Blade felt the hollowness from her before she left and sighed he hadn't known it would bring bad memories to her."Okay..."He said softly.He hadn't loved anyone and didn't think he ever would.Yes he had liked people and been with some but that didn't mean anything.It has always been physical and not very emotional at all...

Blade sighed gently and then looked back up at the sky.He felt as if the flames where in his stomach not in the middle of the campsite.All of the sudden he felt as if he were going to be sick so he ran just into the forest and puked."U-gh."He whispered to himself and flipped over away from it."No more eating for awhile..."He told himself quietly looking up and seeing a bat.He squeaked and moved away from it standing up.He started walking through the forest and found a stream.He dipped his hands in it and washed his mouth out making sure he didn't smell like that at all.He sighed gently and splashed water over his face and then ran water through his hair.

Blade took the outside layer of armor he wore off and sighed in small relief.He sighed gently again and rolled up his pants sliding his legs over the edge to the fairly deep stream.He smiled slightly as the cold water hit his legs.He felt like swimming but it wasn't deep enough for his liking so he just sat on the side looking at the moon and stars reflection in the water.

Blade had slid slightly and his rolled up pants got wet.He sighed and stood unrolling them.From just above the knees down his pants were soaked he laughed and started walking back to the campsite hoping his pants would dry before then but it happens they didn't.He set his armor down beside the tent Arathas's stuff was in.He reached the other tent and sat down on the other side of the camp away from Anidori and Arathas deep in thought as he looked back to the stars his hair dripping wet still.

Blade tried to stop the thoughts before they entered his head but he didn't stop himself in time.He got up and ran into the forest his thoughts making it impossible not to cry.He felt ashamed as the tears slid down his cheek silently.This is why....
*FLASHBACK*
"Your nothing you little brat!"His mother screamed at him and slapped him across the face.Being eight or nine he hadn't known what to do but cry.He sat in the corner trying to get away from her but was being held by the Prince Caden."Why are you crying?Because your nothing?"His father asked as he spanked him again.Blade looked at them frantically the pain from the cuts on his arms and legs from his 'parents' burned as his mother put alcohol in them.Blade shook his head."No I just want to leave..."He said quietly trying to get away again.His '\father spanked him again and yelled in his ear."YOU WANT TO LEAVE THAN GO!"His father screamed as his mother picked him up and threw him out the door.He landed on his hands breaking his fingers...
*FLASHBACK OVER*
Blade looked into the woods his eyes blurry from the tears that streamed down his cheeks.

Blade's soft sobs filled the air around him as he cried.He hadn't wanted to remember that damned moment in his past."It was just the past..."He said but it didn't provide his with any comfort at all.He felt alone and as if not a single soul cared."Why would any one care?"He asked himself/cried to himself as he closed his eyes and pulled his knees to his chest.The shame and guilt and sadness built up inside of him trying to tear him apart from the inside out.

Blade didn't know what to do he didn't want to run from her or let her see him like this.He could trust her though..."Yeah?"He called back knowing she would hear him.

Blade nodded but hid his face not letting her see the tears anymore."It's better than it used to be anyway..."Blade said his voice breaking as he tried to hide the tears in his voice.

Blade didn't look up just tried to take comfort in her voice,her touch."Just a memory..."He said not knowing if he should tell her or not what had happened to him when he was little...

Blade sighed and let the silent tears streak down his cheeks as he looked back into the woods again.He had to tell somebody...he had to...and he trusted her."Your nothing you little brat!"His mother screamed at him and slapped him across the face.Being eight or nine he hadn't known what to do but cry.He sat in the corner trying to get away from her but was being held by the Prince Caden."Why are you crying?Because your nothing?"His father asked as he spanked him again.Blade looked at them frantically the pain from the cuts on his arms and legs from his 'parents' burned as his mother put alcohol in them.Blade shook his head."No I just want to leave..."He said quietly trying to get away again.His '\father spanked him again and yelled in his ear."YOU WANT TO LEAVE THAN GO!"His father screamed as his mother picked him up and threw him out the door.He landed on his hands breaking his fingers...
He recapped as if he was watching a movie...As he told her that the tears increased and he sobbed slightly.

Blade felt like a child being soothed but didn't care.He had never been cared for before and he tried to soak it up.He cried and tried to stop them but that only made it worse."I'm sorry..."He apologized feeling pathetic.

Blade cries softened and became less pronounced as he felt her presence by him and her arms around him.Her kind essence,he let the now silent tears slid slowly and softly down his cheeks.He hadn't ever been with someone when he cried except his parents...so this was all new to him as she comforted him.

"Please don't..."Blade whispered softly as the tears dried only leaving wet streaks on his face where they had slid down.He finally looked straight at her and the graditude that he held in his eyes was almost overwhelming as he caught her eyes with his."Thank you..."He whispered softly.