o_o Hun, while you may not be bothered by it now.. Just please promise me you'll never hang around that guy EVER again. He's a complete sleezeball and deserves nothing short of castration if he really did rape you. It's not safe to be around someone like that, no matter how you feel about what happened.

And really, start looking in a psychologist or therapist. No one should feel that numb to ANYTHING. It's simply not healthy!