Just one last update for everyone, then I think we can call this thread pretty much done. I've begun talking to a lawyer about leaving him, and what it will entail. I also talked to my landlord, who is willing to return half the security deposit to me personally after the divorce since he understands this was not my fault and I simply can't sustain the place on my own, well I could, but I don't want to be there anymore, not with it only having memories of a failed attempt at false happiness. Also, my best gay friend and I are looking at places in Pittsburgh, which is where I've wanted to move back to for a long time. I trust my friend completely and he is wonderful around my daughter, so I know that with his help she and I can start a new happy life without my husband. In the mean time I am still continuing to try to go to the councilling and talk to him just to see if there is any hope that it could be saved, but it does look like everything is just done now. Thank you all again for your help and advice.