Originally Posted by DearSweetAru
Hm... sixteen year old me...
Sophomore meee.. I had to do some math thar xD lol. I remember what happened in my life better by grades! Ha ha. Anyway...
If I could talk to sixteen year old me, I'd tell her:
Most of your friends suck, I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but who better to tell you than yourself? Cheyanne, Jorden, Mearygrace, Tyler, David, and so many more are all fuckin' assholes and they are NOT worth your time one bit, got it? Get over David, it'll feel amazing once you do. Sure, it'll feel like crap at first, but the day after will be the happiest day of your life without anything amazing happening. Your eyes will hurt, your head will ache, but a smile will be spread across your face and a new found freedom will engulf your very soul.
You need to learn to let go, not everyone is going to hurt you. There are some great people out there that you are missing out on because you are too busy being angry, hurt, and paranoid. Yes, Jason fucked you up real bad and nothing is ever going to fix that, but not everyone is like him. Not everyone will try and get into your heart and tear you apart.
Let yourself cry for once in your life. It's not a sign of weakness and will make you feel so much better once you let it all go. About everything. You have bottled up too many emotions throughout your life and you need to let them out instead of letting them pile and pile for you to explode with years later, it's not healthy and you'll feel terrible until you let it out. I would know, since I'm you.
Hanz isn't your last boyfriend. He'll let David talk shit behind your back and not be there for you for a bit and you'll end up thinking Max is a better choice, he's not. Not to say I regret leaving Hanz, I just regret getting with Max. He's a lot like Jason and only lasted like a week, but it'd be better to just skip him. Bryse is pointless, you used him to let out sexual desires (you don't meet him until Junior year btw) and you break up with him without really knowing why (though, people have speculated you just lost interest). Next is Dylan, skip him. It's 6 months of bitching at him, trying to get him to spend time with you, etc. Unless you REALLY feel a need to have someone to bite, don't bother. Then Hamdi... don't get with him. Not that he isn't a good guy, you would know he is (I believe you know him by now), but he'll suddenly shut down on you and you will LOSE your best friend. You will become acquaintances and it's just... dead. Months later you will get Brett. DON'T GET WITH BRETT. HE IS A MINI JASON IN DISGUISE... and only lasts two weeks.
Nikki will pop back into your life and Mich will fade (she moved away, deal with it). Nikki pops up after Tyler leaves her and you decide to be a good friend and cheer her up, in which she realizes just how AMAZING you are (don't even deny it, you emo you). Mich, believe it or not, will get a boyfriend and they will be happy, but they will break up. You'll get jealous and this jealousy is stupid and ultimately destroys your best friendship, though you guys still remain close. At this VERY moment, you have no best friend though Kevin (someone you meet on a site in a couple years [Gusty]) is coming very close.
Talk to Sean and Bryon more, they are amazing people.
If you don't wanna lose Jack, try and either get him fixed or find someone who will PROMISE to take him in, because your landlord will find out about him and you will blame it on yourself and cry a lot because you miss him.
Try and work on getting a PO box NOW. Hamdi will help you get a website, it's a present 'cause he's a sweetie =)
Mom won't believe you when you tell her Bub's a bad kid, just hope he gets busted so you aren't the bad sister. You know he still loves you.
You aren't fat, but stop eating like a fat ass so you'll think that way rather than stare at Michelle in envy.
You're a great artist, but don't bother with an art college. Not worth your money, just go to LMC.
You still live with your mom, stay with her until you are out of college. It's smarter as much as she drives you crazy. Just fill up your time enough so you don't have to deal with her as much, okay?
I don't remember how you feel about Dante right now, but you'll love him if you don't already. He will become one of your close friends and someone you'll love to hang out with even when mom's not around.
Be yourself rather than the defensive person you are. People love the real you and will accept you, you don't have to be on guard all the time.
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D: GOD DAMN THAT WAS LONG! I'm sorry @_@ I unno if anyone will really read this anyway. :rawrmayor:
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