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Jun blinked a bit as he began to regain his vision again. "Yea, I'm alright..." Jun kind of twitches at the feel of Vincent pawing his face. He reaches up and grabs his hand to stop him. He looked away for a bit really not wanting to tell Vincent this time. The last time he had gotten upset and Jun didn't want to see him like that again. While this dream wasn't as nearly as confusing in a way it was still something he didn't understand. He was able to hear them, but it didn't mean he understood them. "Eh, well....Do you...Do you really want to know?" Jun asked looking back up at Vincent. He didn't want Vincent to know if he was going to cry again. Jun didn't want to see Vincent sad again.
[Oh! I get it now. haha sorry had a bit of a moment there. :] ] |
Vincent kind of whines again as Jun stops him from pawing at his face, but he is relieved that Jun’s alright. Weird dreams can mean something is wrong. “Of course I want to know….wouldn’t have asked otherwise.” His ears are drooping as he looks at Jun. “Is there some reason you don’t want me to know?” He asks softly, halfway wrapping his tail around himself. Vincent had always been interested in dreams and what they could be saying. Which in this case is that Jun had a past life. Vincent currently probably doesn’t have too many more tears to cry, if he’s got any that is.
(It's alright....and I now have my env3 : D ) |
Jun sighed a bit not because he was annoyed, but just to relieve himself of any stress the dream had brought with it to him. He just didn't want to hurt Vincent anymore with these dreams he didn't know anything about. They were becoming more like a recurring nightmare that was not all that scary in a horror way, but in a real life way. "No...I just didn't want to make you upset again." Jun said as he looked down at the ground and took a deep breath. "It was basically the same dream at least that was what it looked like. I could hear them now. One of the voices was yours and the other was the other mans." Jun said not wanting to say that he thought or felt like it was him. "Though he didn't say it was you. He called you by another name, so maybe it wasn't you after all. It just sounded and looked a lot like you." Jun looked up at Vincent. "They're just dreams after all. Anything can happen in them, so maybe I'm just having weird dreams." Jun said with a shrug. He knew that it was very unlikely that it was what he had just stated, but he did hope it was like that.
[:D Awesome. ] |
Vincent makes a little whimper like noise at Jun sighs, thinking he might have irritated Jun or something. “Don’t worry about upsetting me. If you do…I’ll get over it.” He listens with his ears at attention and twitching a bit. “Dreams can mean things sometimes. Your brain trying to tell you something, whatever it may be….it could be important. Dreams are times for your brain to work through things in general.” After a pause, he asks, “What did he call me?” He asks very softly with his head bowed. He has a little bit of a hunch that it might be memories instead of weird dream, but he could be completely wrong. He has to know either way though.
(Yep :3 Happy days : D I have a working phone now that doesn't freeze up on me.) |
Jun looked up at Vincent. "Well, I guess that's true, but some dreams can have no true meaning. They are just dreams." Jun said not really talking so much to Vincent, but more to himself to convince himself that they weren't something important to him. He didn't want to have another one of these dreams. "He called you Shouki, at least that's what I heard him say." Jun said just wanting to end this dream for good. while it wasn't likely that he would have the dream again when he went to sleep that night there was still a small chance that it would happen. Jun shook his head a bit trying not to think about it too much.
[Haha, that's always nice :D ] |
“Well, yeah, but what if it’s something important? It might repeat until you figure out whatever it is….or until it is too late or something. Dreams are weird like that sometimes.” Vincent doesn’t mind if he’s talking to himself at this point right now. “He….called me…..Shouki?” His eyes are starting to water again and he works on blinking the water away. He’s not crying and he’s not going to. At least that is what he’s telling himself right now. He doesn’t want to cry anymore right now. It’s embarrassing and can’t be too comfortable for Jun. “….Vincent wasn’t always my name….” He tried to disappear and start over with a new name after what happened.
(Yes it is <3 and I like the texting. You can text from the key pad or flip it open to the qwerty keyboard and text with that....whichever you want to do at the time. I think that's cool) |
"Well....yea, I guess that's true." Jun said slowly. He really didn't want it to be true, but it seemed to be becoming more likely that it was true than not true. "Yes, he called you or at least the person that looked like you Shouki." Jun closed his eyes and reached up to scratch his head. He was really getting a headache from all these dreams. He had never had so much of a problem with dreams as he did now. "What do you mean Vincent wasn't always your name?" Jun said as he closed his eyes tighter he was really getting confused. Did that mean Vincent had changed his name? Why would he even want to do that unless something bad happened?
[Sounds fancy :] haha. My phone is just a simple little touch screen, but it does it's job...<.< sometimes, but I swear it grows legs and runs away from me.] |
Vincent rubs his eyes a bit, trying to make the wateryness go away, which is only halfway working. “Um…..well…..my name used to be Shouki…” His head is bowed, ears and tail twitching a bit anxiously, as he watches Jun out of the corner of his eye. “I…..just wanted to try and start over…..after what happened…..happened. So I changed my name and left…..didn’t want certain people contacting me after all that. It…..would be too painful.” He said softly. Especially after he wasn’t even allowed back there….after that, he didn’t feel as if he had the right to show up at the funeral. He probably wouldn’t be welcome anyway so there was no point in him going anyway.
(Mine isn't a touch screen though.....but some touch screens really suck....so I don't know if I'd want to have only anyway to tell you the truth.) |
"What?! It has to be just dumb luck that the name was used. It can't be that I knew that. That wouldn't make sense, would it?" Jun said as he leaned over and pulled himself into a ball. None of this made sense and it just kept getting worse. "Why are you in my dreams and how do I know about your other name? Who is this Asher and why do I think he's me when I know he's not?" Jun just kept rambling on about all the questions he wanted to know the answer to, but couldn't seem to find them. Vincent seemed to know more about his dreams than he did. How that was even possible was beyond him. Everything seem to be beyond his reach now. "Why....Why? I don't understand a thing." Jun whispered as he hugged his legs to his chest.
[I'm so used to my Ipod touch that I really didn't even look at any of the keyboard types of phones. It just felt so weird to try to use them when I used a friends or my parents phones. So, I mean I like them, but that's just me.] |
Vincent whines softy as he sees Jun turning into a ball. He just pulls Jun over and kind of wraps himself around him essentially. “It could make sense depending on why……some kitsune are reincarnated. Some never remember their life or lives before this…..and I guess if you were reincarnated…..dreams….would be the easiest way to remind you of who you were probably…But I could be wrong…” He says very softly. I loved him…..Asher that is…and….bad things happened….” Vincent doesn’t really want to talk about it after the crying-fest earlier. And if Jun is the reincarnation of Asher…..he’ll know part of it soon enough probably. Vincent whines softly again….he really doesn’t know how to help with this. He’s never dealt with anything like this before, but he’ll try to help. “Of course….it could just be weird dreams and a coincidence….” Though his voice shows he doubts this. It’s highly unlikely that there would be this many similarities, especially when Jun never knew his original name.
(My mother's touch phone....I can't figure out how to call anyone, except to open it and use the qwerty keyboard and stuff to get to her contacts and all. So yeah, hers in an env touch or a chocolate touch.....I'm not sure though.) |
Jun could feel Vincent wrap himself around him, but he didn't really move. He didn't want to believe this. It was a bit too much for him and he just wanted to forget. "But...But I'm not Asher....I'm Jun, my names Jun....Not...Asher." He whispered into his knees. He knew that something deep inside of him disagreed with what he was trying to believe. That was one of the parts that scared him the most. He didn't want any part of him to believe this. It just didn't seem possible to him. "I'm sorry, I'm not Asher. I'm not." He said as he shook his head. He raised his head now when he heard Vincent say it could be a dream. He hadn't really been listening before, but now Vincent kind of began to listen. "Yea, it's just a dream, right Vincent?" He said looking at him with wide eyes. He wanted him to say yes so he could feel normal. He just wanted to feel like Jun again and not someone else.
[That's how the rest of my family is when they try to use my phone haha ^.^ ] |
“Sorry, but there isn’t much to a name. It’s just a quantifier. I’m still Shouki even though my name is Vincent…” Vincent holds him closer. “You are who you are. The name you’re called makes no difference.” Whether it is Asher or Jun, if he’s the same person, he’s the same person. That’s something no one can hide or run from. “I….don’t know if it’s a dream or not…..you want it to be though…” He says the last part kind of sadly with his eyes watering a bit. “And I can’t really blame you….” He can tell how much it’s freaking Jun out…..but he still wishes it isn’t a dream. He’s being selfish and he knows it, but he can’t help it at this point.
(lol I feel not so alone now lol |
Jun sat there huddled up in his little ball looking at Vincent for a while. He had to sit there and think about what had all been said to him. He knew he needed to calm down a bit, but it was all scary to him. "Are you sure I'll still be me and not....and not Asher?" Jun asked Vincent slowly. He really wanted to know if that was true. Could he even be both people or would someone be lost? "What will happen to me? Please tell me Vincent." He said looking up at Vincent with pleading eyes. He really wanted to know what would happen to him.
[Haha ^^] |
Vincent just holds Jun tight, looking worried. “You should still be you. You were you back then. You are you now. You’re just remembering a you before a pause and a restart?” Vincent’s ears twitch a bit. He isn’t sure how to word things to calm Jun down and make everything alright which is all he wants to do at this point. Right now, he cares a lot more about that than if Jun is Asher or Asher is Jun. “Nothing should happen…..besides remembering the past. You’re the same soul you were then….the only difference would be the experiences you’ve had?” Vincent is trying to hide the fact that he’s unsure. He doesn’t know for sure that it is like that, but it feels right so he’s going with it.
(I got a pokemon toy.....in my happy meal OF THE ONE POKEMON I CANT GET IN GAME!) |
Jun listened to Vincent as he talked. It didn't seem to make sense. Asher looked so much strong Jun when he saw him though. It didn't seem like it could be the same person, but maybe it was just the way Asher looked that made him seem that way. Jun truly didn't know yet and he was a bit scared to learn. "Was he like me?" Jun asked wanting to know if things would be the same. He had heard him in his dreams and seen him. He seemed to be nice and he did seem to care a lot about Vincent, but other than that Jun didn't know. He would soon find out when he recovered the memories. He really didn't want to dream though it scared him to watch to know that was him. It was a weird feeling to have watching another you.
[O: What luck, that's kinda messed up though. To get the one you want in the game as a toy. What Pokemon was it?] |
“…you two smell the same…” Vincent says softly. That was exactly what Jun wanted to know, right? Not. Vincent is getting to it, and Vincent doesn’t see Jun as weaker or Asher as stronger or anything. There will always be differences between lives right? No two lives can be exactly the same. “I think so at least….both of you…..I’m happier to be around than others….” Vincent doesn’t really know what to say. How can he describe Asher? He just was in Vincent’s mind. “Um…..I don’t know what to tell you….” His ears droop and twitch a bit. He looks a bit confused in a way. He wants to tell him more about Asher, but doesn’t know how to say it or anything.
(It's Zekrom....you can only get him in Pokemon White....and I have Pokemon Black .-.) |
Jun was a bit disappointed, but not a Vincent. It wasn't his fault or anything of the sort. He had just gotten his hopes up a bit and he should have know that he may not get the full answer he wanted. "It's okay. If what you say is true I'll find out, right?" Jun said as he looked at Vincent and smiled. It wasn't a very good smile, but it was the only thing he could do. He was just not in the smiling mood. "How did you meet Asher?" Jun asked. It felt a bit weird to refer to himself as a different name, but he couldn't say 'How did you meet me?' that wouldn't be the right question. He wanted to learn at least something from someone and not a dream/memory.
[Ah, man. I hate when there are certain Pokemon you can't get unless you have the right game for it. I always want on that isn't in the game I have -.- It makes me mad sometimes.] |
Vincent whines softly at the weak smiles, with his ears twitching. “I’m sorry.” He’s not sure what he’s saying sorry for: the fact that he’s a reincarnation, that Vincent doesn’t know how to answer things, or what happened in his past life. “Well….we happened to go through…..I guess you could call it puberty?...at the same time. So we were both kind of lost as to what the hell was going on. Suddenly have the ears and tail……just a little bit shocking. We just happened to run into each other as we’re trying to sneak around and hide until we can figure it out pretty much. It was weird.” It’s a simple version, but so what? Vincent doesn’t want to tell an epic and…Jun probably doesn’t want to hear one. Vincent just tells all that, still halfway wrapped around Jun.
(I kinda changed the story....if you noticed lol. And I hate that too, but I do have Victini : D) |
Jun was a bit surprised when Vincent apologized. "It's okay, really." Jun said not really knowing what else he could say to that. He didn't quite understand why Vincent was apologizing. It wasn't his fault or Jun didn't think it was. "Really? Then you or we, whatever you want to call it met in the same way? That's odd, but neat in the same way." Jun said as he got a bit frustrated in how he wanted to refer to things. It was just that everything seemed to sound either wrong or right and he couldn't decide. "You were just as confused as I was then?" Jun asked because he figured Vincent had been raised around people like himself.
[You did? O.o How did you change it? I must not have been paying attention or your going to tell me and I'm going to feel stupid because I knew it. <.< It's one of the two, haha.] |
“….you sure?” Vincent’s ears twitch a bit. “Yeah.” He can’t help but chuckle a bit at Jun’s frustration. “Sort of….except I was going through the same thing at the same time.” He can’t blame Jun for being frustrated. He’d probably be about the same way. But he doesn’t exactly know how Jun feels. He’s never had to go through the reincarnation thing. “Yeah….I didn’t have anyone to help me through it until I found Asher….then….we were lost together I guess you could say….” He smiles softly remembering those times. “My family wasn’t….around at the time.” He doesn’t want to mention that they kicked him out. It was time he grew up and made it on his own by their standards.
(That he wasn't alone in his "puberty" originally he wasn't gonna be.....I might not have said it that clearly though so lol) |
Jun nodded to say it was okay and he didn't mind it at all. He frowned a bit when Vincent laughed at him, but after a few moments he couldn't help, but smile. He knew he must have sounded weird as he tried to explain or ask thing. He couldn't help, but admit it must had sounded like he was dealing with something serious, but it was only a matter of tenses. "So, Asher was your family? Did he have a family; do I have a family?" He asked a bit curious to know whether Vincent knew if there was someone out there that knew more about him or his other self. Jun was still a bit confused as to what to refer to it as.
[Oh, I think you mentioned it early on a few times I just have a horrible memory and forgot X.x haha] |
“Yeah….he was my family….he was my everything.” Vincent says, obviously thinking back on it. “He had a family…..you do…..whichever….except I cut contact with them…..because of….” He just shakes his head. “Let’s just say what they did was horrible. So very wrong.” His eyes look incredibly sad as he thinks back now, but he isn’t crying which is always good. He wishes he could’ve been there….although….it would have hurt so very badly, but hopefully not as bad as everything since then. “But…they were good to Asher either way…but they were very secretive….he wasn’t a full-blooded kitsune….so they hid that part of their lives from him. I think…..they hoped that since he wasn’t full-blooded that he would never go through it….so he knew nothing of it either when it happened really.”
(Well that's okay! Cause I changed it! : D ) |
Jun blinked for a bit as Vincent explained things to him. He felt weird that he was someone or used to be someone that Vincent loved. He hadn't known that when he met Jun and he hadn't known that when he came. It must have been a lot on Vincent to know, who Jun was and not have him know who he was. "They didn't like you?" Jun said a bit surprised that they wouldn't. He decided not to ask why. Vincent didn't seem to want to tell at the moment. "So, this is the second time I'm going through something like this, but this time you aren't going through it with me?" Jun asked as he tried to piece together the things he wanted to say.
[Haha, well I guess it works out then ^.^] |
To have him back and for him to not know who he is….is better than not having him at all in Vincent’s mind. You take what you can get. You rarely get even anything as good as that. “Ah….they didn’t like me for certain……lifestyle choices.” And, in their minds, dragging their son into these morally corrupt lifestyle choices. Though, for some reason, they never held it against Asher and so Vincent just dealt with their dislike/hatred. Long as they didn’t abandon Asher, he would go on with it. “Yeah. This is the second time pretty much. And I can’t go through it again. I’ve already done it….and…” He didn’t pass away….but Jun/Asher did.
(Exactly my point -nod nod- it all works out in the end :3) |
"Oh, I'm sorry." Jun said though he wasn't really sure why he was apologizing for his other family when he didn't know them. He just felt like it was something he should have done. They seemed to have done something to Vincent that bothered him and Jun didn't like it. He didn't wander what they had done to Vincent, but he wasn't willing to ask. It wasn't like it was going to be a secret for that much longer. "Will I have to visit them when I regain my memory?" Jun asked softly not really wanting to see them, but he was a bit curious as to who they were. Jun looked up at Vincent nodded. "Yea, I guess that's true, but I guess you're here to help again though." Jun said with a little smile.
[*Nods* Mhmm, so on with the story! ^.^] |
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