Unsure of what he could say, he just shook his head slowly for a moment. "I don't know..." He kissed her hair, trying to show that his words were sincere and that he loved her. "I'm sorry, for making you see me like this." He didn't think it would upset her so much, but she really did seem quite worried about him.

He planted a soft kiss on her neck before speaking again. "You forgive me...right?" He thought it was best to check. If she was in a bad mood with him all day, he would like to know that it was because she was still mad about what was happening. She was a mystery to him, a beautiful mystery never the less.

"Of course... I'm not mad... I'm worried... why would I be mad? Hako you need to learn that you aren't going to bother me by being upset or crying around me... you don't have to worry... I would rather you cry around me then you push me away..." Metza said quietly and a slight thought passed her mind for a second though was gone before she could think on it.

He shook his head. "I can't, I just can't. It hurts me to want to but I really just can't." He climbed over the sofa to sit next to her, putting his hand on hers. "I can try...but I can't promise anything. It's hard to go from hating everyone who wasn't you, to crying in front of them, and asking for their help. Even if it is you, it's still hard." He closed his eyes for a minute, thinking over what he had said. He thought he had said it right at least.

"Please Metza, tell me what you want from me, what you expect from me. Tell me what you're thinking, I'm trying so hard to understand..." It didn't help that now he was worked up. He was angry at himself for taking such a huge step back, and he had only been awake maybe an hour.

"Hako... I can't help you on everything.... it's very hard... I've really only felt how others take things and seen it... I never had that shoulder to cry on... I wish I did though. Please... I'm not just asking you... I'm begging you to try and tell me... or at least not worry me and shoo me off... that doesn't make anything better... you can't push away the ones you love just when you need them..." Metza said quietly as she moved her hand so she could hold his though her hand was still under his... just palm up.

The fact she even mentioned her past made him feel terribly guilty. He never wanted to do that to her, he never wanted her to think of those times. "I'm sorry metza. I'll try, I promise I'll try." He really did mean it. That word too, begging. It send cold unpleasant shivers down his spine. "I'll try, and If you ever need me, I'll always be there. Always. I will never let you suffer alone, no matter what is happening."

"I'm sorry love... I didn't mean to bother you by saying that... By bringing that up I wasn't thinking about how much you hate hearing about my past." Metza said feeling his emotions and also his hand shaking some when she had mentioned her past a bit... she knew that bothered him... to think of her past.

"Stop it...just stop it." He wasn't moaning at her, or even telling her off. His voice was soft now, love in his words. He put his arms around her and kissed her, before looking into her eyes. "I love you, and you love me don't you? Well forget about everything that happened...it's you and me, and that's all you need. I'll love you and look after you." He kissed her again, not wanting her to have to remember those things at all.

Metza blinked a bit and couldn't help but smile some as Hako kissed her and was soon unable to truly think... it was odd but that's what him kissing her did to her... it made her mind go numb for a bit truth be told... and she loved it.

"I'm sorry, I didn't make this morning the best..." He shook his head and fixed his hair. He wasn't sure what to do after the stark contrast between the love of last night and the strange pain of the morning. "You still want to go out? I'm still rather excited to show you off to the world." He knew that often people went out to show off how pretty their slaves were. He wanted to show off how pretty his lover was.

"Sure... I still wouldn't mind going out." Metza smiled some wanting nothing more then to foreget about what just happened... she didn't want to think about it because it hurt and bothered her for him to push her away like that... she truly didn't understand it though it did.

He was happy to hear everything seemed okay between them. "So...where do you want to go?" He might love her, but honestly he had no idea what she enjoyed doing. He didn't even really know what he liked doing when he wasn't at home. He laughed, realising how lost they both were.

"Out to eat? Maybe a movie? I'm really up for anything... I never really got to do anything before ya know" Metza smiled happily seeming to get over what was wrong quickly.

He didn't like to hear that too much either, that she had never actaully gotten the chance to do the things that he had simply never wanted to do. He realised that sometimes, when he heard her say that she had missed out things, he felt bad because he had been free to do them, and hadn't. Made him feel selfish and guilty.

He decided that although he might not really enjoy doing things like that, she would, and he should make sure she enjoyed it as much as she could. He smiled, and pulled her up. Everything she liked was going to be hers. She wouldn't suffer any more, he would make up for how long she had gone without the things other people felt they simply deserved.

(Hm... is stuck now XP ow did you see my email?)

I did, I just haven't had time to really look into it yet :3 I shall read it when I get back to my own laptop later ^_^

Would you like to time skip to getting out the car in town or something?

(I'm not sure XP is stuck now ow um what's your rp with Mira about?)

Left 4 Dead, I only just started playing it again and I saw the request thread she had up for it. ^-^

ha ha never seen it though the thought kinda reminds me of night of the commet XD maybe it would be best if we started a new rp? idk I'm kinda lost on this one from not playing it so long XP

I'm happy to do that ^-^ do you have any ideas you were thinking of doing? I'll also look at that group one later :3

here's my thread ^^ choose what you like... hm... what are your thoughts one a naziXjew one?

where's it? I can't seem to see it >.< fail beans.

OMGOSH!!! I AM SOOOO SORRY! I was grounded from the computer for a bit and foregot and I couldn't send it on my phone XP here ya go
http://www.menewsha.com/forum/commun...e-help-me.html

I'm really interested in the spirited away one, I really love that film <3 Sorry It's taken me SOO long to reply!

hm.... er... uh... I'm not sure right now if I could do that one... I is still waiting for my step dad to rent it XP uh... well right now I'm really really craving some of those vids... have you seen them? I had given you my new thread right? Role Play Kokoro?