...About my boyfriend's best friend. Well, he is..or was my best friend too. I'm just so disappointed in him! He encouraged me in keeping my virginity since I thought he was like me and wanted to save his. But now this....girl comes along and they haven't even dated for 6 months and he slept with her. I'm SO disappointed. I feel so much rage and disgust! I know most people will read this and think "oh, she's being too harsh about it" or "oh, it's none of her business" but...I don't rightly care. He let go of his morals and left me all by myself. I already feel insecure about dating a guy who's been around the block and up the alley, so to speak. Now I'm all by myself. Again. Stupid humans. Foolish humans. I don't know why I even try to make friends. I'm only going to be disappointed again. I'm so angry...so very angry. I dunno what to do. My boyfriend must be distraught since his...friend is like a brother to him, if closer. But..I just cannot bring myself to look at him. I feel betrayed. I'm all alone again. Everyone in my group is not a virgin and pollutes themselves with alcohol and smoke. I'm the only one who's like me and it's so lonely! To have to skip parties because all their parties consist of is them being idiots and getting hammered. What's the allure in that kind of life anyway? Especially when they complain the next day about how awful it is. What's so special about sex anyway? What's the rush to have it? Why are humans so weak to emotions like lust? I feel like I'm an endangered species here. Morals don't seem to mean anything to anyone these days. The common theme in society appears to be "If you like it, do it. If that's what you prefer, then fine by me." What kind of mentality is that anyway? Am I supposed to just spread my legs if I feel aroused by something or eat compulsively if I feel like eating?? I hate society, I hate people and their destructive ways. I wish I could become a hermit. Like seriously. This world sucks. I'm so disappointed.