Metza sighed heavily as she felt his emotions and knew what was wrong. She shook her head slowly thinking of what she was going to say. "Hako... Do you remember how I acted those first two or three days?... That's how I acted and worse with everyone else... No one could yell at me and make me tremble and think like you did... No one cared... But I'm glad you acted the way you did when I was acting in that way... I'm glad you ignored me for almost that whole day... No one else could have done that... They didn't have the pasionce to..." she said softly and slowly got to her feet walking over to Hako and pulling her arms around him ignoring the pain. "cut it out with the bad upsetting attitude... It gives me a headache!" she said laughing a little though truly wanted him not to be so upset... She didn't see any need for it.

( XD it's all good I enjoyed reading it X3 )

He looked at her then tried to smile. Deep down, he was still thinking about everything that was wrong and bad about him, but he knew she was in pain coming over to him, and if she wanted him to be happy the least he could do was act it. "I'm sorry Metza, I just...had a moment." He picked her up, not wanting her to walk much until she had at least food and something for the pain. He really did feel for her, every tiny little thing she did made him want to smile and he admired even the tiniest things about her body. Her shape amazed him, and her eyes made him feel safe. He sat her down at the table in the kitchen and kissed her, still thinking about how much she was to him.

Metza smiled under Hako's lips kissing him back softly but pasionantly as she rapped her arms around his neck ignoring her pain easily. Ow she loved him alright though she felt a bit of guilt about how much she loved him... She knew even now that those feelings were wrong even though she was free now.

Hako started taking things out the fridge and turned on the oven, then noticed her less then happy look. He stood behind her and put his arms around her and kissed her neck. "Metza...you can say anything to me. Anything you think or feel or want, just say. Please...I wont understand otherwise." He hated admitting he knew so little about people that he wouldn't be able to tell what was wrong or what she was feeling without her telling him, but maybe she might actually listen to him, and then he might be able to learn.

Metza blushed slightly at this and shook her head. "It's wrong... It's wrong for me to feel, think, or even say... I don't think you could understand it... I... I don't truly know how to explain either..." she murmured softly as she looked down slightly ashamed of herself for thinking of it... for wanting it....

Hako put a hand on her shoulder and sighed. "Metza, If you've already felt it or thought it, just try and tell me. Even if you can't really find the words, try." He looked at her, worried about what she thought could really be that bad that she shouldn't even feel it or think it even now she was free. "I'm worried about you now, please." He ran a hand through his hair a few times, shaking his head.

Metza's face turned an even brighter red as she thought. "Um... well... uh... it... I... I've never... uh... felt it... willingly... it wasn't what I wanted at the time... uh... it... I... um... I really really can't explain it... It's something you learn not... something you're told." she murmured her face seeming to get even redder as she spoke.

Hako didn't like the way Metza was talking. "What wasn't what you wanted? Metza, please slow down. Look at me." He was looking into her eyes, his face calm. "Deep breath and start again. I'm listening, you don't have to try and say everything at once." He wasn't sure if what she was trying to tell him was bad or not, but either way he wouldn't have even a chance at understanding unless she tried to help him.

"I... I didn't want what a lot of the other female slaves wanted and were used for..." Metza murmured softly as her face cooled slightly as she gazed into his eyes.

"Metza, I don't know what you're talking about...and I can't understand why you would be thinking and feeling something to do with something you didn't want to be used for. Whatever you say, I won't mind I just want to understand." Hako was really starting to worry now, he could only thing of bad things that others would be used for, but then why would she be thinking about it if it was really that bad?

Metza held her timples for a moment thinking. "Well... That's not exactly what I was thinking... What I meant... Was the feelings you get with that... Though I was thinking... The nonforceful way... That... Would be a deeper form of love..." shd murmured quietly as she looked away her face turning a little red again.

Hako felt like he couldn't ask Metza again to be clearer, not without her getting frustrated. He...almost understood what she meant, or he thought so anyway. He moved behind her and almost nervously put his arms round her, running his hands down her sides gently and then slipped them under her shirt and moved it up a tiny bit. "When you say deeper form of love...do you mean the feeling that's there when my skin touches yours?" He had grown so fond of the warmth of her skin from changing bandages that he had a small idea of the feeling.

Metza shivered slightly when she felt his skin on hers and nodded slowly sighing. "Yes... Though... The feeling is also called... Pleasure... What... What I'm talking about is what a girl my age generally gets, wants, and often yerns for... And a guy your age has had, wants... And uses some of their slaves for... I... I don't think I could explain it anymore without using the word... But I will say it was one of my discriptions... One of the first few on my list..." she murmured leaning into Hako with her eyes closed loving the feel of his skin on hers.

Hako looked at her, not sure what to do or say, or even how he should feel for a while. He understood now, and could understand why she might not have wanted to talk about it. He decided to use his words carefully. "Metza...wouldn't it be wrong if we did? I mean, It would be because we want to...not because you have to." He put his arms round her and kissed her cheek. "I...I mean...well I love you Metza, and I'm not going to lie to you...I wouldn't mind showing you I can love you physically too...I-if you wanted me to."

(what does he mean by- "Metza...wouldn't it be wrong if we did? I mean, It would be because we want to...not because you have to.")

(He's talking about doing with her what the other people would have used her for, but saying would it really be so wrong if they both wanted to do it)

(Okay thanks that's what I thought XD )

"I... I wouldn't mind... I... I would actually think... I'd want that..." Metza murmured softly as a little bit of the blush came back into her cheeks at her own words. She did love him and truthfully she wouldn't mind in the least being loved by him.

(Do you have a Yahoo? Or do you not take it all the way? It's up to you I don't mind either way ^^ )

(I don't but I could set one up if you told me how)

Hako's heart burned hearing that she would want to. Not only would she be the first girl he had those feelings for, but she would help him turn them into something more then a want. He smiled and kissed her then took off his shirt, his body thin yet muscular and shaped perfectly. He pulled her up and hugged her against him.

Metza let her arms wrap around Hako's neck easily with a smirk knowing he would more then likely have to set her back down. "You do realize the stove is on right?... and I think.... we should both eat since we haven't in the last... day?" she smirked slightly though kissed him lightly on the lips lovingly as she gazed into his eyes.

(It's actually quite simple just go to yahoo.com and register and it'll show you what to do from there... then get on IM and tell me when you're ready and I'll give you my email ^^ )

Hako had been thinking about Metza too much to even think of what was going on around him, but he smiled and nodded when she mentioned food. He was pretty hungry and she would need the strength with the amount of blood she had lost. He stood up and started cooking, pausing every so often to make sure nothing was forgotten, but eventually he finished and handed her a plate. "It's okay, right?" He looked at her wondering if he had done okay. He still wasn't used for doing anything for anyone else.

"Come on now you know I'd love anything you could fix me you should know that by now." Metza smiled as she ate her food that made her stomach ache emptily... though it didn't ache from the food being bad... she actually liked the food allot. She smiled and sighed contently when she was done and watched Hako as he ate smiling at him happily.

He had never really felt like that before, the want to please someone else with something he did. Now it was in almost every movement when Metza was around. "Thanks." He smiled at her, finished a slice of toast and put everything away before standing behind her again with his arms around her. He loved her, and being with her was the best thing that had ever happened to him. Being able to be close to her, and it be okay was more perfect then he thought it could have been.

Metza smiled putting her hands up to touch his arm then moved so she could turn in her seat and wrapped her arms around him smiling up at Hako seeming to be in a much brighter mood then she had ever been. She was happy to be free... she was happy to be free to love Hako. If she could stay in his arms forever it wouldn't be long enough... not for her.

Seeing Metza look up at him, her eyes so full of love that he felt something inside him melt, It made him feel safe. He picked her up and laid her down on the sofa in the lounge, kneeling on the floor next to her, kissing her neck. When he stopped he lent back and looked at her and everything around him. He was...happy. Nothing was out of place, with her there he didn't feel like everything needed to be moved so often.

Metza smiled at Hako and moved some so she was laying on her side looking at him. There was no words she could think up right now to say... she just wanted to look at him and she wanted to pull him into a deep and loving kiss... though she wanted him to kiss her...
(is leaving for a bit don't know when will be back on ^^ ttyl)