08-28-2010, 02:58 AM
When Shinku saw how torn up and how hurt Dusk looked,Shinku felt like this was all her fault.Moving in with him..everything.Shinku now thought she was burdening him.She kneeled down on the ground sitting next to him and lookinh at him and wipping his tears as they fell."its alright don't worry.I know what your feeling don't worry.A couple years ago i was where you were out.Hurt.I wanted to move on.But when i forced myself to move on i ended up with a phyco."she said with a chuckle.
"Don't force yourself to move on.If your not ready,then your not ready."Shinku said keeping a smile on her face trying to resist those tears from falling.She wrapped her arms around Dusk trying to comfort him as best as she could.
"The guy i was madly in love with a couple years ago..was killed by the guy i was trying to move on with which made me to be in more pain that i tried commiting suicide over and over."Shinku said as she rocked Dusk gently in her arms.
Shinku thought this pain in her heart,this feeling she was feeling was making those suicidal thoughts come back.Maybe this feeling is guilt?Shinku asked herself.."Don't apoligise alright.Its not your fault."She said.After a couple of minutes Shinku stood up and patted his head."im going to go for a little walk so i can at least get some fresh air okay.When i come back you better be happy."I said right before i walked outside and toward the park.When Shinku got to the park she began to cry thinking that this date was never going to come true and she was never going to be happy again.
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