Fides.... that name. She had never told him that name had she? A name that she barely knew herself... pain filled her, unspeakable pain as she stood and launched her attack at the monster. It fell off the roof disintegrating into golden dust that would harmlessly disappear before it reached the ground. She watched it with unseeing silver eyes as the seal cracked and she saw another time, another object falling. A beautiful shinning blue crystal, falling from a strong and beloved hand. Her heart.... her life's blood was falling, death rising to meet her from her lovers hand. It was going to crack and she would shatter with it, he... he was killing her!

She turned, her eyes half crazed as she gazed at leander just as she had those years ago. Hate and love mixed together perfectly in those eyes, passion and pain ripping each other apart. For a moment the fragment of the true fides that remained was in control. It screamed at him aloud. One word, the same word she had then even as she shattered her own soul rather than hear the answer. "Why!?"

Shay blinked, regaining control as she fell to her knees and her sailor fuku disappeared to reveal the clothing she'd been wearing before she transformed. Now she understood... why she couldn't remember correctly and why this 'past life' that she'd been dreaming of never really felt like her own. Fides... Fides was gone. She had shattered herself rather then continue to live in a world where her beloved Leander would take her life....

She didn't look at leander as a tear fell down her cheek, even though she now kneeled only a few inches in front of him. The tear sparkled, forming into the sacred crystal that had once been her purpose for existing. It was not as either had last seen it, it was now cracked and missing a small chip for being a reflection of Fides soul it to was not whole... not truly alive. The crystal flickered and then fell into Shay's hands as she gazed down at it.

"You...Do you know.....Do you realize what you did? What really happened to Fides? Did you mean.... Did you want to kill us or could you really not know?" She whispered softly, but her voice held a demand for an answer. She would not break, she would not shatter herself as Fides had done. She... this new sailor fides would not be destroyed so easily. Even if love for Leander was one of the shards of Fides soul that would always remain as she gazed at the crystal. Until Fides was released, truely allowed to die it would stay cracked...Shay was just another guard.

"How could she.....destroy herself? She whispered, more to herself than him. She gazed at the crystal, frowning. Once so sought after it was now merely a bauble... would it always remain so? She pushed the crystal into her pocket, not wanting to look at it anymore but not able to look at Leander. Her friend..... Her innocent friend was not innocent, not even human. Had he ever really cared for her at all or was he still chasing the heart he had destroyed?