"You won't if you fall asleep I'll carry you in when we get home…" Rail promised.

Ryan sighed, "After that week though I sort of lost my voice and couldn't really talk. And my cousin said that was okay because he had a new game he wanted to play that night that we had to be silent for. So I got evxcited at that because I loved new games…" He paused takig a breath. "So that night after Gray fell asleep he came into our room, Gray and I always share rooms, and asked if I was ready to play. I nodded and he siad for me to remain silent. Then he came close to me and climbed on my bed pushing me down. I thought at first that we were going to wrestle agan…and in away we did. I tried to scream or get Gray's help but I couldn't talk. I couldn't speak at all. And when he was done that night he said that if I told anyone I was a pussy. And I didn't want to be a pussy so I never spoke or told. Not that day or the weeks and weeks that followed. The day he enlisted in the army and went away was the happiest day since…"