Shouki can't stop the small whine as Asher pulls away. "Everything is love....or war. One of the two." He says softly. It's the truth....everything involves love, hate, or an emotion that comes from it....such as jealousy and the like. Shouki halfway wraps himself around Asher. "But....I want you to look at me..." He sounds like a little kid and he knows it, but he doesn't care right now. It just makes him feel like he's done something wrong otherwise. "Do...you want me to leave?" If he's done something wrong, why shouldn't he leave?

"But...I don't want there to be a war." Asher says not really understanding what Shouki is telling him. He just doesn't want them to fight or anything like that. He just wants them to be happy together. Asher doesn't pull away from Shouki, but he still can't bring himself to look back at him. He feels like he has done something to upset Shouki. "Don't go!" Asher said turning around grabbing on to Shouki. He really doesn't want him to leave because he didn't do anything to make him leave. "I don't want you to leave....You didn't do anything wrong." Asher says to him.

Shouki chuckles a bit, shaking his head. "Who said it was war? I don't remember saying it was a war." Other than turning away...and making Shouki halfway feel like he's done something wrong....Asher has done nothing wrong. And it wasn't like he knew Shouki would react that way either. He squawks a bit as he's grabbed and all. "But....you wouldn't look at me..." He kind of nuzzles Asher a bit. "You sure you want me to stay?" He doesn't want to stay if Asher is just saying that to be polite or something.

"B-But...." Asher said though he really didn't know what he wanted to say exactly. Asher crossed his arms over his chest frowning as he tried to figure out what he wanted to say. "I-You...." Asher gave up on trying to figure out what he wanted to put into words. "Because you were looking at me with such sad eyes..." Asher said. It really wasn't that Shouki had done something horribly wrong. Asher just didn't know how to deal with those eyes. "Of course I want you to stay." He said hugging Shouki closer to him. "I never wanted you to leave. " He really didn't want him to leave. He had wanted to see Shouki the whole time he had been gone. He didn't want him to leave over something so small.

And that just makes Shouki whine some more. "I'm sorry?" It's not like he meant to or anything. He doesn't think about those type of things...but neither has he needed to or anything. He just hugs Asher back before nuzzling into him a bit. "Good....because I never want to leave." Though he knows he will have to sometime...that doesn't mean he wants to when that time comes. "I never want to leave you." He says softly."

Asher shook his head when Shouki said he was sorry. "You didn't do anything..." Asher said, but he knew it was really just his fault not Shouki's. "I can't seem to understand anything...that's the problem..." Asher mumbled under his breath as he looked down. He didn't really think Shouki was at fault. It was all his fault for not being able to understand about anything Shouki said to him. "Then why did you say you where going to leave?" Asher asked with a frown. He didn't want Shouki to leave either and had made him sad when he said that he was going to leave. He really had missed him while he was gone. "Well, I don't want to leave you either." Asher said looking up at Shouki.

"...you sure?" Shouki nuzzles Asher a bit. "No....it's just that I can't find the right wording for you to understand. That's the problem." He whines softly at the questioning, fidgeting a bit. "Well..." His ears and flattened back a bit, twitching. "I thought that....maybe....you wanted me to leave or something....since I'd done....or said something wrong apparently..." Shouki smiles, his tail wagging a bit at Asher's words before leaning over to kiss him on the cheek. "Glad we feel the same then." No unmatched feelings then....except maybe that love thing, but Shouki hasn't come out with that yet, so that doesn't count.

"Yes." Asher said softly he was sure. Shouki hadn't done anything wrong and he wasn't about to blame him for anything either. He didn't really believe what Shouki said about it being his fault. It wasn't and it was bad enough that he had to make him think of a simpler way to say things. It just showed how little Asher knew and that upset him just as badly. "You didn't do anything wrong!" Asher said tightening his grip on Shouki. He didn't like how he thought he had done things wrong. It made Asher feel bad for making him think like that. It wasn't like he just thought things like that on his own. Asher was the source of those thoughts so it was his fault. "Yeah, me too." Asher said smiling.

"Okay...then..." Shouki is probably still going to think he did something wrong, but whatever. Asher isn't mad or anything at him right now so he's fine with things as they are. And Shouki said a way Asher could understand....that doesn't mean simpler necessarily...it just means a different way of saying it. Kind of like how some students need a different approach from teachers to understand the class. They just learn and understand differently. Shouki squeaks a bit at the tightening and squirms a bit. "Okay then." He leans into Asher a bit before his stomach decides to ruin the moment by growling and Shouki just groans when he hears it.

Asher was glad that they could get over that because he didn't like when they both thought it was their own fault. It never got anywhere and it upset him that they kept kind of fighting. He knew that it must have been somewhat the same for Shouki. He didn't think he liked it either. Asher let go of Shouki when he heard him squeak and squirm. He hadn't meant to do any harm or anything. "I'm sorry..." He said as he looked down at the ground. He was surprised by Shouki stomach growling and he jumped at the sound. He looked back up at him. "Have you not eaten?" Asher knew that it must have been hard for Shouki to get food sometimes, but he didn't want him to starve. He knew he couldn't bring him in to eat, but he could maybe sneak some food out here and there for him.

Shouki doesn't like fighting period, but he likes it even less when it's fighting/arguing with Asher. "Don't be." He nudges Asher a bit. It didn't hurt or anything like that...and he didn't mean to squeak. That noise came out all by itself. At Asher's question, Shouki looks down and away, not really wanting to answer that question. He doesn't feel hungry often so he doesn't eat as often as other people. And until right about not, he didn't feel hungry either. "Don't worry about it." He says softly. Asher shouldn't worry about him. He's been fine so far....and he'll just continue on that way like he has so far.

Asher felt bad for hurting Shouki. He hadn't meant to do that but just to get his attention. He didn't like that he thought something was his fault so he had done it to stop him from thinking that. It wasn't meant to hurt hurt. "How can I not be sorry when I hurt you?" Asher said looking down at the ground. He let himself be nudge and he kind of swayed, but made sure he didn't hit Shouki when he came back. Asher got even more upset when Shouki told him not to worry about him being hungry. It upset him that his friend didn't want him to worry about him. "Don't worry about? How am I suppose to do that? You would worry if it was me wouldn't you?" Asher didn't want Shouki to be hungry even if Shouki didn't care or didn't think it was all that bad.

"I didn't say I was hurt. I don't squeak when things hurt...I make another noise then...like a yelp or somethings, but not a squeak." Shouki whines a bit at the next part. "Well....I just don't want you to worry....I can get food later." Shouki is now anxiously kind of messing with the hem of his clothes. He doesn't want Asher to worry...even if he probably won't be eating until sometime tomorrow. That doesn't bother him, so, in his mind, he doesn't want it to bother Asher. Shouki will be fine. "You shouldn't worry though....I'll be fine." He has been so far. Why would that change now?

"O-Okay..." Asher said though he was still convinced that he had done something wrong to hurt Shouki or something like that. He didn't think for a second that it was something else. It always seemed to do something wrong and hurting his friend seemed like one of those things that would go wrong. Asher reached up and grabbed his hair and kind of pulled on it in frustration. It wasn't like he was trying to pull his hair out, but more like he was just doing out of habit. "How am I not suppose to worry about my friend?" He asked kind of angrily. He didn't like that Shouki didn't want him to worry about him that upset him a lot. "What if I didn't eat would you not worry? Would you not care?" Asher said standing up and looking down at Shouki with tears in his eyes. "That's it I won't eat until you eat. Then we'll see if you say don't worry."

Shouki whines a bit at the hair pulling and tries to detatch Asher's hand from the hair. His eyes narrow a bit as Asher gets angry. He hisses a bit at the not eating thing before he stands up. "I wouldn't worry because you would be acting stupid. You have food. You have no worries about....what if I spend this money on food today and someone steals my supplies tomorrow? What would I do then? You do not have to worry about that. You have a mother that will feed you. I must survive on my own. Which means if I can't pull through on my own, that's it. I'm screwed. You have someone that will help you." And Shouki turns on his heel and walks away.

Asher is shocked by Shouki's hissing at him and his ear flatten instantly and he takes a step back and falls on his bottom. His eyes are full of tears as Shouki yells at him. He hadn't wanted this to happen, but yet again he didn't understand enough to do anything, but make things worse than they already were. He curled him on himself and began to cry not wanting to hear the things Shouki was telling him. He hadn't meant it that way. He was just worried about Shouki, but he messed it up like he always did. When he heard Shouki turn to leave he looked up and reached out towards him. "I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I'm sorry" He kept muttering as he hiccuped while he cried. He really hadn't meant this, but if Shouki was that upset and wanted to leave and never come back he didn't blame him. Asher knew he was stupid and naive and anything that was a horrible quality for a person. He knew he was a horrible friend, but he still didn't want to lose Shouki.

"There's no need for you to be sorry." Shouki turns to look at him, tears in his eyes. He's barely keeping them from falling and barely keeping himself from bawling. "You haven't done anything worse than anyone else. Just made me relearn a lesson that I should've never forgotten in the first place." He should've learned it when his family left him....that everyone will hurt you in the end if you let them get close enough. And Asher got close enough. "So just go inside and eat supper and I'll go back to my shack." At least Asher's mother will be happy about this turn out. "No reason to cry."

Asher couldn't help begin to cry even more when he saw that Shouki was going to cry too. He knew he had done something horrible wrong now and he couldn't form any words to say. He was crying to hard to even be able to form any words to say to Shouki. "B-But I hurt you..." Asher managed to say around his sobbing. He hadn't wanted this at all and he wanted so badly to change what he had done to Shouki. He didn't know how to do that though. His crying stopped almost all together when he heard Shouki tell him to go back inside and that he was leaving. "I'm not going to see you again, am I?" He asked looking up at Shouki the remaining tears running down his face. His heart seemed to have stopped in his chest too and it was beginning to get difficult to breath. He didn't know what to do and he began to panic. "I-....I-...Do-Don't..." He tried to say I don't want you to leave me. That wasn't working though and he reached up to grabbed at his chest because he felt he was going to pass out now if this continued.

"Stop crying." It hurts Shouki to see Asher cry. Even though he's hurting due to all this...it doesn't mean he wants to see Asher cry or anything. Because underneath it all, he loves Asher. "Like I said, don't worry about it. You aren't the first one." But he'll be the last one if Shouki can help it. "Well...I make no guarantees on whether you'll see me again or not, but if you don't, at least your mother will be happy about it it." That's when a few tears start to fall and he immediately goes to wipe them away. He's cried enough. He notices what is going down. "Just calm down. Don't think about it and breathe." He's seen a panic attack before and this is what it seems to be right now. He just goes over to kneel down next to Asher. "Just breathe now."

Asher couldn't stop crying after what Shouki had told him and what he had done. Even if he wanted to he couldn't really do it even if he wanted to. It seemed like the tears were flowing out on their own and wouldn't be stopped even tried to stop them. He didn't care if he wasn't the first person or not. He didn't want to be one of those people at all. He wanted to take it back and make it so he had never said it before. It didn't help anything when Shouki told him that there wasn't any guarantees that he would ever see Shouki again. Asher didn't know what to do to that he didn't want to lose Shouki. He didn't want to lose his friend. He didn't want to lose anyone close to him ever. How could he calm down after Shouki had just told him that he wouldn't see him. He did want he said though and tried to breathe. Though he ended up just sucking in air rapidly. He fell over and curled up into a ball hyperventilating as he began to cry again. He knew he had lost Shouki and he wasn't getting him back.

Shouki did not expect this reaction. Not at all. And he doesn't like this reaction at all. He starts whining and pulls Asher over to him. He starts to rub Asher's chest a bit, hoping it will help. "Breathe....slower Asher or you might pass out." And Shouki doesn't know if he can get Asher to his house. Even though taking Asher to his mother...would probably make his mother hate Shouki more. But whatever that doesn't really matter. "You don't want to pass out here. I don't know if I'd be able to get you to your house....so you need to calm down and breathe normally." He keeps on rubbing Asher's chest, still hoping it will help a bit.

Asher didn't like the tight feeling that was in his chest and how awful he felt about what he had done. Everything was blurry to him though his tears and he didn't know what to do. He felt Shouki pull him towards him and his hand rubbing his chest, but Asher reached and grabbed the hand not wanting to let go of it. He shook his head rapidly when he heard Shouki tell him something about his house. He didn't want to leave Shouki and never see him again. He didn't want that at all. That didn't help him at all with his breathing and it got worse and soon he was blacking out. He was scared and didn't know what to do or how to calm himself down.

"You've got to calm down. Don't worry about anything else right now. If you die on me, that worrying and freaking out was for nothing. So breathe Asher." Shouki is whining a bit, trying to keep himself from worrying/freaking out too. As Asher grabs his hand, he just shifts so he can rub Asher's chest with his other hand. If Asher wants to cling to a hand, he can have it for now. "Don't you black out on me!" It's obvious that Shouki is freaked out....just a lot as Asher starts blacking out. And so he starts trying to drag Asher back towards Asher's place. The whine is now constant and louder now. He can't help it at this point. "I can't come back if you die on me! There'd be no one to come to!"

Asher knew he needed to calm down, but he didn't know how to do that. He wanted to calm down he was scared now of what was happening and he didn't want this to continue. He could hear Shouki's whining now and he didn't want him to whine and he wanted to get better. Asher could even tell that Shouki is beginning to freak out too and he didn't want that. Though once he feels Shouki trying to drag him home he tries to stop him. He didn't want to go home and lose Shouki for good. He tried his hardest to breathe and he was getting some air. He was able to see a little better and he fought against Shouki as he dragged him. "I'm not going home." He coughed up as he tried to breathe too. He wasn't giving up and he wasn't going home and losing Shouki. "I'm not losing my friend!" Asher said loudly as he broke free from Shouki and rolled back on the ground where he laid breathing heavily and sucking in air. He wasn't panicking anymore, but he didn't feel to well.

Shouki essentially ignores what Asher says. Asher needs to go and lay down. He needs to rest after all this...and outside is not the best place for resting. Asher could get sick and that would be Shouki's fault. "I need to get you inside. It'll be easier to breathe there...and be easier to get you help." He's still whining a bit. He pulls Asher back to him after the other kind of rolls away from him. He just starts rubbing his chest a bit. "Then don't say stupid things like that you're not going to eat. You have food. Don't waste that. Eat it." They have excess...compared to Shouki and it kind of pissed him off that Asher was just going to essentially throw that away, even temporarily. If Shouki had the money/food...he wouldn't just stop eating.