw the look and heared his cold tone. She put her head behind her knees and her form shook some. She didn't like Remy like this... she was terrified her would never ever act the same... that he would dissown her as his sister and that she would be alone. No he would not leave though to her he might as well have been gone for he would not be her brother... she would not feel love from him. She shuttered at the thoughts and they seemed to make her even more upset. I've lostmy brother! Ow how could I have ever done this to him?! I'm the monster not him! But... but I still want him to love me... I still want him to be my brother... I need my brother... for him to hold me in his imbrase and whisper soothing words to me one last time... for him to tell me that he did love me and cared about me one last time... that's all I want... She whimpered mentally the thoughts making her shake just a bit more as tears started falling from her eyes again... though there was no sound to show that she was crying... just the shaking would show that if you couldn't see her face witch was hidden still behind her knees.

Jeremy finished laying out her clothing with ease. Satisfied with his work, he turned to meet his sister again. He saw that she was crying without missing a beet. He felt a surge of anger at that. She deserved it, he thought with a grin, but anger still flooded him.
"So," He began, ignoring her weeping, "What shall you do today dear sister?"

Karasu shook her head still having it barried behind her knees. This was torturing her. She wasn't even fifteen yet so her mind wasn't straight and could barly take the stress that this was putting on her body and mind. Her hands were gripped tightly in the silky fabrick of her night gown and she just couldn't stop crying for nothing. This is what I desurve I supose... though why, why does it have to be from Jeremy? I love him so... I would do anything, anything to make up for what I have done at least just a little so he could at least act like my brother again... I miss my brother. she whimpered mentally again her sobs finally becoming noticable as she had wanted to stop crying though it only got worce when she tried.

"Stop it," He said suddenly with a clear bite in his tone, "If you wish to do me any favors today, spare me your blubbering!"
He huffed then and flopped down on the edge of her bed. The world spun a little at the sudden altitude change. He was so tired, so exhausted. He knew he was being overly cruel but he was too irritable and dead on his feet to stop himself. This and he knew she deserved everything she was being given.

Karasu finally looked up tears streaming down her face. She was quiet but she was still crying. She couldn't help it, she was being torutured for her wrong doings by how her brother was treating her... he had never acted so coldly twords her. With each time he snapped at her it felt like part of her was being broken. She was so close to her brother that even just his pains alone were enough to torture her... that wasn't counting how he was acting twards her and how all this was making her feel.