I heard him laugh more and I felt really nice at the moment. We reached to the parking lot,and to my car. Easy to find of how sleek and black it was. I had to say, it was a little too much for school purposes, but whatever. I wanted to keep what my dad had given me. James got into the drivers seat and I slid into the other side. The cars heat making my body sooth against the somewhat chill outside. Had I never been this happy? this grateful? James was the key to my happiness. and I wasn't afraid to say no to it. I leaned back as the leather slid with my bare thighs, and my back touching the seat. I looked over at James and grinned, I would pull out my seat belt but It didn't matter. I looked out the window and saw a few people also heading out, just a few.

I looked over to her and she was grinning, automatically sending a smile to my face again and never leaving. I started the car and put my seat belt on, reversing out of the spot and driving through the parking lot. I glanced at her and said "Do you really trust me that much?" with a laugh, eyeing her seatbelt still hung at the side of the car untouched. I wouldn't let her take risks before our time was up. I'd hate myself if any damage came to her, even with the fate she had. I realised how contradictive I was thinking, as I had been taking big risks before I met her. My mind wandered to when I used to live in Jacksonville and the times I'd put myself in danger. I pushed down on the accelerator feeling free and happy, pulling out onto the road and driving in the direction of the train station.

He smiled over at me and asked me something. I laughed small and said to him..."Yes I do. Like you are my Guardian Angel." I emphasized on the 'my' and smiled looking out the window, cars passed by and I felt the train station get closer, even though I had never went there. Neither did I ever go to Jacksonville, but I heard it was sunny and pretty. And no wonder James was from there. So I was going to see his family, i imagined an image playing in my head, us walking in through the door and his family running up to hug James, telling him how much they had missed him. And then they would turn to me and welcome me in, like we all liked each other. And I liked James, a little too much. But his family could see me differently as I would too, depending on how they were to react to James and his visit. I looked over at James, smoldering his face, as long as I knew he liked me I would survive.

"I find it hard to see myself as an Angel" I laughed at her comment. She hadn't known me when I acted so horribly towards people, and I was glad of that. I liked that she trusted me, even if it was doing something I didn't approve of. I was concentrating on the road, trying to keep as safe as possible for Anna's sake, so my eyes stayed forward. I tried not to think about where we were going, so I wouldn't start to change my mind again.

I laughed lightly, my voice ringing again..."Well, I do." and I looked out the window. The scenery moving like a screen, not enough time to look at one. He seemed like he was concentrating on the road, and trying to keep me safe because I didn't want to wear a seat belt. And I trusted him, and if I were to die, I'd rather this way. I watched cars speed by just like the scenery and the lines on the road get closer to us then back...closer and then back. I looked at everything outside the window, how the trees leaned down over the road, how cars slowed down, people crossing the streets. It was typical life, and then comes my life. The one where I have James, a supporting partner and likes me very much, and me...a girl who had to ruin it all. I blinked blankly out the window and then looked back at the road, watching the patterns change here and there.

"Right" I replied, a smile in my voice. Everytime she said something like that, I felt more warm and happy inside. Even if she said she could see me as being an angel, something about it sounded completely ridiculous. I looked down at the radio in the car, examining how it worked, and then switched it on. I flicked through some of the stations until I found some music playing and then put my hand back on the wheel. I drove down a couple more streets, knowing exactly the way to the train station and arrived on the road.

I smiled and continued to look out the window. Music started to play from a radio station and I glanced at James and then back out the window. He went down more streets, he probably knew where we were going but I didn't. I leaned up front, looking out the front window, Still didn't know where we were. "How far away is it?" I said looking reluctantly from the window to him. If a train station in the city was far away, Jacksonville would be much further, but as long as we knew where we were going...it was all good. I looked at him with curiosity.

I looked over to her and then out the front window again and pointed, "Just over there" I said. "It's the next turn off" I added, seeing the station get closer and closer. When we reached it, I turned the car into the bay and off into the carpark. We wouldn't be gone long and it was free to leave your car there for just a day, which pleased me as I didn't have to use Anna's money for anything more than the train. I parked the car and switched the radio off before cutting the engine.

I looked back at the road until we parked into the train station park. I looked at the station, looked familiar. James shut the radio and the engine. And I got out, the wind whipped my hair to the side and I looked at the train station, like it had a connection with me. I shut the door and walked a little further, trying to get a better look, how could I? I don't even remember coming here, but a wave of deja vu had hit me. I looked back at James reluctantly from the train station.

I raised my eyebrows at Anna when I stepped out the car and shut the door, as she was staring at the station as if she was thinking. She looked back at me and I wrapped my arm around her waist, giving her a smile and walking towards the station door. Inside, there were lots more people walking about. I looked around for a ticket stand, feeling bad once again that I wasn't the one going to pay. I hoped that it wasn't too much, or it would make me feel worse.

I looked back at James and he shut the door coming up to me, his arm holding me with a smile. I looked back at the train station as we head toward it. As we were about to get in, I looked up at the little plaque. And I looked into the train station, and once we got in further, a lot of people moved here and there, busy. I looked up at James and he was looking for where to go. I strangely remembered, where the ticket stand was. I took his hand, interlocking our fingers, and led him behind my back, to where I knew it was. I squished through people, not loosening my grip on him, and to the stand. There was a line, and I squinted. I looked back at James, looking up to his face. "Found it." and smiled.

She took my hand and started moving through the crowd. There were many people on this side of the building and I had to dodge around them to get through. She reached a point and stopped, turning back to me with a smile. "Hm, Clever" I replied, wondering how she knew where it was. It was quite hidden from where we were stood, but I guessed she'd seen a sign for it or the queue of people. It wasn't a big line; but we'd have to wait a few minutes. I looked up at the boards above us, showing train times and waited until I saw Jacksonville come up. The train was scheduled to arrive on the hour, so we only had twenty minutes to wait, which wasn't too bad. "Twenty minutes" I said to Anna, still looking at the board, incase she didn't see before it flickered off the screen.

I looked behind him when he had said something. I saw people run onto the trains as some of the calls were being called, the trains screeching against the tracks, the person on the speaker... and it made me blink twice. James looked up to the listings and told me we only had twenty minutes, and I looked up at the board with him. It said Jacksonville, and we would leave right on the hour. It wasn't that long of a time, and the line was not as long. I looked at the ticket person, as they exchanged the ticket for cash with the other person...I couldn't stop looking. I pulled away, trying my best and then back to James. "Twenty Minutes." I said again.

I looked back down at Anna when Jacksonville disappeared off the screen. Her expression looked slightly distracted and I looked at her closely as she was looking away. She repeated what I had said and I wondered if she had a problem with it. "Is that alright?" I asked, looking into her thoughtful eyes with curiosity. I moved forward after a glance at the queue, seeing it had moved up a place, still holding onto Anna's hand. I would be more than happy not to go if she thought it was too long to wait, or was having second thoughts about going. Though I was determined to go with what I should do.

I looked back at him, his eyes curious, and something he had said made me frown. "Of course it is." I sounded like a little child, we moved up a bit. It was most definitely all right for us to wait twenty minutes...And why would I be impatient? James had to see his family, and for some strange reason I wanted to as well. But I had a guilt of how he didn't see my parents, and maybe I was the one who stood in front of it. I squished against James when some people walked by us, and I looked at where they had come from, a train of course. I looked back at the ticket stand and waiting for our turn. I looked back up at James and smiled, to tell him I was all right.

I smiled at her reply, knowing she would always agree with what I wanted to do. I hoped she didn't feel as though she needed to, to keep my happy. I shuffled along more, like the others infront, who were now at the desk buying their tickets. They moved along quickly and Anna and I approched the desk. "Two tickets to Jacksonville, please" I said to the woman sat behind a computer. I looked at Anna when she replied with the amount of money it would cost. It wasn't too much, but it was still what I had expected. I felt bad for her having to pay for it. She didn't need to go, and neither did I in my opinion. On the other hand, it was something we could do together, and Jacksonville was a nice place for a day out.

I waited for the line to move up. We moved slowly but we got there after a while. James asked for the tickets and she responded with the amount it would take to get there and for the tickets. I reached into my mini pocket of my skirt, and took out the cash, trying to keep them from all falling out. I handed them to the woman and she exchanged them for two tickets. I took them and told her "Thank you" and turned to head out of the line and ticket stand. I glanced up at the clock, not much time left. I heard people talk and I could barely focus on anything. But nothing was to focus on, I gave James his ticket, and walked slowly and aimlessly around the train station.

My eyebrows raised when I watched Anna take out the money from her pocket, seeing she had quite a lot. The woman exchanged it for two tickets, which Anna passed me one. She started to walk around the train station but I veered her to a bench with her hand. I put her hand in both of mine in my lap and faced her. "Have you ever been to Jacksonville?" I asked. I realised I didn't know much about where she had been before and I was intrigued. I guessed because of her parents that she would get to travel around much.

James pulled me to a bench and put my hand in both of his, resting on his lap. He asked me something, and I could see how you would say though. I had been to a lot of places but I don't remember going to Jacksonville. I shook my head with a no..."I've been out of state a lot, and to Miami..never Jacksonville..."Yeah that was about right, we traveled out of state a lot. We liked the sights we would see, it was also good family trips. I wondered how Jacksonville was like...it was probably hot, and humid. But i wanted to know about the people and towns. "What's it like?" I said my voice small...

I didn't expect her to have been to Jacksonville for some reason. "It's nice actually" I replied, trying to ignore how her voice sounded a little off "Of course, I didn't see that when I was there" I laughed once, looking away "I hated it. But now I think about it, it is really good". I looked back to her. "Their house is right next to the train station anyway" I said, wondering afterwards if it was a bad thing to not consider it my own house anymore. I didn't feel any part of me belonging there, and I was pretty much seperate from them, so I suppose it was right.

I listened to him closely, he said it was nice but he hated it. And now he thought it was really good. "I heard it is nice." I could see what he was trying to say. He laughed and looked away. And said something that made me say the sentence again in my head. Something about it seemed off... "You mean your house...?" I said, slightly confused. Family is family, and at least he was grateful to have one. I would love to go home and have my parents remember me. His house was close to the train station, that made me think of everything being set. I hoped they would be nice to James, and nothing about me at the moment. Which made me think that if I went their attention would go to me. And I did not want that.

I looked in her eyes when she mentioned what I had said and blinked "Uh, yeah". I didn't mean to be insensitive. I realised that what I had said could be seen as being selfish for what I had. She didn't have a house to go back to with her family, but I did. I nodded with an apologetic look. To be honest with myself, I didn't know how I was fooling myself to believe this was going to go well. It wasn't as if we were going to have a great time with my mother and brother.. and as for my dad, well I had no idea where he'd be. The reasons behind not going were clouding over my vision and I tried to push them away.

I heard his reply and his apologetic look and his nod, as in response to my question. He seemed to be thinking about something, or so his face showed. My other hand went on top of both of his and said "Your family missed you, they'll be happy to see you." and when it came from my mouth, it seemed like the hard core truth, not knowing if it was or not. Every family has a bond and for some reason, after all the years James had left and went to the boarding school, I think they had missed him. They can't not miss him. My parents would have missed me, and I would have known it if they weren't...mental. I looked behind him to the clock, and it was about time to head to the train, I looked back at James.

I looked up at her. I suspected she thought my family were close and would be sad for me to not be there. I knew how unreal it sounded, from in Anna's voice I failed to protest. "Right" with a nod was all I could reply. I'd just have to brave it and see what comes out of today. I hadn't talked to them in a very long time, which made me wonder how different my brother might look now. I saw her look above me at the clock and I turned to look too, seeing it was a few minutes to the hour. A few seconds after I looked back however, the train was pulling into the station. I stood up, holding her hand with just one of mine and slid out the ticket from my back pocket.

His reply was something I hadn't seen coming. I toke it anyway. He turned around to look at the clock as well and a the train had pulled in. He got up just as I did and I took my ticket out as well. I walked side by side with him and head to the door of the train. I saw some people walk in with us. I pulled myself in, and James right behind my back. I got in and it was quite empty but it would get full later; the train had just pulled in. I pulled us in further and looked around me; that same sense of seen before, ran over me. The flashback hit my head with my mom and my dad...and I. My eyebrows pulled together and I looked up at James, and asked him "Have yo been here before?"