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Vincent nuzzles into Jun’s hair a bit in his sleep. The others scent is soothing to him now. He’s having vague dreams? Nightmares? He’s not sure which really. Nothing bad is happening, but they scare him somewhat at the same time. As Jun squirms, Vincent tightens his wrap on him. “Nooo….don’t go.” The nightmare has become a bit clearer and he obviously doesn’t want Jun….or the person in his dream either….to go. “I love you.” He mumbles a bit finishing his sentence/thought.
(Asher works....I'm thinking Shouki for Vincent lol....it's the only name that'll come to me .-. ) |
Jun watched as the dream kept going, but now that person that he thought was him began to change. While some of the facial features still reminded him of himself other things changed. His hair color was no longer that light brown he knew, but an almost black color. His eyes were green and no longer the brown that Jun's were. While the person didn't look like Jun anymore he still felt like it was him. He knew that was a bit ridiculous to think that, but that's what he thought. Jun was a bit frightened by his own thoughts, but he couldn't seem to wake up. He began to mumble some more, but more frantic that he was before. He really just wanted to wake up now.
[Okay, hehe. that works for me. :] ] |
This time, Vincent does wake up, his eyes watering a bit from the nightmare he was having. He was essentially reliving what he calls his “mistake” when he wasn’t able to protect Asher. It just hurts so horribly to remember that. He sees and hears Jun mumbling and all and so he shakes him a bit. “Wake up Jun! It’s just a dream. Wake up!” He’s still halfway wrapped around Jun, trying to wake him up. He isn’t even thinking about the fact that he’s halfway wrapped around the boy and what that might seem like to Jun or others.
(Good deal : D ) |
"I don't understand." Jun mumbled over and over again. He was just trying to break the dream he was having. He finally woke up to someone shaking him. He was breathing heavily when he opened his eyes to see Vincent looking down at him. He could feel Vincent wrapped around him and his face turned red. "Sorry...It was just a really weird dream." Jun said as he turned to squirm free. He felt awkward now. Especially after the dream he just had. He really didn't understand much of what was happening or what that dream really meant.
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“Come on, wake up. It’s okay.” Vincent kind of whines, worried about Jun since he has no idea what’s going on in this dream or whatever. When he wakes up and blushes, Vincent blushes because of it and squirms a way a bit. “S-sorry…..didn’t realize….what I was doing….” He says very quietly with his ears flattened back and his head bowed. He starts fidgeting, picking at his pants. “What happened in the dream? If you don’t mind me asking?” He asks, also very quietly. He’s just a bit embarrassed by what he did when he was asleep….especially since it seemed to bother Jun. “Sorry.” He’s still fidgeting.
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Jun looked down at the ground for a while before he looked back up at Vincent. He knew it was probably just an accident or that was what he was going to continue to tell himself. Jun looked up at Vincent for a while then down at his hands. "Well...I'm not sure how to really explain it....You and I were both in it and we were talking, but I couldn't hear any of the words.....But then....The person that I thought was me changed into someone else.....They kind of looked like me, but only in little ways....I'm sorry if that's confusing....I don't fully understand it myself." He said as he too fidgeted with his hands. He looked up at Vincent and gave him a sheepish smile not liking the feeling in the room at all. He just wanted things to go back to feeling normal.
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It was an accident. Vincent wouldn’t have done that himself if he was awake. Since it could get awkward, like it did. Minus the awkwardness, he liked being that close to Jun though he won’t admit that out loud right now. That would be just a little, or very, creepy.
Vincent’s ears are still flattened back and he’s still fidgeting, but he is listening. “What did…..the other you…..look like?” He had to think of how to phrase that, but since it was Jun….it’s other him. After a moment, he looks up at Jun with sad chibi like eyes since he doesn’t know, because he’s sometimes oblivious, if he’s forgiven for what he did. Even though he did like it, but Jun doesn’t need to know that right now. (Sleep was calling and wouldn't stop....so I passed out lol) |
Jun was still fidgeting with his hands when Vincent asked him to describe the 'other' him. He didn't really know why he wanted to know, but it really couldn't hurt anything, could it? Jun looked up from his hands to Vincent and was a bit surprised to see his sad eyes. He really didn't understand why he was sad. "Well...His hair was an almost black color and it was just a bit longer than my hair now...His eyes were green, but....He kind of look like me in the face not a lot though just little things....It probably all sounds crazy...." Jun said. He returned to fidgeting with his hands, He was seriously confused and he didn't know how to fix it.
[That's okay. I did the same thing once I got back from my morning classes. I was out x.x ] |
As Jun talks, Vincent’s eyes just get sadder and his eyes start watering. He’s describing Asher….or at least that’s what Vincent is seeing. He kind of whines a bit before bowing his head before some tears start to fall. It is his attempt to hide it. He doesn’t want Jun to think it was something he did. It’s not his fault. “It isn’t crazy.” He says very softly, his voice wavering a bit, but he’s trying to keep it steady. “Sounds like someone I remember….” He says even more softly. He rubs his eyes a bit, but tries to make it look like he’s rubbing his forehead…..or anything that doesn’t mean he’s crying.
(Eeeew Class. I'm getting a new phone in the mail after fighting Verizon forever for it >_< ) |
Jun looked up with wide eyes when he heard the whine come from Vincent. "Ah...Did I...Did I say something wrong?" He asked confused as to what was going on. His ears flatten back against his head when he saw Vincent. He really didn't know what had gone wrong. It was just a dream, but it seemed to upset Vincent a lot. Jun reached out slowly and put his hand on Vincent's head. "....It's okay...Please don't be upset..." Jun said softly. He didn't know what was exactly wrong, but he didn't want to see Vincent like this. It made him feel bad as well.
[Lol I hate waiting for things in the mail. It takes forever X.x ] |
“No….you didn’t say anything wrong……..sorry.” Jun hadn’t done anything wrong. Not at all. It’s Vincent’s failure that causes him this pain now. He wasn’t able to protect Asher from everything like he feels like he should have been able to. Since then, it has haunted him even though he’s always tried to push the bad memories and his failure away and tried to keep the good times up front.
Vincent freezes for a moment as he feels the touch, surprised by it. After that moment, he leans into Jun’s touch. “It isn’t your fault. I’m sorry. I….just…..failed someone.” He doesn’t want to go any more in depth than that. If Jun isn’t his reincarnation, if this is just a coincidence, there’s no need to mention the past. And if he is the reincarnation of Asher somehow…..he’ll be remembering soon enough… (My phone is coming through fed ex....but they don't know the difference between front and back doors apparently. And I'm not sure exactly how Vincent screwed up yet D: lol ) |
Jun really doesn't know what's going on, but he didn't want to pry to far. He knew it must have been a touchy topic for Vincent. Jun didn't back away when Vincent leaned into his touch because he knew that Vincent needed someone right now and Jun wasn't one to leave someone. "Well...I wouldn't think they would want you to be upset with yourself about it....Wouldn't they want you to keep living your life..." Jun was just really rambling trying to make Vincent feel better. He didn't know what had happened or how Vincent had failed someone, but Jun knew that if someone had failed him they acted like this he wouldn't have liked it. He would want them to move on and not be upset with themselves. "I'm sorry....about whatever happened..." It was about the only thing he could come up with to say at the moment.
[Oh, wow that's weird lol. We have a little bit of time to figure that out, so no worries yet. ] |
“Well….he isn’t around anymore….” Vincent is openly crying now, quiet, but still crying. “He meant…..so much to me…” He’s halfway curling up on himself wanting to prevent the full out sobbing that wants to start coming out of him. “It isn’t your fault……you didn’t cause what happened to him…..I just…..” And that’s when he finishes curling up into a ball essentially. It’s obvious that he’s bawling pretty much and he starts shaking a bit. It’s the crying getting to him….he can’t keep it in anymore. He hates that he’s crying in front of Jun, but he can’t stop it either.
(Yes we do.....I was either thinking.....Somehow Asher gets killed and Vincent couldn't protect him....or Asher got extremely sick.....which wouldn't be Vincent's fault.....but that doesn't mean Vincent can't blame himself) |
Jun watched as Vincent basically broke down in front of him. He didn't like to watch people cry. It made him feel horrible and then he himself felt like crying. Jun listened to Vincent, but he didn't understand. "Stop!" He said shakily. "If he meant a lot to you then you meant a lot to him as well. I doubt he would want you to blame yourself for all of this. He would want you to be happy..." He said as he shook a bit. He knew his mother had been like this for a long time after his father had died. He grew up with his mother always holding in her feelings, but he could always hear her crying at night. She had blamed herself for the longest time about his father's death. It hadn't been her fault at all. It took a while for him to convince his mother that dad wouldn't have wanted her to cry herself to sleep every night, but to be happy. "If he could see you like this do you think he would be happy?" Jun said as he reached out and hugged Vincent. "You can't blame yourself for these things." Jun whispered.
[Yea, maybe it could have been and accident that happened and Vincent couldn't make it in time to help?] |
Vincent can’t help it anymore. He’s been holding back these emotions for far too long. It’s how he’s always worked-try to hold back the negative emotions and shove them deep down until they die…or something. He just wraps his tail around himself tightly. It’s somehow comforting to him, not that he’s stopping on the crying or anything. “But….it’s hard……being happy without him.” Asher meant everything to him essentially. He still goes on without him….but it isn’t too much of a life. Vincent isn’t going to argue about the Asher would want him to be happy thing. He probably would want Vincent to be happy, but he feels like he doesn’t have a right to that. At the hugging, he immediately nuzzles into Jun’s chest….kind of burying his face in Jun’s chest. Actually, that’s exactly what he’s doing.
(OH! IDEA IDEA! You know if someone is in a bad condition/dead at the hospital....they'll only let relatives and spouses see them. What if Asher got in an accident-in the hospital....but they won't let Vincent see him due to not recognizing gay unions/the family won't let him? -random idea-) |
Jun was bit surprised when Vincent buries his face in his chest. He didn't know how to handle this. Of course he had comforted his mother like this multiple times, but not with another boy. This was something completely new to him. Although it was he knew that the only this he felt was right was to comfort him. He wasn't going to leave him here like this. Jun knew that somewhat he was the cause of this break down. He didn't know how, but he knew that he had some help in it. He held on to Vincent tightly. "It's going to be hard at first....but you have to find something to live for again." Jun whispered into Vincent's hair. He didn't want to see Vincent like this anymore. He missed the Vincent that wagged his tail happily and always seemed to be excited.
[Oh! Good idea! I like it <3] |
Handling a Vincent is about the same as handling a mother. It’s the same situation just with a different gender. Vincent would never blame Jun for this break down. It was bound to happen someday or another and Jun just happened to draw that lucky straw that triggered the breakdown. He just clings to Jun tightly. It helps…..and yet hurts that Jun somehow smells like Asher. It’s comforting, but at the same time reminds him of his failing. In this case, it’s more soothing luckily. So after awhile, he does start to calm down a bit. “S-sorry..” He says, muffled in Jun’s chest and shirt. “Sorry for being like this….” But he still isn’t pulling away. It’s comforting like this and is slowing down his crying. He doesn’t want to let go, but if Jun were to say that he wanted Vincent to……he would…..very reluctantly.
(Yay! :3 Oh and my battery is coming separately.....and it never left Ft Worth TX, but is somehow now in Memphis TN, I think it's a magically package lol) |
"No, it's okay. Really, I don't mind." Jun whispered. He couldn't find the energy to talk louder than a whisper. It may have been that he thought that Vincent might fall apart again if he was too loud. He knew it was a silly thought, but that's how he felt. "Everyone does this. I'm just glad that I can be here to help." Jun said. He really was glad that Vincent wasn't here to do this alone. He had a feeling that if he was he wouldn't be through crying yet. Jun rubbed Vincent's back slowly. He wanted to help him get back to his happy normal self. Well at least the normal self that Jun had meet today.
[Haha, weird. I guess it is a magically package :D] |
incent would be nowhere near done crying if he was alone. Because the second he would be calming down, he’d think of something that would set off the water works again. But he isn’t alone….and so the water works are slowing down. “I’m sorry.” He feels the need to say it again. This experience can’t be too comfortable for Jun, but Vincent couldn’t stop it this time. He starts purring a little bit weakly at the back rubbing. It’s soothing…..just like Jun’s smell. Eventually, he calms down and halfway falls asleep on Jun. “I miss him.” He mumbles a bit. His parents left him before he was an “adult” by normal standards. It hurt, but not as bad as Asher dying. He expected his parents to do that someday. All children need to eventually get out on their own and make their life. But Asher…..that’s a different story.
(Which means I can bring in the parents for extra drama if needed/wanted later lol. And yes, it is a magic package and needs to magically appear at my house........now!) |
"It's alright." Jun said as he continued to rub his back. He knew that Vincent was a least beginning to calm down now. He smiled a bit when he heard a soft purr going from Vincent. It made him happy that Vincent was beginning to feel better. He really hadn't liked that Vincent had been so down. Even though Jun had just meet Vincent it only seemed natural to comfort him like this. It was like there wasn't another option. Jun began to drift off again. He was only vaguely aware of what was going on. He just felt tired now like all this emotional things had been taxing on him.
[Haha, sounds like fun. lol! Maybe you have to say the magic words hehe.] |
If it had been anyone else around, Vincent would’ve probably tried to find a place to hide or be alone to cry like this. He really doesn’t like the idea of anyone seeing him like this, but it isn’t so bad, he guesses, with Jun seeing it. At least he doesn’t think Vincent’s weak or stupid or something for breaking down like this. He nuzzles into Jun’s chest a bit before drifting off kind of like Jun has. “I wish I could have him back….” He doesn’t realize he’s saying things right now. “I loved him so much.” It’s partially muffled. His only family was taken from him….and he couldn’t even be there like he should’ve been.
(ALAKAZAM! ABRA KADABRA! It didn't work .-.) |
Jun could hear Vincent's voice, but he didn't know what was happening, yet again. He was dreaming again, but he could hear the voices. He could hear their voices and one was Vincent's voice, but the other was...him. No, it couldn't be. It didn't even sound like his voice, but he felt like it was his. Why did he dream these things? He didn't understand the meaning. He was a bit surprised when the 'other' him called Vincent, Shouki. Who was Shouki? That was Vincent not someone else was it? "...Shouki..." Jun mumbled as he dreamed. He didn't want to dream these dream because they confused him more than anything. He could deal with the tail and the ears. This...It was something that he didn't understand. It didn't seem like a regular dream. It felt...real in a way like he was watching someone's life without them knowing.
[Awe man, It was worth a try. you were going to go with Shouki for Vincent's other name, right? If not I can go back and edit it.] |
Vincent wakes up at his name being called out a bit. Which gets him to whine softly as he looks around. He was halfway expecting the past to be a dream instead and Asher to still be here considering the dream he was having before he woke up. It was a nasty trick by his mind. And so his eyes water again, but he doesn’t start crying again….at least not yet. He kind of whines again realized that Jun might have said his name. He nudges the other a bit, trying to wake him up. “Jun? Jun. Wake up….” He has no idea why Jun would say his name from back then, but it appears he did since Vincent didn’t hallucinate that. Or at least he hopes so.
(That's the name. And I have the phone now. But they sent me the phone I canceled .-. But I sent it and my screwy phone back. |
Jun could feel someone touching him, but it seemed like the dream was determined to keep him this time. He really didn't understand anything they were saying. It was things that he didn't understand and he had know way of knowing what they meant. Jun mumbled a bit more in his sleep before he woke up in a daze. He didn't know if he was dreaming again or if he had actually woken up. "Uh...Yea?...Vincent?" He asked wanting to be sure that this was were he was at, but it was also partially because he could think right at the moment. That was about the best he could do at the moment. His eyes made things a bit blurry and he couldn't see things perfectly yet.
[Okay :] Oh, that sucks! So is your magical package going to be the right one then?] |
Vincent whines, louder this time, as Jun doesn’t wake up at his attempts. When Jun finally wakes up, he’s watching Jun with worried eyes. “Yeah…..are you okay?” His ears and tail are twitching a bit anxiously. He doesn’t even really like these dreams that Jun is having. He’s kind of pawing at Jun’s face. “Are you alright? What was that….dream…..about?” His ears twitch a bit more. He’s kind of anxious/afraid of what the dream was considering Jun was dreaming of Vincent and all. He’s not back to his happy self, but at least he isn’t bawling his eyes out.
(I got three packages. The wrong phone. The right phone. And a battery for the right phone. So I sent back my broke phone and the wrong phone) |
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