Mesy had been right and she could tell by the look in his eyes. She thought deeply and shook her head with a smile "I don't really have any movies in mind you?" she asked softly with a soft smile as she looked at Nick almost lovingly... though not too fast Mesy was really starting to develope feelings and strong ones hers now since.

Nick thought about his collection for a moment and then rattled off some movie he remembered he enjoyed watching. What he didn't realize, was that he really only enjoyed it because he would watch it with Elizabeth. He'd been so focused on Mesy that all thoughts of Elizabeth had been pushed from his mind. He just remembered that he always loved it whenever he watched it. "How does that sound?" he asked.

"Fine by me" Mesy smiled easily agreaing. she was't one that got into arguements often and actually tried to find any way around a mocking that she could so she was a prop on halloween then just stay theren' she steals candy and trick and treat ha ha ha

((ooooo... evil plan... (=<))

Nick nods and stands to put the movie in the DVD player. He turned the TV on, grabbed the remote, and went back to the couch. He wrapped his arm around Mesy and smiled. At the moment, he was on automatic. He pressed play and then cuddled slower to the love of his life. "Have I told you lately, how much I love you, Elizabeth?" he asked in a whisper.

(Ow noes XD )
Mesy looked at him... almost staring as she was called the name of his ex. "Nick! No you know I'm not her." she moaned softly not liking that he had called her the name of someone so crurl and made him hurt.

A wave of dread washed over Nick when he realized what he'd done. He pulled away from Mesy "I'm sorry... there are too many memories with her... I didn't mean to call you that... excuse me" he said and stood up. He had the urge to hit something and he didn't want to be anywhere near Mesy when he did. He went into his room and decided to trash anything that reminded him or Elizabeth... which was basically everything. Finally, after completely trashing his bedroom, he crashed onto his bed and cried out the pain.

Mesy whached Nick leave her and didn't fallow... at first. After a few minutes she heard Nick cry and got up unable to stand this. "Nick" she whispered as she came into his room and sat on the edge of the bed though was unsure if he would want her even close to him or not.

Nick felt the bed sag and he looked at Mesy. "You shouldn't be here... I left so I wouldn't hurt you" he told her, reaching out to grab her hand. He needed her, desperately. But he was afraid to hurt her, emotionally or physically. He fought hard to keep control of his emotions, but he did allow her to see him cry just a little bit. "Mesy... I don't want to hurt you... but right now, I... I just..." he trailed off and sighed. He curled up to her "I'm too tired to do anything. Stay, please?" he asked.

Mesy nodded as she heard him and felt a pang of worry though she pushed it away as she laid down so as to get more comfurtable. She didn't mind laying there really... she didn't feel he would really hurt her since he hadn't yet... in the ways of after he killed her anyway. She wouldn't hold that against him and she would do almost anything just to see that he would be fine... and to keep that... that girl out of his appartment...

Nick curled up against Mesy and buried his face in her shoulder. "How long does it take? Before the pain goes away? before you forget their effect on you? How long am I going to have to suffer through this?" he asked in a quiet voice. He rested one hand on her stomach and drew little designs on it, caressing her with a feather-light touch. It felt good. "Just so you know... you and Elizabeth are very different. It's just the feeling that is the same. I apologize in advance if I ever make the mistake of calling you by a name that isn't your own. I really want to love you... give my all to you... but I can't let go of her. We'd been living together for two years... dating on and off for 8 years before that. We'd known each other since high school and we'd been stuck together ever since... I just can't... forget her. I... I was going to ask her to marry me... the day that she left me... I was going to ask her that night. I desperately want to move on, though. But I don't know how" he said quietly, the tears starting again as all of his memories with Elizabeth flared up and replayed. Their first date, kiss, the first time they... you know. The first day after they moved in together... all of their firsts, and the more memorable successions... everything. It was so clear, too, he could practically feel her underneath him as they romanced. So, so clear...

Mesy sighed softly and lightly rested a hand on Nick's arm not minding him caressing her some... it really didn't bother her much. "I... I can't tell you... everyone is different." she murmured softly letting her head lean back to rest on him some as she let herself scoot just a little closer feeling rather tired... Why? She wasn't exactly sure right now.

Nick wrapped his arms around Mesy and pulled her close, breathing in her scent. "Just... please be patient with me... I want to love you... I want to love you with ever fiber of my being... with everything that I am... but I can't right now. My heart is still holding firmly onto the time I spent with Elizabeth. Until it lets go, I can't love you the way I want. So just be patient as I get it to let go. Just... stay by my side and support me... Gosh I need a drink" he asked, pulling closer to Mesy as he made his statement about the alcohol. He didn't want to get drunk to forget Elizabeth, he was a violent drunk and he'd end up hurting Mesy. He didn't want that. He breathed softly, inhaling her scent, memorizing it.

"I will... I'll be patiant... I have no choice in the matter of staying or leaving really so... and I don't beleive I'd want to sleep on that coach all the time so..." Mesy murmured then trailed off into thought and leaned more into Nick holding firmly onto his arm not taking any chances of him getting up and getting to that alcohol that she hadn't gotten to dump yet.

Nick placed a gentle kiss on Mesy's lips. "You'll never have to sleep on the couch. If anyone is on the couch, it will be me, alright?" he asked, nuzzling his nose with hers. He planted another kiss on her lips, lingering longer this time. "I'm glad I met you. I just wish I could've met you sooner. Maybe then we could've avoided some of our hard times" he said, claiming her lips again. He moved his lips against hers, making the kiss more passionate. Anything to get his mind to focus on the wonderful woman that was with him. Besides, he figured that the more the focused specifically on Mesy, the easier it will be to move on from Elizabeth, meaning that he'll be able to love Mesy with all he was sooner.

Mesy smiled and laughed slightly at the thought of her kicking him out of his own room. She met his kiss willingly and didn't seem to mind that he would just kiss her whenever. "Me too..." she whispered back to him then kissed him back starting to love him kissing her and even more so of him kissing her like this.

Nick gently licked Mesy's lips, asking for permission. He nibbled a bit on her lips, waiting for her to open her mouth. Mesy... Mesy... Mesy... he thought to himself, repeating it whenever he found himself feeling like he was kissing Elizabeth. Elizabeth doesn't do this... Mesy is so much more wonderful. Focus on Mesy, he told himself. He rolled slightly until his body was semi-on top of her. He was careful not to hurt her, but he'd always loved that feeling of pushing his lover into the bed beneath them.

Mesy shivered some but knew what he wanted and opened her mouth so they could make out. She truly didn't mind though she stiffened some when he rolled so he was semi on-top of her.... she didn't know if she liked that... she didn't know if either of them could be ready for that... what if it hurt them? What if it hurt their relationship? What if it hurt him?

Nick felt her stiffen as he slipped his tongue into her mouth. He rolled his body back to its original position, yet still hovered over her for convenience's sake. He didn't want to hurt her or push her to do something she didn't want to do. His hand trailed up her arm gently until it rested on her cheek. I can't love her until I'm ready... I love her, and yet I don't. E-- she really screwed me up royal, he thought to himself as his tongue explored every nook and cranny of her mouth.

Mesy kissed him back as her body relaxed and she felt his hand on her cheek. She let her tongue mingle with his some as she kissed him and rubbed her tongue against his. She was content right now… right here. Was it wrong? Was it wrong that she was falling for the man that killed her? The one that ended her life… she didn’t know but right now she didn’t really care that much as she kissed him lovingly. She would let him go as far as he wished and she knew she would… though they had to take it slow… they couldn’t set themselves up just to get hurt… though she wouldn’t mind him going as far as he wished just so long as he didn’t hurt her.

Nick eventually pulled away reluctantly. There were two reasons for this: one, they needed air, and two, he was comparing her to Elizabeth too much. He nuzzled up against Mesy and smiled. He didn't any any words for awhile. Eventually, however, he placed a tender kiss on her lips and spoke softly, "I think... that I'm falling in love with you." He couldn't proclaim that he loved her, he was still attached to Elizabeth. One day... one day I'll be free from her spell... and I will be able to love Mesy completely, both body and soul, he thought to himself.

Mesy smiled slightly as he pulled away and was breathing just a little heavy. “I think… I am too… over you of course.” She smiled softly at Nick and still didn’t know if loving him was right or wrong… how could love be wrong?... other then when it’s cheating…. Though now neither of them were cheating. How and why do I feel this way towards him? Aren’t I supposed to hate him? Hate him for killing me? If not for killing me… how he killed me… slowly… painfully… that couldn’t be right could it? For me to love him? For us to be falling for each other? She thought quietly as she leaned her head on his chest and closed her eyes as she thought over this unsure of what to think.

Nick smiled and tangled his fingers in Mesy's hair, playing with it. "We must be the strangest couple, you know? Brought together with the most unlikely of circumstances... I'm still marveling at you you love me, despite what I did to you. So how about we do this... since I haven't completely let go of Elizabeth anyway... why don't we just go through life one day at a time... if it works out, then great... if it doesn't... well hopefully the parting won't be too painful" he suggested.

Mesy smiled some at him and loved feeling his fingers tangled in her hair… though that baffled her somewhat. She snickered slightly and nodded at the strange couple thing. “Okay… but I’m not sure where I’d go… I don’t know if I’d…. I’m just not sure…” She whispered softly as she just rested her head on his chest hearing his heart beat… she still wished she could hear hers just once more… just one more time… Though she knew that would never happen.

"We can stay friends, can't we? Even if things don't work out between us, you can always stay with me" he said softly as Mesy laid her head on his chest. He closed his eyes and sighed. "Even though... it allowed me to be thrown into your path... which allows this... If I could only redo one action... I would redo last night, when I killed you. I would've rather met you normally, rather than met you because I was killing you... in such a brutal manner as well... I"m still not sure how you can forgive me... and even love me" he said softly.

"I'm not sure... not about staying with you... as long as I'm still.... here... I'll stay... as for me forgiving you. I told you, I don't hold grudges... even though you killed me... killed me in such a way that I still ache and the wonds still burn sometimes... no... I don't think I could hate you... you didn't mean to... I understand that." Mesy said softly as she looked up at him then couldn't help but yawn softly. She may have had a nap a few hours ago but that was in her other form and the nap wasn't very long or satisfying so she was still tierd. She felt as though she just wanted to fall asleep like this... close to him surprisingly.