"To tell the truth, I've fallen a bit ever since I came down here..I find demonic life so fascinating..It's dangerous, since I've taken so many demonic lives being a seraphim..I feel like I have to repay those families..Seeing children run in fear from me, because they've only seen me and heard of me as a blood-thirsty demon killer..To think, I could have killed so many fathers and mothers..Demons have taken the same from us, but..To think I used to think of all demons as heartless scum.The demonic children only end up like that because of the hatred force-fed to them by older demons..It's not that different in heaven or on earth, either..It's amazing to think...Humans think of us, angels, as pure beigns, when really, most angels, everyone but God almost, these days..They've all become as corrupt and blood-thirsty as the demon 'scum' they so hate." Caelistis sighed and shook his head.

"Angels look down upon humans for creating so many wars, but yet we've started one big endless war against demons..Some sections of hell are as terrible as we think, but some sections like this are more peaceful..These sections I like.They're less filled with sins like wrath and avarice.Sections like this are filled with lust, mostly.Slothful demons are actually sort of cute in these areas, I think they're closest to angels, at least ones in peaceful areas.So laid back, carefree..Not a care in the world.I kind of wish I could be more like them.They're peaceful only because they're lazy and don't really care, war is too much work for them.They're very funny to watch sometimes, It's almost impossible to have a whole family of them, absolutely nothing ever gets done." The angel chuckled."But I think I'm rambling your poor little ears off.I'm sorry.." He smiled sweetly, fiddlign with one of the tiny, pretty braids the flora demons had put all throughout his long, long hair.

Alec nodded his head slightly as he listened to Caelistis talk. Perhaps he did somewhat believe what the other angel was saying, though his up bringing obviously didn't want to believe that such a thing could be true. To say that angels weren't much different than demons in the way they were brought up to despise demons. But deep down he knew it to be true. "It's okay," Alec said kindly, he didn't mind that Caelists had seemed to be rambling it was keeping his mind off of other things; most notably Lucy.

"Do you have anything you need to get off your chest?If so, just say it..I'm here to listen.I'd love to help..I'm not exactly a therapist,t hat's for sure, but I can help." Caelistis laughed.

"Not really...at least I don't think so," said Alec, "I'm just a little overwhelmed is all. This isn't exactly how I saw my life ending up."

"Your life is just starting.In some ways, currently, this section of hell is better than heaven for you..All of Derma's teammates fell here, you have the twins, me and Derma himself all here to protect you.You'd be surprised who would fight for you.I'm not much of a fighter anymore, though..I've become weaker..A lot of my old wounds are catching up to me, all these scars.." Caelistis chuckled. "I guess it's just finally time for me to settle down, start up some hobbies, and just become sort of an elder for younger angels like you..I don't want any more angels to fight like I have.It may be noble in some people's eyes to be a seraphim, but it's not, once you see the truth of what you've been taking away."

Alec listened to Caelistis, taking it all in but not sure he could comprehend it all at the moment. He still wasn't sure if he could trust Derma, though he wasn't sure he could trust his own memories anymore. And if Derma really was his brother than those teammates that Caelistis had mentioned were also Alec's teammates and friends, well at least he hoped they would be friends. He really didn't need anything more to be worried about. "Maybe," he said lightly as he looked down at his feet. What was the truth he wondered.

"There are many things I'd like to say in order to try to shed some light on everything that has been going in in your life recently..But some things I think are better left not said, better to let you find out on your own..Some things are just like that.It may seem cruel for me to not say them, but it's really for your own good.I'm not the best person to explain some things.And some things, if the higher up angels find out I have said them, would keep me out of heaven forever.."Caelistis sighed."And I'd rather not have things come to that..I don't want to be a fallen.."

Alec turned his head to look directly at Caelistis. "What kinds of things?" asked Alec curious now. He didn't want Caelists to be fallen either but now he was too curious to not ask for at least some kind of hint.

"...Things about Derma.Things that I can't even hint at, for fear I'd accidentally do something to get myself landed here forever." Caelistis said, looking quite nervous.

Alec's brow furrowed slightly, now he really wanted to know but it seemed like he wouldn't get any more from Caelistis on the subject.

"I-It's best if you find Derma, or one of his partners, if you want to ask more about it..I don't know the whole story, anyway.I never was one for gossip." Caelistis giggled.

Alec sighed slightly and nodded his head. It didn't seem like he would be getting any more out of Caelistis on the subject, not that he even really knew what the subject was. At least, for the moment, he felt a little better.

"I think one of Derma's partners even lives around here..Maybe.I forget..He at least lives in this area.Unluckily I think he's that seraphim that..Well..He's a man of few words.So you may or may not get anything out of him..Then there's that demon..He was undercover in Derma's team..But..I wouldn't speak to him.He has too many innocent angels' blood on his hands for me to think you'd even be slightly safe speaking to him.." Caelistis said, shuddering at the mere thought of 'The Angel Slayer'."The Angel Slayer Azriel..Here they call him Talbot.He's one you need to beware of."

Alec nodded his head lightly. "Okay, I'll be sure to remember that," he said lightly. He knew he didn't want to be running into anyone too troublesome. If he thought Derma was bad then surely this Talbot person was worse especially since Caelists had taken the time to warn Alec about him.

He sighed slightly and looked down at his feet for a moment. There was one thing he needed to say and if he could trust anyone he could trust Caelists. "I have to say something, but I'm not sure how to say it or if I even want to, for the most part I'm embarassed to say it," Alec paused a moment and took a deep breath, "I know I act like I don't like Lucy, and I'm sure it's fairly see through, my ruse that is. I do like him, but perhaps more than I think I should and...well truthfully it terrifies me. I'm not sure why, but I just can't wrap my mind around it."

"Don't be ashamed, Alec..It's perfectly natural.I know Lucy seems odd, but he really is a nice man.He cares about you, and that's what really matters.He may be a bit seductive, seeing how he is an incubus and all, But I don't think he's trying to make you succumb to lust and fall..He just loves you, unconditionally." Caelistis smiled."And don't be afraid..I almost think your safer being in his care than in Derma's, and that's saying something."

"But why...I mean how can he? He hardly even knows me," said Alec, it just didn't make much sense to him. Then again not much was making sense nowadays.

"I know it doesn't make sense..It might never.It still doesn't to me.But..Just trust me.Don't be shy about your feelings..You'll know when it's time to tell him your feelings.Tonight, one month from now..I think that boy could wait a human's lifetime just to hear that you were ready to go farther than friends." Caelistis smiled softly.

All Alec could do was nod at the moment. It was so strange to him, yet perhaps he could learn to accept that he did have feelings for Lucy that were deeper than friendship. The question was: just how long would that take?

Caelistis smiled."Anything else you need to get off your chest?Just let it all out.I'm sure we have plenty of time until Lucy comes to find you." He giggled.

Alec shook his head lightly. "No, I think that's about it," he said after a moment.

"Alright." Caelistis smiled."So..How are you feeling so far, being here?You've already said several things about not really liking it, but seriously..How is it, so far?"

Alec shrugged slightly as he gave the question some thought. "I guess it's not as bad as I thought," he said after a moment, "but I still can't say that I like it, though I suppose I can't say that I hate it, not anymore anyway."

"Not anymore?" Caelistis said curiously, raising one blonde eyebrow as he watched Alec closely.

"I mean it's just not as bad as I thought it was," said Alec lightly, "it's not terrible and nothing really bad has happened to me hear so I figure I can't really hate the place."

"That's good..It is hard to get used to here, it being hell and all..But it's a nice change of pace.It's exciting, thinking of the things that could happen at any time here..In heaven, you KNOW your safe.Nothing ever happens, really.It's sort of boring..Some like that, though." Caelistis laughed.