I laughed lightly. It seemed strange for her to be happy, but I wished my efforts had worked, then I would be happy too. "I tried" I whispered. There was nothing I could do now. We were nearly back in the same spot we had left from. We got lower and lower until we lightly touched the ground. I sighed and leaned back, looking around. The sun was getting further down the horizon and the sky was nearly fully orange. It felt weird to be back in the same spot. The feeling was drained and the school felt too farmiliar to be comforting. School felt so ordinary now, so unimportant. All we were going to do was wait for the day I changed. My skin was still hot, but the cool breeze kissed my skin. I moved my leg, fascinated by how she had healed it and looked at her with a small smile. My eyes searched hers.

I let go of him and backed away until I leaned against the wall. I was tired; not because of James, but of my painful phase. It wasn't painful now just tiring. I looked around and stepped up off the wall and phased back into my human form. My wings went back in with a little pain and eyes probably melted to my usual color. I smiled at james and leaned back onto the wall and this time I leaned my head back with my eyes closed. It felt so good to back on land, human nature land. I stayed there breathing in and out. It wasn't even the new day yet; great, that means we have to go to school tomorrow. I took a sigh in and out and almost went into dream and thought mode.

I watched her wings disappear, noticing again her small wince as it happened. I walked over, leaning back against the wall next to her. "Does it hurt.. to phase?" I asked quietly, concerned. I shouldn't have made her take me. I folded my arms and looked around at the grass and trees which appeared to darken quickly. I frowned, thinking about how being here was just a waiting game. We were never going to be completely happy, because we knew how it's all going to end.

I smiled as i had my eyes closed. I heard his questioned and opened my eyes to look at him. He was right next to me and I saw his worry. "Not really..." my eyebrows went down in the middle as I was trying to take in his emotions. I sighed and leaned off the wall and folded my arms. "Can we please continue with our lives...and forget this nonsense?" I asked, more demanding actually. I didn't want to be a burden over his life. He was going to change and I would have to leave and we all would have to find a way to deal with it. Same with me. I let go of my arms and sighed again. I mean I was the angel; I could have stopped this any time by not flying; but I was selfish, and all I wanted was to live...and I had just realized that right now...

I looked over to her hearing her sigh. "How?" I asked "You can't just pretend it's not going to happen". I pushed myself off the wall and walked a few steps away, my hands traveling through my hair and locking behind my head. This was so messed up. I'd always known my life was messed up. But knowing you're going to change into something, causing a girl you really really like, to die, it's beyond messed up. Did she just expect us to go to school and act normal, forgetting everything?!

I groaned and irritated groan. I crossed my arms. "It would have just been better if I hadn't even told you..." I was really mad because now that I had told him he's getting hurt and I never had been a sadist and never will I be. "Now look where we are?" I walked past him and turned around to face him. "If you would really care for me...you would do this for me..." I slowly backed out of the place waling backwards slowly. I knew what I was doing, if someone was going to bring me down I was going to bring me up again. James was one person who went up with me and now he's the one who cares and likes me so much he'll go to extremes for it. I stopped and waited for him to give into it...

Girls were confusing already without all this angel nonsense. Of course I'd do anything if she wanted me to. What else was there to do? I realised that maybe if she hadn't told me and even though before I had protested, It might have been better if she hadn't told me. But I couldn't take the thought of Anna suffering and not speaking up, which cancelled it out. I looked down. My eyes glanced back up watching her slowly back away and I couldn't help but give a small smile. It was nearly dark and getting colder by the second. She knew I cared about her; I exhaled. I walked slowly towards her in sync with her footsteps and grabbed her hand as I was close.

I backed away from him pulling my hands into folding my arms. "Don't get all sweet with me when I ask you do to something, just to find your way out..." I said with my normal tone now. I looked at him with mad eyes. I watched his innocent face with a small smile and couldn't help but laugh and smile at him. I let go of my arms and sighed leaving all my laughter but a few giggles. "We better get going if don't want to get in trouble..which reminds me..." I looked past him and then back at him. I smiled at his face which never deceived me. That day when he ran to me was because he had done something...something he was still hiding...something he did that made him rush...I smiled at him making sure none of my thoughts came out of my mind...

I looked at her confused. "You're really confusing, you know that?" I grinned. "And why are you all bothered about getting into trouble at school, now?". I stepped closer to her and put my hands on her waist, pulling her slightly closer. It felt weird coming back to reality and I wasn't sure I was fully aware anymore. I just focused on Anna, absorbing as much of her company as I could.

I looked down and away. "I'm not confusing...just hard to get sometimes..." I looked up and smiled. I groaned at the school thing he had just said. "There you go again...James. I want my life back as is before I have to leave it...forever..." I wanted to have it normal and the way I always dreamed of. I wanted people who care for me...around me. And that case, James was supposed to be the healer of this life. He was the one who took on my secret and hid it. He was the one who went all this pain just for a girl like me. And then that made me feel a little selfish of my own happiness. I looked at him again. "Actually..." I thought about what I was going to say and it never came out...

I nodded as she said said she wanted her life back to normal. I understood, and just like me wanting to make the most of this time, I should help her enjoy her's too. I held my hands together behind her waist. She started to say something and then stopped. I shook my head when it became silent, "What?". She must know she was being stubborn and confusing now. But I didn't want to argue; I would just go with whatever she said.

I smiled at his sensitivity. "You are very sweet." I smiled with all my heart. I wanted to do have fun; enjoy; relax these last...few days of my life. I noticed how dark it was getting and I didn't want to leave this place. Its where we met a few time and we had fun and it was a connection to my previous life. I was trying to make the most fun out of this; Next I would probably try to spend all my money and do things have never done before. Take risks; let loose. Like school. I sighed and looked at the wall behind him,

I noticed her sigh my face became sad. I thought for a while, wondering what we could do to take our minds off of this. "Come on" I said, my voice deeper "What do you want to do?". My eyebrows raised "Anything". I took a deep breath and looked at her sincerely with a crooked smile. I looked around at the darkened school. We would be in trouble for being out here if someone saw us, which made me smile even more. I watched her lips as I listened to the breeze and the distant noises.

I listened to what he said and went in some what of a surprise. I wanted to do many things; ineffable things at the moment. And I didn't want James to have to do it with me; I mean he was going to live after I die but he wasn't going to be James anymore; a creature the head had chosen. The thought made me wonder. I smiled and watched his eyes. I looked at James and leaned in making my lips move closer, giving him a soft kiss with all I could give. A kiss like no other; one that would hopefully last forever. Making myself do one of the things I wanted to do right now. I moved my lips with his giving him my cold breath which now was way different than before. I leaned away softly and answer his question. "Things I have not done before..." I laughed at myself and my creativity at the moment.

I watched her think and when she leaned in closer, realised what she was going to do. Her soft lips touched mine and it was hard to respond immediately. My body relaxed all tense muscles and melted. My hands went flat against her back holding her close to me. Her lips moved with mine and my eyes closed, my head starting to spin. When she pulled away I exhaled. I smield at her comment, but didn't give her any more time to speak. I dipped my head again, kissing her without restraint. I pulled back again and cleared my throat. "Hm" I said under my breath, but with no attention to what we were saying, kissing her again with a laugh.

I watched as he took in my foolish comment; He kissed me right when I had let go and I couldn't help but smile, his lips asking for more. He leaned back softly and I laughed. And without a second to spare he kissed me again. Guess this was first to do on the list; thats why he wouldn't let me speak in between. I put my hands lightly on his shoulders and hoped I could stay there forever. I closed my eyes and enjoyed as much of this as I could. After all, the key to happiness is with someone who cares for you and happiness. Although what James had said about not going to school, I kind of agreed with that now because one of the many things I wanted to do was skip school and stares from people. There was many things that could be classified here. I pushed them aside at the moment.

It was hard to concentrate whilst kissing her. But I thought about how much better this was than the other girls I have kissed. I remembered the self-centred girls and how kissing them didn't mean a thing. Kissing Anna, however, meant everything. There was so much between us, and we actually connected. I should have felt bad for interupting her but I couldn't feel guilt as distracted as I was. She was right though. Instead of sitting around waiting for it to happen, we had to do what we want. I didn't know what it was going to be like after I changed, but I doubted I would be much the same. By then, Anna will have gone and we should have spent our time doing things we enjoy. Things we have never done before; together. Reluctantly, I pulled away, letting her cool taste linger on my lips. "Are you tired, or do you want to do something now?" I asked, my voice deep but quiet. The darkness made everything more thrilling; even kissing. I wondered what Anna was thinking of doing.

I blinked at the floor. I wanted to do so many things but it was just not the time right now. I grinned and looked up at him. "I don't know for sure...how about you?" I could use sleep because I hadn't gotten any in the last night. I was too busy ruining my life. My grin faded at that thought. And then my instincts let out a yawn and I covered my mouth and laughed under my hand. I let go and sighed. "Guess I am tired." I shrugged. I don't want to waste my life sleeping, but it is life.... All that phasing and the head. Watching James defend me and getting all emotional. I smiled at him and I felt a wave of guilt having him here; wasting his life. I

I laughed at her yawn. I knew she would be tired after all that had happened; I was too. I smiled a warm smile. "Yeah, same.." I said quietly, looking deep into her eyes. If only there was a way to save her from this awful fate. I thought about how it must feel for her. "Your going to go back to your room then?" I asked, becoming embarrassed and feeling so stupid. "I guess.. I should go back to mine?" I said it like a question, quietly. I didn't want her to feel like she couldn't get any privacy or that I was forcing her to let me go wherever she was. I felt quite clingy when I thought that, but I couldn't help the urge to want to be with her. Seperating now, going back to our dorms like normal, would feel really strange for me; after all that's happened.

I wiped my laugh off and thought about what he said. Leave? I looked at him as he spoke the words he tried his best to get out. "I don't want you to leave...but you can go back if you'd like, I mean I can't be a burden over your life..." I thought I was. And I wanted to stop it. Maybe having a night away from each other will make things...better? I flinched at the thought of being alone in my room; having the definition of life complete. Just living in there knowing what exactly will happen next and what to fear. So lets revive. No? That was the best idea I could think of, live my hopes and dreams as much as I could and one of them included James now. I thought in deep thought looking down at the floor, sounded like he didn't want to leave either. I mean I wanted him to stay but I have to be a normal person; live my life to its fullest. I sighed ever so quietly to my self. Life's to short to have restrictions...

I smiled as she said she didn't want me to go, but it was soon lost when she thought she was a burden over your life. My eyebrows pulled together in protest. "You're not a burden" I said with disbelief. I laughed once "You're the opposite" I said as I leaned slightly closer to her, looking her in the eyes. "And.. I can't leave you" I grinned. "Today's been too weird" I added, though that wasn't the main reason I couldn't just go off without her now. And in the back of my mind was always going to be the feeling that I could change at anytime; which makes me regret any time I would spend away from her.

I smiled my smile made for James and exhaled. "It would be hard to huh?" I said knowing the answer all ready. And if we were to go back to my dorm wouldn't the teachers or students notice? But this is the ending days of my life; might as well be the bad girl. I laughed and grabbed his hand, pulling him out of the place and into the soft, breezy, air. "Then come...I can't leave a piece of my life away from me..." I said as we left out. i didn't care of this death; I mean I was having the most fun of my life now than I have ever had. I never had someone who wanted to stay with me, and like it. Never had someone outside of my family who is ever so caring. I looked into his eyes, deeply. Smoldering.

I nodded; she felt the same way as me. It would be hard to carry on and part from eachother. Even over little things like sleeping. This made me laugh a little. I grinned as she took my hand from behind her back and we started walking. When she spoke, her words made me feel warmer inside. I was shocked at the realisation that we were each a big part of eachothers lives. I thought about how empty my life would be without her, even though we haven't known eachother long, and my face went blank. I looked over at her and melted beneath her gaze. The corners of my lips pulled my mouth into a smile again. She could make me happy just by smiling at me; I felt helpless. I looked forward seeing where we were going, "Are we going to you room?" I asked still smiling cheekily.

I walked by his side now; smiling. "Um, wherever..." right now anywhere was fine as long as we were together. My room would be fine because we had been there before but I didn't want to pull him into all the girls dorm and having girls all over him, and his dorm would be good as well because he probably feel more comfortable there and not all the guys would be all over me but me going into the boys dorm, didn't mix as well. I was open to anything at the moment. I looked up at him smiling warmly "Wherever you want to go..." we walked together in the cold night. I had remembered my life before James, I was always moping and tired and never did anything but hide and do school work. I was like an unread book, until James came along and read me. Now I am a person; one with a life, which will can be completed with James.

I looked up at the sky seeing the stars start to peek out between the clouds. I looked back at her after glancing in the direction of the boy's dorm. "We could go to mine?" I said with a smile. I had already been in her room, and the idea of her in mine was a great feeling. Maybe it was a boy thing.. We kept walking and it was hard not to keep looking at her.