sullen

I am sullen
for something i cared about
disappeared
was given to someone who doesn't want it
who doesn't care
so here I sit grumpy
and it isn't a personal thing
I jsut wis
others had seen
how much I had wanted it
how little she cares
it isn't a let's give her a good position in hopes that she'll get more active
she doesn't want to be more active
she wants to be distant
and she doesn't consider it a high priority of aything
to her the work is more important
her social new group is what matters
it has nothing to do with us
but why
for it made no sense
to take away what I cared about
and turned it into nothing
so here that passive aggressive part of me
wants her to fail
wants her to quit
for I want what I are for back
and she does not deserve it
and hope she continues to have her hard time in the spring
rather than anything else
but we'll see
but all I can do
is hope she'll let it all go
and let go of being exec