Nick took the sandwiches off the stove and paused, his heart clenching in pain. His bottom lip trembled "she wasn't always like that, though... she only started doing that about a week ago... She even defended me when people would call me insane. But then... then she met him... and... and everything changed. All of a sudden... she hated me, or something" he choked out. He reached out and grabbed the photo, staring at it tenderly. "This photo was taken two months ago, on our two year anniversary. I don't understand... what did I do wrong to push her away and make her want to talk to that guy? she never would've listened to him if I hadn't done something... what did I do?" he asked, his voice raw with emotion. He picked up the plates and walked back to the couch, handing Mesy one "you're kinda lucky, you know? You don't have a boyfriend to break your heart... you don't have someone you give you heart to... entrusting them with the safety of it... and then have them mercilessly crush it... tearing it to shreds... then hand it back to you like it was yesterday's trash" he commented.

Mesy looked at him softly and shook her head. "No... No I don't think you would have done anything wrong to push her away... Beleive me girls are just like that... not all girls I mean... though a good amount of them are like that..." she murmrued softly and started eating then stopped mid chewing a bite and a dark look came in her eyes. She had had someone smash her heart before... the same way too... he didn't believe her that she was a usagi... a bunny demon. She swallowed her bite though then put her samwitch down and just stared down at her hands with her elbow that she had on her knees and was leaning on some.

Nick had a horrible feeling that he was wrong. He sighed heavily and put his arm around her shoulders "hey, sorry... I wasn't thinking. It happens to me when I think about her. We'll stick together, then... you help me, I'll help you. Whatever you need, I'm here. I know I was really horrible earlier... but I want to make it up to you. Can I?" he asked, rubbing his hand along her shoulder.

Mesy looked at him her eyes softening some and took a long few minute pause before nodding. "Ow... Okay... I supose you could try... how you could or would I have no clue though... what's the point anyway? I'm dead..." she muttered the last part though had been compleatly truthful the first time. He could try if he really wanted to though she didn't know how he could sucsead.

Nick smiled softly "yeah... that's just a minor detail, though... I mean... you're 'alive' right now. You have a physical form, you're eating... you sleep. Are you sure you just aren't continuing your life?" he asked her. "As long as I have your permission, I'm ok. I... I'll do my best not to do anything without your permission. This morning was truly an accident. I thought you were Elizabeth. It was just an accidental kiss, I promise" He said, unaware that he actually admitted to kissing her earlier.

Mesy blinked as she heard the unknown knolage and thought trying to see if she had noticed that... she remembered feeling something though she just thought it had been him moving around and that her face had still been in his chest... which in her older age she was imbaresed about. "You know you just told on yourself right? I didn't even know you had kissed me..." she grinned slightly to Nick wondering how he would react.

Dread washed over Nick and he stared wide-eyed at Mesy "crap" he muttered. He quickly let go of her "alright, you have permission to hate me now... or at least be very mad at me... but in my defense, I thought I was waking up to Elizabeth. I always do that to wake her up. Considering how I was still so focused on Elizabeth, it's only natural that I thought it was her in my arms instead. But what I did was unforgivable, and it was in your younger form too! Hate me, be mad at me, whatever you want, I deserve it. Sorry..." he apologized, a heavy blush tinting his cheeks.

Mesy started laughing some at him and his reaction to what she had said. She hadn't really laughed since he killed her and the sound was light and almost like a soft sumar melody. "No I already have the right to hate you and be mad at you... but no... I'm not... not really." she mused a little softly the grin still on her face and almost a smirk.

Nick smiled some and looked away "please don't do that... don't smile and laugh like that... you're making it very hard to keep myself away from you. You're just really kissable right now. I'm sorry to say that, but it's true. So do me a favor and stop," he instructed "unless, of course, you want me to kiss you" he teased, getting close to her, his lips hovering just above hers. He didn't really mean anything by it, he was just teasing/flirting with her.

Mesy was surprised when his lips were just about to hers and almost lost her grip with being solid when she had started leaning back... making her hand get stuck in the couch and that made her face go red slightly. She was a bit imbaresed that her hand was suck and she truthfully couldn't move... though it would be very funny to see, it was even funnier because she wasn't just blushing from that... she was also finding herself becoming atractided to him and... truthfully she wouldn't have minded if he kissed her... it's not like she would have pulled away anyway... just jumped and may have stared at him.

Nick was vaguely confused. She backed away, yeah, but that's the usual reaction when someone randomly is an inch away from your face. But she neither pulled away, nor did she move forward. He didn't know what she wanted. His eyes wandered to the hand stuck in the couch and he couldn't help but let out a small laugh. "Mesy, dearest... doesn't that hurt, backing away like that with your hand stuck?" he asked as he wrapped his arm around her waist so he could pull her up. Once she was up, he gave her the tiniest of kisses on her lips, worried about her reaction. He allowed his lips to hover over hers, though, just in case she decided to return the kiss.

"No" Mesy muttered and her face got even redder when she felt him kiss her lightly... surprisingly she let her lips toutch his back... without fear of if he might hurt her or not. She didn't know what she wanted... did she like him? Did she not? Wasn't she suposed to hate him for killing her? She didn't... Should she?

Mesy had reacted... positively. His hear fluttered with desire, want, and delight. He leaned forward and covered her lips with his own, fully kissing her. He pulled her closer to his chest and trailed one hand upwards until he could place it behind her neck and cradle her head.

Mesy whimpered slightly though slowly closed her eyes and somewhat kissed him back... though didn't really move... she didn't want to push him to his limit... which she somewhat had a feeling he was already at... she didn't really mind too much... though didn't know what she wanted still.

Nick smiled sadly and pulled back "I'm sorry... I thought... I thought you wanted that... I... I shouldn't have done that" he apologized. He looked at her hand again "how do you suppose you'll get that hand free?" he asked, trailing his fingers along her arm with a featherlight touch. He loved everything about her... best of all, she knew for a certainty that he wasn't clinically insane since she was what he saw. The only problem was that he killed her... so she's afraid. But he could see desire in there... somewhere... at least that's what he thought. She certainly kissed him back, albeit shyly.

Mesy sighed softly. "You're actually fine..." she said softly knowing he had pulled away because she had whimpered. She then looked down at her hand and thought on it then slowly pulled her hand out of the coach and shivered slightly.

Nick smiled some when he heard that it was ok "really? so... I can... kiss you again?" he asked, nervous. He felt 16 again, asking the prettiest girl in school to go to the prom... asking Elizabeth to go to the prom. NO! Don't think about her! Focus on this wonderful girl in front of you, ok? you can do this! He coached to himself. He placed his fingers beneath her chin and delicately lifted it up until they were looking at each other. "I don't want to do anything you don't want me to... or you're not ready for. I promise. I will do everything in my power to do this by your rules" he told her, brushing his lips against hers ever so slightly.

"Go reght ahead" she murmured softly almost a sighed softly and really seemed okay with him kissing her. She seemed okay with being so close to him... right now... just so long as he didn't hurt her or if she started to feel too uncomfurtable she'd be fine.

Nick didn't waste anytime in kissing her, more confident than before now that he had permission. He hugged her close to him and dominated her lips. His left hand went up to cradle her neck, the other hand trailed various places while respecting her personal boundaries. He wanted her to feel loved, not molested.

Mesy shivered some but kissed him back closing her eyes some though kept a check on where his hand was. After a few minutes she didn't much care as she was lost in the kiss. She hadn't been kissed in a long time... not like this at least. She had been hurt before... sexually... bad... hurt real bad...

Nick pulled away when he realized the desire to go further was becoming stronger. Even if she was ok with it... he wasn't ready. He was surprised that he allowed herself to kiss her... especially that deeply. He leaned his forehead against hers and smiled. "I think... that I could fall in love with you" he whispered.

Mesy sighed softly and kept her eyes simy closed as she took in Nick's scent that only seemed so intoxocating right now. "I... I think I already am..." she whispered back though it was even lower then how he said it... she was unsure if she wanted to say it or not... she wasn't sure if she wanted to fall for him or not.

Nick smiled and kissed her lightly, not really trusting himself to do anything more than that. "Alright... how about we... watch a movie or something?" he suggested, his hands moving down to hers to hold them. He wanted her so badly... but he knew that he was still in love with Elizabeth. He didn't want to do anything more than what's been done until he could forget her.

Mesy smiled and nodded lightly. "Okay I like movies." she smiled easily and gripped his hands lightly. Her skin was cool... though not too cool right now.... she was trying to make sure it stayed that way and didn't get too cold... she had a feeling that really bothered him since it would just remind him that she was dead.

Nick swallowed, her hands were cool... it was just another reminder she was dead. He looked at her with sorrow in his eyes. I'll just have to make sure they stay warm, he thought to himself "alright... do you want to pick the movie, or should I?" he asked.